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Jade Logan
Artist | Hobbyist | Traditional Art
United States
well update this ol profile. im no longer in college. i dont think college is right for me. ive been on a 2year journey to find myself and my art. it has lead me to showing the world what i can do. lately ive been working on a comic book. spent the last year writing the story and now im just about ready to start sketching it out. i hope to publish to taptastic or webtoons.. stay tuned for another half decade of me.
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  • Drinking: Wood Chuck Cider
When i first started writing about this chracter who suffered from panic disorder/ptsd i didnt know what it was really like. So i did a lot of research. like a lot. watched videos, read books all that jazz. well few months later maybe 6months later i move in with a person who is no longer my best friend. Living with her was the most stressful event of my entire life. I had my first and several other panic attacks while i was staying with her. They were awful. I have no idea why they are written in books and romanticized. I literally on many occasions thought i was going to die. I went to the hospital thinking i was dying. I couldn't breathe, my heart was beating so fast then as suddenly regaining normal rythm which freaked me out even more sending me into another cycle of it. 

Once i moved out and was in my own place i would still have panic attacks. the first week was awful. It wasnt exactly the i need to goto the hospital kind cuz by then i had gotten a low dose prescription for atavan or something related. I just had this awful dread every night or while i was eating. i couldnt get these thoughts out of my head, i couldnt catch my breath, i had to monitor my heart to make sure it was beating, i couldnt stop i wanted it to stop god stop. remember spending nights curled up in bed moaning and crying in agony while my mind destroyed me.

I thought this is what my character feels. I always wrote myself into my characters and i wonder if there was a reason i gave him this disorder.

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Cittykat17597 Featured By Owner Dec 4, 2016  Hobbyist Artist
Thanks for the favorite. :)
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ueufo Featured By Owner Nov 14, 2016
Thank you so much for the watch! ღゝ◡╹)ノ♡
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Unburnable Featured By Owner Oct 16, 2016  Student Digital Artist
thank you so much for the fav >w<
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JoyChaos Featured By Owner Nov 13, 2016  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
^_^ youre welcome
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Lusykia Featured By Owner Oct 14, 2016  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thanks for the fav :happybounce: 
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Crystal--Art Featured By Owner Oct 11, 2016  Student Traditional Artist
Thanks for watching me :love:
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JoyChaos Featured By Owner Oct 12, 2016  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
youre welcome. love your art
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mylovelyghost Featured By Owner Oct 11, 2016
Thank you for the fave and the watch! I really like your style and look forward to seeing your future master pieces! :)
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Super-Chi Featured By Owner Oct 10, 2016  Hobbyist General Artist
Thanks for the watch! :)
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JoyChaos Featured By Owner Oct 11, 2016  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
youre welcome sweetie
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