Am I back now? I dunno. I just don't feel like I have to stay away. I pushed myself too far, made a lot of bad decisions, failed a lot of people, and ended up hurting myself pretty badly. It's been a few years and I've repaired some of the damage... I'm not the same as I used to be but maybe I'm better off this way.
For the first time in a long time I felt like I wanted to draw things and share them. So I did. That's all I know.
(I actually wrote this as a youtube comment a few minutes ago but I kinda like it so I'm re-posting it here.)
There's a sort of "paradox" with gender identity that's bothered me for a long time and I'm gonna type about it here just because. This might be a bit of a mess because I haven't really expressed the idea outside my head very often.
What bothers me sometimes is that the whole transgender/transition thing almost seems to imply a certain level of sexism and/or anti-feminism (forgive me if I stumble over terminology here, hopefully my meaning will come through). I spent a decade thinking I might need to transition from male to female i
Alright, last journal was all about not knowing what to do next. I sort of got past that for now, so here's what's happening...
For now my main creative focus is resuming Ninmu Nanmu as a comic to the best of my ability. So far I've been doing a pretty terrible job of finishing on time, but the work is getting done and I'm pretty happy with the finished pages. I should be able to upload new pages weekly if I keep learning from my mistakes. Some of the delays have also been caused just because it's been so long and I've lost track of some of my old plans and reference drawings and such; that should stop happening after a little
That whole IndieGoGo disaster is finished so I guess it's about time I pushed that journal off the front page. I wish I could make some big announcement about starting up comics again or something but honestly I have no idea what I'm doing. So I'm kinda throwing this journal together to help me think I guess. Journals are supposed to be good for that sort of thing.
Resume Comics?A lot of people have said they hope I return to making comics. That's definitely something I'd like to do at some point but ... I guess there are some issues? Well... more like I'm not totally sure how to go about it. I could just try to pick up exactly where I left
Okay so I semi-announced this a couple days ago: All work on the Ninmu Nanmu game is suspended, the game may or may not ever be finished, and I'm planning to offer refunds to the people who contributed to my IndieGoGo campaign.
So far most people responding to the news have been kinder than I could have hoped, and that has made this process much easier for me. Thank you all for being so understanding.
The game is, at present, a disorganized collection of ideas, notes, concept art, and source code. There isn't even really a partially finished game to show, which is really the problem. As far as I can tell I have absolutely no talent
I've been working on better ways to announce this but I think I just need to get it out there. In the near future I will begin refunding my IndieGoGo backers. The Ninmu Nanmu game will not be finished any time soon and possibly never will be. I'll post more information soon but right now I just need to get past the initial pain and shame. I screwed up and I'm sorry. That's all I can think to say right now.
I assume most of my watchers are already aware, but some other guys are also doing a TG/TF themed game; DKDevil (https://www.deviantart.com/dkdevil) and Zetsub (https://www.deviantart.com/zetsub) are hard at work on their visual novel game (latest update), and are also trying to get it approved on Steam Greenlight.
I dunno if you've ever read the comments on greenlight, but that stuff can be really harsh. A lot of people are trashing this game for no good reason, so if you like what DK and Zet are doing and you want to support their game you should get over there and vote; if you've already voted, leave a positive comment about how excited you are to play the game. A lot of people are questioning why th
So if you're writing a game in something like C++, there's a decent chance that you'll end up defining things like items, NPC behavior, and one-time events in some kind of scripting language like Lua or Python.
But what if you're already writing your game in python?
Common wisdom seems to say that game assets should be stored in files outside of the game's code. This is a good idea, but it also lends itself to the strange idea that this data must be stored in some other format as well.
Today I asked myself "If I'm writing the game in Python and I need a file format for storing structured data, couldn't I just use more Python?"
It turns ou
I've decided that I need more feedback and community support for my game, so I'm putting a pretty big emphasis on updating the dev blog and stuff like that. I'm thinking I'll also try posting more stuff here on DA since I always get a bigger response over here.
Fun fact: As I type this, I'm having exactly the problem I always have with posting more often. I'm sitting here thinking "This isn't a very long journal, and it's not that interesting, should I really post something like this?". I always feel like I have to have something big and impressive to post, and I'm trying to get over that.
For anybody who didn't already notice, my Indiegogo fundraiser was a success and I'm now making a Ninmu Nanmu game. The Ninmu Nanmu website has been converted over to a development blog where I post stuff about the game and its progress.
Woo, some people might have already heard about this via the deviation I posted earlier but for completeness I'll post a journal as well! I'm starting up an Indiegogo campaign to make a game based on Ninmu Nanmu, which my DA watchers are probably already familiar with. You can check it out over here: Ninmu Nanmu at Indiegogo. Even if you can't or don't want to back the project right now, make sure you check back once in a while. I'll be adding more information and content right up to the last day.
If you've got any questions about the fame or the fundraiser, I'm happy to answer them. Just comment on this journal, send me a note, or whatever.
Here's a journal for my front page to clarify that this account should be considered DORMANT.
That means that I don't post anything, and I only check for comments and such maybe once a week. The account isn't abandoned or anything; I'll probably post some stuff again eventually. I just don't know when.
If you're sad and want some TG art, you could try checking over at Ninmu Nanmu to see if I've updated lately. If I'm being slow there as well, you could always go check to see if blackshirtboy (https://www.deviantart.com/blackshirtboy) or any of the other TG people on DA have posted anything.
Anyway, that's about all I had to say. I'll be back eventually, and see you all then.
At this point I have no idea when or even if I'll return to making comics. I've shut down my patreon and I won't be posting anything for the foreseeable future. My apologies to anybody disappointed by this news; if it helps, know that it hurts me mor...
Well here we are again with the not updating and not really saying anything about it. Sorry guys, I'm just trying to keep my head above water over here. Most of my time is spent sleeping, exercising, or trying to cope with anxiety and depression.