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Stumbling through narrow paths.
Afraid of what will come next.
As the darkness closes in
I start to run.
What have I done to deserve this
never ending hunt?
I will never be able to return home.
My existence is shattered.

As I stop to gasp for air, I wonder...
Wonder when my final call might come.
And if it's really worth escaping from.
I'm so tired.

Between trees and stones.
On stale paths, beneath my reality.
It's like I lost the key to my mind.
I can no longer control myself.
No more running!
I will fight my demons right here.

Dear child, through horrors
and fright you will fade.
Fade to distant worlds
and distant lives.
As you lose your suffering,
there's nothing more to believe in.
Your belief to this day has been life.
Now my belief will fill
your soul with death.

I no longer run,
I stand my ground and wait...

I wait...
The night sky is ever still as
silence descends, the four winds
becoming one caressing my
naked body, and as you watch
the branches bend,
revealing all of you.

Long lost, but never forgotten.

Will you meet me at the lake
where the water calms my fear?
Will you once more fall in love
and light in me your flame?
Come to me once more,
and I shall know peace and at last be free.

The shattered path before my
heavy feet, leading me inward
to this broken temple of love,
lust and creation, resting here
whilst heeding the call.

We now lay under the moonlit sky
in the shadows of the past,
and as we become one the stars
kneel down, whispering poetry
of this withering moment.

The falling leaves weaving
a blanket, underneath it
the innermost truth,
feeding the sands of time,
stilling it's hunger
while we quench our thirst.

Taking our place among forever,
remembered only by two.

Now closing our eyes to see,
changing our hearts to feel,
sealing our lips to hear.
The call of the raven moon,
laying us to rest.

Your skin like silver
in the night, your face like a poem without words,
Your touch was the sun in my heart,
and my heart was found by you.

And as the worlds begins to wake
so falls the last petal,
and at all things end we must go
our separate ways into the night,
always alone because
I couldn't save you.

