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Jade Logan
Artist | Hobbyist | Traditional Art
United States
well update this ol profile. im no longer in college. i dont think college is right for me. ive been on a 2year journey to find myself and my art. it has lead me to showing the world what i can do. lately ive been working on a comic book. spent the last year writing the story and now im just about ready to start sketching it out. i hope to publish to taptastic or webtoons.. stay tuned for another half decade of me.


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When i first started writing about this chracter who suffered from panic disorder/ptsd i didnt know what it was really like. So i did a lot of research. like a lot. watched videos, read books all that jazz. well few months later maybe 6months later i move in with a person who is no longer my best friend. Living with her was the most stressful event of my entire life. I had my first and several other panic attacks while i was staying with her. They were awful. I have no idea why they are written in books and romanticized. I literally on many occasions thought i was going to die. I went to the hospital thinking i was dying. I couldn't breathe, my heart was beating so fast then as suddenly regaining normal rythm which freaked me out even more sending me into another cycle of it. 

Once i moved out and was in my own place i would still have panic attacks. the first week was awful. It wasnt exactly the i need to goto the hospital kind cuz by then i had gotten a low dose prescription for atavan or something related. I just had this awful dread every night or while i was eating. i couldnt get these thoughts out of my head, i couldnt catch my breath, i had to monitor my heart to make sure it was beating, i couldnt stop i wanted it to stop god stop. remember spending nights curled up in bed moaning and crying in agony while my mind destroyed me.

I thought this is what my character feels. I always wrote myself into my characters and i wonder if there was a reason i gave him this disorder.


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Rumpeltyltskyn Featured By Owner Dec 4, 2016  Hobbyist Artist
Thanks for the favorite. :)
ueufo Featured By Owner Nov 14, 2016
Thank you so much for the watch! ღゝ◡╹)ノ♡
Unburnable Featured By Owner Oct 16, 2016  Student Digital Artist
thank you so much for the fav >w<
JoyChaos Featured By Owner Nov 13, 2016  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
^_^ youre welcome
Lusykia Featured By Owner Oct 14, 2016  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thanks for the fav :happybounce: 
Crystal--Art Featured By Owner Oct 11, 2016  Student Traditional Artist
Thanks for watching me :love:
JoyChaos Featured By Owner Oct 12, 2016  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
youre welcome. love your art
mylovelyghost Featured By Owner Oct 11, 2016  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thank you for the fave and the watch! I really like your style and look forward to seeing your future master pieces! :)
Super-Chi Featured By Owner Oct 10, 2016  Hobbyist General Artist
Thanks for the watch! :)
JoyChaos Featured By Owner Oct 11, 2016  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
youre welcome sweetie
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