After nine years, I did the impossible and finished the "Yin and Yang" series. And... I know it's "just a fanfic" to people, but to me it's an accomplishment. I started writing the series nine years ago, and two forums ago.
And now... It's finally complete.
I always had some guilt in the back of my mind for not finishing it. So many of your read it, made artwork for it, left reviews that got me through some times that were probably more stressful then I let on. I have all of those--The pieces of artwork, the fanfics-- In a large binder. It's one of my most treasured items.
I finished this mainly as gift to a reader who was a longtime fan of the series. Aquaua was a great inspiration to helping finish it, and even made audio recordings of all of the episodes (a herculean effort, but with a wonderful result). Hearing those words again inspired me, and it inspired me to look through the artwork that so many of you had made-- Rien, bluenin, Viroro, Kuriri, Jazzhands -- I'm sorry I'm literally forgetting 90% of the people I meant to thank for your support over the years. Know that even if I can't remember your online name right now that I haven't forgotten you. This is just emotional.... These characters have been a big part of my life for a long, long while. It's surreal to know that these chapters, and this chapter of my life, is finally complete. Will I go back to this universe and these characters? Time will tell. But for now I think they're all in a good place, and that was my ultimate goal.
I started writing "Yin and Yang" as a pretty lonely NEET who spent almost every waking hour on the computer. I was failing some college classes, looking after an ailing relative who passed away within three months of my watching Keroro, and had no job prospects, having just been laid off. I wasn't in a very good place emotionally when I started it, I'll admit. Maybe that was a little bit of my hesitation to going back. I changed so much after a while that... I was a little afraid I'd start and feel sad again. But... I felt *happy* going back to it. Because I had so many good memories of having fun writing it, responding to feedback, roleplaying out scenarios, and, most importantly, making friends through it. People I've been friends with for.... Probably about a decade now, some of them! It was so much fun remembering it that writing the rest just came pouring out naturally.
I never knew when I started a fanfic about a little pink Keronian who had a love for machines that it would lead to as much as it did. I've made friends here and in different countries-- Friends I've had movie marathons with, ridden carousels with, played in the snow with, drank too much and gone to anime conventions with. Friends I've talked on Skype to long hours into the night and straight into the morning. Friends I still have close to my heart to this day.
I may not be that NEET any more.... But that's okay. At this point I'm busier, with a full-time job I love (and that involves writing!) and I don't have as much time to write, but that's all right. I'm the aunt to a pair of wonderful nieces, and I can't wait to show them "Yin and Yang" someday--To show them that sometimes it's not just a story you're writing, that it can be so much more than that, and that it's okay if you have to take a little time off if you want to finish it later.
Thanks for believing in me all of these years guys. If you want to see me and what I'm up to, please drop me a line on my tumblr at quietanarachist.
Until then, thank you everyone. For all of the wonderful years.
-- <3 Lucy