And for that, I am sorry and always will be!..
Bathed in dementia was her mind
And every breath she took was a failed suicide
Her inner tears were dreams that reality imprisoned
Carving on her eyes distress
Drowning the sand castles inside
ensnared by woven melancholy was her heart
and in every web another dying hope
Her utopia was burned away On a dark march day
Her hopes are dead and gone breaking the immortal bond
Time is slowly ticking out of turn
Still waiting for him but he will never return
She's agitated, numb, futile
This is something no one else can feel
Her heart has been worn and torn
Misery , pain , solitude were born
The feelings she constantly feels she cannot seal up
Loss of innocence, hope, and happiness is what she must mourn
Sometimes everything can be just too much
Pushing her so far into melancholy and such
And everything she would do for only his touch
She can't fully explain her feelings to anyone
Her eyes are obscured with tears she can't see the sun
Chasing Azrael screaming please take me away fire your gun
Her heart consumes off the loneliness she feels inside
Trapped inside a nightmare with no way to wake up
she wish if she was trapped in his embrace instead
As she sits in silence, she cries ceaselessly
She screams out silently at the dead of night
Please let me escape this dreadful life
End my horrible pain with this knife
She's been living so long in this world of hate and deceit
She wasn't ready before but now she can face this deadly feat
This pain is so bad she can't sleep, she can't eat
She tries to clean up her memories but they're never neat
In her solitude, she whispers as if he could hear
As if somehow, he knew that she cry's here
And decided to comfort her and go near
He carved a place inside her for only his seed
So that no matter what happened between them
She would still be thinking, wanting, dreaming, needing him
And he will forever lay there In her heart and memories
Finally.......with whatever is going on......that i know about or not even having a clue about what it is..........with all the tremendous storm of mixed feeling i do have......i just have to say that....deep down....i wish you all the best......wishing you the perfect most suitable person that you feel free with......wishing you happiness......success.....lots of true friends......dreams come true.....needs fulfilled......revenge accomplished.....but most important......the way you smile.....am still that blind.....i still do have the doubts of the past yet confusion of the future......am hunted by your presence....yet happy by your existence........i'll never do love someone as much as i do love you.....not even my own self......for that moment till forever i'll love you with all i've got.....i'll define all common sense with my mere powers of human knowledge...... am not tryin to impress you...for i know am not....yet i'll love you even more without you knowing it...i'll never stop doing so even if you told me so....i am as fucked as your worst nightmares yet am happy your doing just fine without me..... Glad that your at your peek of happiness......even though i reached to rock bottom of misery....knowing that you now got the power to torture ,even crush me......yet knowing that i love you after all that hatred you now posses to me......am not tryin to tell you that to pity me......am just tryin to make you feel good....knowing that my attempts are just false.....for my goal is to make you happy as promised...knowing that i betrayed lots of ma promises.....made you sad and miserable while i existed into your life.....felt bad about how dark i could that you cant bear with....lots of negativity that needs to be exorcises outta me just so you can look me in the eye....yet knowing that by you torturing me makes you happy......then am all for it....i need nothing for i have everything i need.....loving you is so sufficient for my unwanted existence........besides having lots of gods blessing.....and all that have been took away from me....the one and only gift i appreciate every single day.....is YOU.....and that am blessed for loving you so much.....hurt....pain....loneliness....misery...grief.....are the prices that am paying.....but i dont mind...as long as i see you as happy as you could be.....then am glad to offer you my own coffin while am in it....just to see a smile on your face.....knowing that hell is where i belong.....but the Love that i've got to you turns it into a worthy mountain of sorrow to bear........Again i'll love you always and forever.....you dont have to love me back....you dont have to know....am just sayin that for i dont want nothing but to see you smile...and know that whenever you exist in that world....know that there is someone out there who loves you more than your love to your own self.......for i know i never loved someone as much as i did to you....now you and God know that.....so feel free to hate me....torture me....even burry me alive...yet i wont stop LOVING you......even if i ran outta all sources of survival.....
I had to do some research and stalk.....i had the chance and it's been a long time since....yet what i've found out....showed alot......and i found out how much different things are...and how much i am and "....." is.....i was so blind....and yet i still am.....am i really that stupid or i was just mere someone......did i love more than i should or i wasn't that loved at all....was i really something divine as much as i did see "...." or i was just a phase of building own's self.....how painfull a blessing could be ma curse....i donno what to do anymore.....Now am really Sad i had to go through this.....and i dont wish for nothing....I AM JUST FUCKED......!!
44323200 sec. since the day............
I'll Always and Forever.........
The sec. are going on..........
Does not faze me nor cure Me....
I'll never Stop doing so.....
For i had never controlled what i am Born with....
I do till the last sec. known to universe.......
As i Swear to my own secret.....
As i Hide my true color......
As i Procrastinate through human's Forsaken Connections.....
As i Dive into the deepest Darkness of my own Misery....
As i See my Light through a Tinted Window.........
For i see my own Forbidden Apple of my Destiny.......
When Despair visits my Sanctuary.....
Holiness comes from thee yet am Damned to be.....
Existence is just a Depersonalization  for sane.....
Conciseness of Emotions is not what it's purpose meant for...
Archery of Ones heart is inevitable yet Untamable....
Truthful Form of any new Born is just conceiving....
Yet since the day I've seen my Angel....I've lost in all Prologue Scenes of Humanity...
Thats when my Biological Clock just halted with a breeze of sapphire blue scent......
Knew that it wasnt meant to be for Quasimodo to be Prince Aladdin.....
Even Though Simba waited for the Resurrection of his Mufasa.....
I've seen her as my beloved Marge Simpson yet loving her more than the beer tavern of Moe's.....
But since my unwanted child of both Bipolar and Miscommunication.....
Here by Agnostic child was born......
My Angel Then Damned my soul with Eternal Suffering...........
My Demons never did visit me...for they never had a chant at my Sanctuary.....
I Instead found out I am my own Antichrist.....
and the Sapphire  blue scent vanished as never happened....
Came to Blame no one for One's fault.....
Yet cant Blame no Creation for one's Module.....
I had to take a rain check for that was my only Option .......
And just be a tear drop in a rainy day..........
I do cherish the pause.....
I do value the Awkward kiss....
I do love the lumpy lips......
For once beauty concerned me with those braces.....
And i was Gladly Happy for my divine gift came with such simple nose....
Again Seconds Turnes in Minutes.....
Minutes into Hours....
Hours into days.....
to then i found out I've been counting  1 year, 4 months, and 24 days......

uN derstanding.....
tO lerant......
lU st free......
iR resistible.....

That's when adore cant be described nor love can be put in words..............
And Thats when I'll never change.....
Because then I'll lose What i only had.......
Which is you....
and Then my own Sec. wont count and i wont ever exist............
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