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I'm pleased to announce that my latest album, The End of All Things, is now available on all the platforms!

I wrote about this a bit before when I was maintaining a Wordpress-based blog but with all the changes I've made lately, I'll repost some of that here.

This album ultimately became a story about relationships, loss, and all the feelings you have in between. For me, the story takes on that of two people who had built a life together. They were happy and had all the things that you’d associate to a happy and healthy relationship, but then one of those people were taken away from the relationship. Whatever the reason, the remaining member is angry, grieving, and wishing it could have been them instead.

From the viewpoint of that remaining person, we work our way through the relationship – remembering the good times at first and then becoming bitter about being left alone and being unable to connect to the world that is still around us… Drifting aimlessly until finally coming to some form of acceptance. It’s a realization that all things end, and that’s okay.

You can find it on Spotify, Apple Music, or my personal favorite Bandcamp. I hope you enjoy it!

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I was recently at a party. Well, actually, I hosted said party. Okay, fine, my partner hosted the party and I just participated. We have a lot in common but when it comes to interfacing with other people, she's far better at it than I could ever be.

So there we were, having a party, and I did my usual party-going routine. I found my way to the food station, got a bite, and then found my way (with drink in hand) to the least occupied room in the house with a defensible position. In this case, it's the kitchen.

You aren't familiar with my kitchen so imagine a box. No, smaller than that. Keep going, even smaller. Now shove oversized, modern appliances into that tiny box - and you're probably still thinking of something larger than my kitchen. In no way was this kitchen designed for anyone that enjoys cooking. Or eating. It's the kind of kitchen that if you saw it on an HGTV show, all the renovation budget would be spent on opening up that kitchen.

Anyway, it's the best room to be in during a party because there is a natural limit to how many people can be in said room at any given time. Let's just say it's three. Me and two other people. This is the perfect party hideout room. It's right outside the action so you can pretend like you're part of the party but it's segmented off that someone really has to want to be there to engage with you.

My small kitchen is a distraction from what I wanted to write about.

Though, I should tell you a few more things about my house before I move on. The first thing to know is that if you see my office, the guitars and keyboard are very prominent. I don't think I'm trying to prove anything, I just like to keep things close otherwise I won't practice every day. And the rest of the house is my gallery. In just about every room, my paintings and drawings are hung on the wall.

Yeah, it's a bit odd having a tribute to myself but the truth is that it's like this because I don't sell my work and I can't afford to fill my walls with other people's art. So, middle ground.

Anyway, the couple I was talking with had not been here before and the conversation went roughly like this:

Woman: "Are all these paintings and drawings yours?"

Me: "Yeah, it's what I do to unwind."

Woman: "And you make music too?"

Me: "I mean, I try."

I'm feeling a bit... conceited, perhaps, so I throw a joke out there: "But, you know, the only way I can do it is to ignore the kids." I say it's a joke but it's true. Ask my kids.

Man: *Gestures at me with a "See?" look to his wife*

Now, I definitely feel like I just walked into something. A trap, maybe. More conversation happened but what I gleaned from it was that the husband in the relationship must be ignoring his kids and his wife and she's not particularly happy about it. (I do want to make it very clear here that I like this couple and I wish them the best. They seem great and if they ever land here, I hope they don't hold this against me.)

However, in the conversation, I immediately feel like I need to backpedal on what I was saying earlier about "having time to myself" and "it's okay to ignore the family" because I'm 100% on her side here.

What do I tell them?

I told them the truth. I said that while I make light of ignoring the family, I never actually ignore my partner. Even if I've had a hard day at work or just really want to work on my hobbies one night, I put it all aside and I'll see if she wants to watch TV or do something together. Sometimes, we just sit in the same room and work on our own separate projects. I do what I can to support her pursuits and I always set aside budget for date night. I try to listen when she wants to talk about something and I rarely say no.

I told the husband: "Even if you don't want to do it, just ask her to watch TV or something. You have to make time."

If you've read this far, you might be thinking something about how self-righteous I must be. I won't lie to you - that's exactly what this is about. When I walked away from that conversation, I felt great! I felt almost vindicated. It was like: "Hey, I have all these flaws but now I know, I'm doing this one thing right." No matter what happens with that other couple - if they find happiness in each other or if he continues to ignore her - I can at least sleep easy knowing that I'm doing things better.

I make mistakes but I, at least, always make time.

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You know, I’m a pretty busy person. I try to draw, paint, make music, blog, raise kids, occasionally interact with other humans, and along the way - I have to fit in work too.

I think I’ll try something new. I’m going to consolidate down to just this portfolio. I’ll probably still post once every few months but maybe now when the mood strikes, I’ll toss up a journal entry and share my thoughts with the world. Why not?

If nothing else, it’ll be easier for me to keep up and the same number of people will read it. 😂

Until I get around to redirecting the domain, you can see my previous blogs at (After I get around to the redirection: It feels good just to think about tearing it all down! I’m looking forward to being here instead.

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