So, here I am again. Been a long time since I've made a journal entry here, sites got a lot of good memories and brings back sad ones as well. But I'm back.
Came across some old photography I'd taken on my now prehistoric Digital Camera years ago, might upload it here to my gallery for kicks.
Haven't picked up a pen or pencil for the purpose of serious Artwork for years now.
And while I feel like saying "I don't know even how well I can draw or if I can anymore!" I know that's a load of rubbish. lol All it'll take is for me to put pencil to paper and it's like learning to ride a bike all over again, the muscle memory is still there, the creativity and inspiration and innate ability all there. Might be rough around the edges but it's still there.
Getting older, wanting more out of life, getting tired of this being single thing...
A bit crippled up. Herniated disc in my back with some spinal deterioration, makes it impossible to do some forms of work so been off work for some time due to that. Copd/Chronic Bronchial asthma too. Adds to that mix.
Keeps me from approaching people that interest me, as it does actually matter to me what they think. I rely on use of a cane to wait in line unless I can hide it by slipping it in the cart and leaning on that for relief, can't walk for too long or I aggravate the pain in my back and legs with sciatica. Deal with sleep apnea, and a machine for that at night.
How many women will want to deal with all that? Not too many I don't imagine.
Those that would are keepers, though.
Don't see many of those in my neck of the woods.
Had been lax on looking for work for a few years as my birth father passed away (he never bothered with me past one $15 child support payment, and I didn't know him at all), and I inherited a good amount of money which has sustained me, got me a brand new car at the time and the ability to help my family a bit in the process. Then the ailments come on, stupid. stupid. Should always plan ahead, I'm smarter than that.
Lost my Grandma Feb 1st 2017. Still saddens me and hurts, I was really close to her all of my life growing up. She lived a good long life at 102 years old, and still had her mind/memory/wit to the very end. I'm thankful to have had her in my life so long, many people don't have even half that time with their grandparents.
Been trying to improve my health even with my physical ailments, getting back into shape again using the OMAD (one meal a day) method, doing the math (always hated math lol) and calculating what I need to eat and how much to lose weight. Can't go too fast or I'll end up with sagging skin, oh and I have Hypothyroidism as well that hurts matters, causes metabolism to run a lot slower than normal. Don't know if this will mess up my efforts or not but we shall see. Plan on giving free weights and cardio cycling a work in on this as well to speed results and get in shape like I was 12 years back. Might seem a longshot but I'm trying it. Need it for myself if not to catch the attention of others again. If it works it's a win win for me.
Might pick up my guitar(s) again and try my damndest to learn on my own. My problem years ago was lack of a teacher. It'll give me another hobby to work at regardless.
Any friends still check in here at all anymore? Drop me a line, would like to hear from you.
Think I will retire for the night and see if I can watch one of my favourite movies "Some Kind of Wonderful". It's a John Hughes movie, more or less a romantic drama with great music. Kind of sets an ideal for me I'd like to live out and have happen, but that's just me dreaming again.
Ciao for now,