Continuing the 30 Days of Pride Challenge. #30DaysOfPride
2. How old were you when you first discovered you were LGBTQ?
Honestly, as far as the whole "being trans" thing goes, I've basically known since my earliest memory (like age 3 or 4). From pretty much day one, I knew I didn't feel right as a boy. I didn't know terminology or anything until we got the internet in my house in my early teens, mind you. The catch is that I was put under the impression very early on that how I felt was "weird" or taboo or whatever. So, I knew how I felt, but I was too afraid to say or do anything about it for most of my life.
Orientation-wise, things were a bit easier for me. I mean, I grew up pretending to be a boy (and I admit I wasn't very good at it), but I always liked girls. Not really much in the way of discovery there. And accepting that I still liked girls through transition wasn't really an issue. I don't know. That just wasn't a problem for me.
That said, I will add that I only started noticing an occasional attraction to men since starting hormone therapy. I don't know if one thing has any connection to the other, but that's when I noticed it. It IS rare though, and although I consider myself panromantic now, my attraction towards men seems to usually be limited to guys who are a bit more femme. (It's also moot since I'm monogamous and happily married to a woman.) XD
Finally, I did NOT pick up on my asexuality until like two years ago. Looking back, the signs were all there, but I think there was some kind of confusion on what the term really meant and perhaps a little bit of denial. XD
Needs to be said.
Since then, I gradually came out to more and more people until now I'm more or less openly bi. My current girlfriend is both trans and ace, by the way, and for her she just knew she was a girl from the start and never thought of herself as male.
Orientation didn't make much sense to me. I always liked girls. This was "normal" because I was a "guy". Looking back, I know there were some guys in high school I liked a lot, and while it's less than girls, I definitely like both. And since I don't think gender should be a factor, I'd have no issues being attracted to someone who isn't clearly boy or girl.
Starting to wonder now, though, whether I might juuuussst slightly sorta maybe be gender-fluid??? I don't even know.
I discovered i was ace ... well my earliest memories are trying desperately to have one sexuality or another but i didnt accept it until i was into my twenties.
With that, being biromantic was never really a question, but being poly was a confusing and stressful realisation in my late twenties.
As I got older though, I realized I ONLY got "attracted" as it were to someone I was deeply in love with. What do they call someone who only gets physical urge in the presence of a strong emotional bond?
As for the first part: I, much like Jocelyn, am Ace. I still get into relationships with people, however, I just don't experience sexual attraction. Now, that isn't to say that my bits just don't work, they do (leading to some awkward moments when I have to get up and have a tent in my pants), I just don't get aroused by looking at someone's body, or even thinking about them. Basically, I just don't have sexual urges.
Aromantic since I've never had crushes, been attracted to anyone, or had a desire to be married.
Guess I shoulda known I was demi for quite a bit longer since the signs for that were there. I had the same crush all the way from elementry through high school, and then I didn't really fall in love with anyone else until I had already formed a connection with someone online. Guess part of it was also not knowing that Demisexual was even a thing until I consciously acknowledged that I'm trans.
As far as actually knowing I was trans... in a way I knew my whole life somewhere deep down. Just not entirely consciously until more recently. At age 5 I had put up barriers in my mind out of fear, and lived with a false male persona where I was scared of being true to myself most of my life because of the bullies.
The fear started when I went into the girl's restroom in Kindergarden and the bullies started making fun of me for it. Being girly was what bullies picked on me for the most through school, any time I would just try to be myself.
I'm not scared anymore though.
I had crushes with girls but in mid 2015 I've got my first boy crush (that's for biromantic). I can see myself being romantically involved with a girl and/or boy.
As of now, I see myself being more sexually attracted to guys than girls. Sometimes, in the gym, I peek at the men's dressing room to see a naked guy.
At the end of January, I questioned my gender as well, but that discussion went nowhere when I discovered that I would rather be more feminine than being an actual girl. But I sometimes enjoy crossdressing
It wasn't until High School I realised I was gay, and, honestly, it figured, and I was okay with it. Ended up telling my grandmother and she told everyone else.
Sexuality-wise, probably 13 or younger I figured I was bisexual, but at 15 I found Pansexual a more suiting term.