Current Residence: Hobart, Australia
deviantWEAR sizing preference: L
Print preference: Varies
Favourite genre of music: Metal, classical, dark ambient
Favourite photographer: Archival
Favourite style of art: Surreal, imaginative, visionary
Operating System: Crappy old PC
MP3 player of choice: Loud
Shell of choice: Reinforced Concrete
Wallpaper of choice: Distressed
Skin of choice: Leather with history
Favourite cartoon character: Too many to name
Personal Quote: "So much work, so little time."
I wouldn't beat myself up too much. From what I've seen on your homepage, you're in a good place right now, and the path you've taken has brought its own share of rewards.
If you're after brain food I recommend online documentaries; they cost nothing and provide starting points if you want to do further research. I've found non-fic books can also offer a good foundation for creative journeys. Just don't be afraid to cross-reference! I've also found some great sites devoted to all things weird and wonderful. Here's one I keep coming back to: https://www.darkroastedblend.com/
Hope at least some of this has been helpful!