And Then It HappensNow follow me on this. You receive a promotion in a job you can honestly say you live for. Then, you meet the man/woman/person/barnyard animal/inanimate object of your dreams and not only is the feeling/biological reaction mutual, but he/she/they/it is available and completely and utterly devoid of any and all psychological baggage. Next, a distant relative whom you've only met once for a few hours, but honestly grew to righteously hate in that short period of time, dies and for some inexplicable reason leaves you their fully stocked and staffed two-hundred room mansion in the mountains, or on the beach, or in the woods ... wherever you would most prefer, the car of your dreams (fill in make, model, year, and options of your choice), and has prepaid all utilities, insurance and repair costs on both for the next century. In addition to all of this, your pet dog/cat/pig/reptile/arachnid/etc. who ran away five years ago returns home after apparently passing obedience school with flying co
Requiem for a Pipe DreamEverything seemed perfect,it just all fit into place.That is, until the day it slowlyblew up in my face.I should have know much better,seen it coming from afar,but we never truly understandhow blinded that we areby hope and need and every voidwe just can't seem to fill.However much you feed them,they just get hungrier still.I'd like to think I've finally learnedthis lesson once again,but I'm sure that I will probablybe back here now and then.
We're ThereAnd so, at last, we've reached the inevitable end,the destination we've been chasing all along.A bittersweet resolution to everything we've doneand now, I guess, it's time to say so long.
The Myth of IndependenceYou say "hell is other people.",but where do you think you'd beif everyone around youshared your misanthropic view?Without cooperation,in a world of apathy,what exactly is itthat you think that you could do?
Brain WaveFor so long I was stuck,but then inspiration struck.I found the right idea, at lastand now I'm on my way.
So That HappenedJust when I thought that itwas over, said and done,something told me thatit's only just begun.So I took another shotand tried with all my might,I only hope that it'senough to make things right.
Misanthropic Abandon“Hell is other people”,a wise man once did sayand from where I'm standing,they can all just go away.No one is an island,but I'm damn sure going to try.They only people I want to knoware me, myself and I.
MediocrityIn the mushy middleright between loved and despised.With no distinguishing features,but potential unrealized.It leaves no lasting impression,just emphatic apathyso all that's left to sayis that there's nothing here to see.
I'm FreeBreaking out of oldstructuresand their inherentrestrictionsuntil all that's leftis pureexpression.Completelyunfettered,and finallyset freeto embrace theopportunityto say exactlywhat's onmy mind.
DepressionThoughts run through your mind'I'm a failure, I'm worthless'Feel like you're being left beindInvisible to everyoneYour world is just so bleakYou believe words they say'You're pathetic, unwanted'You must be that wayGot no one to turn toYour 'friends' have all goneThey didn't have a clueCouldn't understandYou slit your wrists, want to dieThrough your veins runs despairAshamed, it's all your faultTo you life isn't fairSat in a corner, tears in your eyesThere's no hep, you're on your ownForce a smile so they don't realiseYou just can't cope anymoreThat's not true, there's someone thereTo help you out, help you throughHelp you sort troubles, beat depressionMaking you a happier youThe scars a permanent reminderOf all the pain you survivedYou're not worthless or a failureNot pathetic or unwanted
EmpyreanMomma said to never marry an astronaut,they will always prefer the twinkling starlightto the light in your eyes.They'll only end up in ships that floataimlessly in zero gravity and you will not be there.Momma said to never marry an astronaut.You will stand firmly on the earth,clutching the ground and knowingthey will always prefer the twinkling starlight.Planets will fracture and stars will collapselong before he recognizes he can travelto the light in your eyes.
Paradigm ShiftEmerging flash of starlight papbetween sunset and ocean capcolliding spang into my eyesfor once to have me realizenot everything becomes a song,and I shall sleep before too long.
Homosexuality BitesThey found me slumped over in the school showersWith a towel loosely wrapped around my waistScalding hot water was blistering my skinAs I bled from an unspeakable placeA hard-handed teacher dragged me to my feetWith little or no sign of sympathyFor the bruising to my feeble framed ribcageAnd the fractures to my identityI think they all thought that I had it comingAs no one was willing to testifyThat the sodomy inflicted upon meWas something to which I hadn’t compliedBoisterous boys laughing in the corridorsAs I shamefully limped throughout the dayNot a thought for the pain that was inflictedJust worried for what my parents would sayI couldn’t bear it if I saw in their eyesThat I deserved everything that I gotAs they are the ones who created my heartWhether they care for whom it beats or notSo I will take a discriminate beatingIf my resolve will help people to seeThat I can not be anything more or lessThan the person that I was born to be
EmoEmo*are not crybabies*do not always wear black*can be VERY nice people*do not always cut themselves*are not always depressed*can be happy too*are normal people just like you!*EMO is just a label for emotional people!that tend to fall in love easly and cry
Continental DriftI suppose you call this time fall.It’s always autumn to me. Your alien mindlikes to speak in a distorted tongue.And when we see the spinning leavesdrifting down an eggshell skyI catch oak, and your hands are empty.There half the houses stand empty,you say as you watch rain fall.There the world is bigger than the sky,with room for my restless mind.I know you pine for maple leaves,for bittersweet syrup on your tongue.The words are waiting to leave your tongue.This land is small and your heart is empty.That’s why everyone ups and leaves.This place is paradise after the fall,There you can be naked. No one would mind,no one would see you bare yourself to the sky.Through the window is my perfect sky,the places that come easy to my tongue,If we left maybe no one would mindbut me, I say. But if your land is emptywho would catch me in your wondrous fall?If your land is perfect, wha
What was I thinking?Caught unawaresand unable to dealwith a foolish illusionthat I thought was real.A lapse in composure,a loss of control.A lifelong anomalytaking its toll.