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Olive Cooper (commission #2 by Ropeandfeet) by Jeuretics
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Olive Cooper (commission by Xinom) by Jeuretics Olive Cooper (commission by Xinom) :iconjeuretics:Jeuretics 7 5 Olive Cooper (skoodle 03 by ScotchWaifus) by Jeuretics Olive Cooper (skoodle 03 by ScotchWaifus) :iconjeuretics:Jeuretics 11 1 Olive Cooper (skoodle 02 by ScotchWaifus) by Jeuretics Olive Cooper (skoodle 02 by ScotchWaifus) :iconjeuretics:Jeuretics 10 3 Olive Cooper (skoodle 01 by ScotchWaifus) by Jeuretics
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Olive in peril! (commission by BDSMtoAll) by Jeuretics
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Olive Cooper (commission #4, alt. version) by Jeuretics
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Olive Cooper (commission #4 by Ropeandfeet) by Jeuretics
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Olive Cooper (commission #3 by Ropeandfeet) by Jeuretics
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Olive Cooper (commission #1 by Ropeandfeet) by Jeuretics Olive Cooper (commission #1 by Ropeandfeet) :iconjeuretics:Jeuretics 4 0 Olive Cooper, junior detective by Jeuretics Olive Cooper, junior detective :iconjeuretics:Jeuretics 3 0

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YCH 030 by BDSMtoAll
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Freshman Flashback: Walk of Shame by sikstiks
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Ropeworks Receptionist by ElijahPink
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Grecia in catsuit and belts by DivaRope
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FF Halloween for all with CatlLuna II !!! by DivaRope
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Commission 692 - WaltTakki by bramhistory Commission 692 - WaltTakki :iconbramhistory:bramhistory 164 10 Left Alone by Deltonimage
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RS: Sakura and Saiyagirl by Ztunner
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Kim Vs Sheego 16 by Natsuko-Hiragi Kim Vs Sheego 16 :iconnatsuko-hiragi:Natsuko-Hiragi 368 12 A Rousing Gagging by FrayedKnotWasTaken
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It's been about 15 years or so on Deviantart, maybe 6 or 7 under this current account, I really can't say. Over the years, I've quit Deviantart a number of times for one reason or another. Rejoining whenever I've felt that I'm "ready" to try it again has always been easy and too tempting to resist. I've come back before, and I realize that may happen again. But still, I realize that I'm currently stuck in a major rut in my life, and that quitting Deviantart is one meaningful step I can take to try to help myself.

Over time, the boundary between fanart and fetish art and pornography just blurs, and it becomes impossible to try to cut any part of that out of my Deviantart experience. I follow dozens, probably hundreds of artists, and every day there's so many new works to look at, to add to my favorites list, to sort and categorize and comment on. I can easily spend an hour or more every day on this site, exploring and finding new stuff that appeals to me in so many unique ways and gives me a sense of personal fulfillment that I should be getting in other parts of my life. Without ever meaning to, I have devoted a HUGE part of my life to keeping up with what everyone is doing here, and it's definitely been at the expense of my personal creativity, intimacy with my partner and trying to find ways to bring my fantasies to life somewhere more tangible than on a computer screen. I have been lost in my head for most of my life and the sense that time is running out on me--which I've realized for years now--is just one of many factors that has made me realize I really need to get out of here if I want to have anything of value for myself when this is all over.

I simply cannot sit down on the computer to work on any of my own creative pursuits without my mind drifting off to wondering what's on Deviantart (or Pixiv, another distraction I will have to cut out as well). I can't possibly overstate how much I LOVE finding new fanart of my favorite characters, how much I love seeing new works from my favorite artists, how much that stuff is just totally running the show in the reward centers of my brain, leading me to never get anything done on personal projects, holding my attention and imagination captive, enticing me to ruminate and dwell on depressive thoughts, and just crawl further and further into my shell and away from the outside world. I know this site can be a great tool for connecting with others, and I've definitely had some meaningful interactions with other people here that I really value, even if it's only in personal, private ways that I've never really shared with anyone else. However, that again is no substitute for real life interactions and experiences, and the number of hours I've spent on DA where I could have been doing something, anything at all with other people (or bettering myself in ways that could help me find new ways to do that) is just an amazing amount of time I can't quantify but I'm certain would absolutely change me for the better if I could ever get it back.

Even to the very end, I've been adding pictures to my favorites list. Life is challenging, often really disappointing and frustrating, and just letting my imagination run wild in the fantasy worlds that artists here have created has been such an escape from having to deal with this in ways I'd rather not. Even now, I have no idea just how I want my life to change, what I want to do differently other than simply NOT getting sucked into the Deviantart/Pixiv wormhole for like two hours every day, but I recognize that this has to come to an end.

There are a few people here who I really wish I could personally reach out to and thank for the time I've spent corresponding with them, and I wish there was some way I could take what it is that I love about their work and their vision with me without actually feeling like I have to stay plugged in to the never-ending addictive drip of content on this website. I'm going to avoid doing this because I really need to just cut and run if I'm ever going to accomplish anything and have a meaningful adult life outside of staying bound to the same websites and behaviors I've been routinely addicted to since the mid 2000s.

Thanks for sharing your work and staying in touch. I really wish you well! Maybe I'll even be back someday, after all I've been in this spot before and I know how this tends to play out. Of course, it always does...until the day it doesn't anymore. There was probably more I wanted to say here, but this is an entry that I could spend the rest of my life writing if I let myself.

Practice kindness and patience towards others (at least more than I have, you can definitely do better than me). Take care of yourselves, too.

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:iconkaspired:
kaspired Featured By Owner Mar 10, 2019
Thanks for the pair of favs!
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dannysuling Featured By Owner Jan 16, 2019  Hobbyist General Artist
Msny thanks for the watch!
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MiraurieNSFW Featured By Owner Dec 11, 2018  Student Artist
Thank you for watching me ~
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MisterMistoffelees Featured By Owner Nov 6, 2018  Hobbyist General Artist
Thanks for the faves, Jeuretics!... :D
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MrGerudoMan Featured By Owner Oct 25, 2018  Hobbyist Writer
Thanks so much for the watch!!! :la:
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JokerfakeGKG Featured By Owner Oct 20, 2018  Hobbyist General Artist
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Thanks for the +favs
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JIMENOPOLIX Featured By Owner Oct 6, 2018  Hobbyist General Artist
Thanks for faving! :thumbsup:
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TheBoundArtist Featured By Owner Oct 5, 2018  Professional Digital Artist
Thank you so much for the fav and watching, it really means a lot to me!!!
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JIMENOPOLIX Featured By Owner Sep 12, 2018  Hobbyist General Artist
Thanks for faving! :thumbsup:
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TobyRobin Featured By Owner Jul 17, 2018  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Happy Birthday Big J !
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