The Unposted Letter"Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to youYou are my only one…"- Yellowcard (I know the song is about something other than what happened, but this line is true either way)Dear #@$%&,I stand here hoping you'll rescue my heart which has fallen below my knees. But all I can get out is please. I tried to tell you once how you saved me and I fumbled over the words. Now that you are gone, the silence you have left behind rings ever so loudly. I've thought a lot about it and can't get past the fact that it's gone. It's all gone. Shattered glass and broken dreams. You are/were the girl of my dreams (literally) and I've driven you away. I just want to hear your sweet voice, saying anything but go away. I want to see you in the worst possible way. To look into your beautiful blue-green eyes. It's gone away all to fast; feels like I am drowning. Why did it have to be this way? Why won't forgivness come? I know I let you down, let me pick you up. I wish you could see inside my heart,
DisgraceI hide my faceIn disgraceI hide my shameTaking all the blameI pause for a whileTrying to compileAll the feelings rushing insideFeels like something just diedI think backTo where we went off trackI look inside meTo try and seeWhat could have been doneRemembering now when you called me "Hun"(Unfinished)
VisionsWritten August 3rd 2:00am- she'll break up with me todayHe'll come see her.Make amends for the pain she caused himShe see him off....Things I think may happen, one already has.... We'll see!
FUNKAWho is Funka? Why did she enter my dream? What does she have to do with my future? Who is her friend Roxanne? Why did Funka like playing hide-and-seek? Why were her eyes blue-green? How did her hair change from blonde to different colors? Why did she have a bucket full of sparkles for her shirt? Why did she call me panther? Thse problems I asked myself that one morning, not knowing how such a face and body, I'd never seen come in so well. Maybe one day I'll find out!
Where I want to beTender Parts not what I want to feelIt's my heart that you stealTender Parts already to bruisedOnly your loving words can sootheYou are my Angel guide meI need you can't you seeI love youWhat else can I do?I don't want it to be like thisCan't you just say "I love you Chris"And mean it like you did beforeThis raging emotional stormWhen I look into your beautiful eyesAll the pain in me diesYou are life to meYou are the key (to my survival)I love you dearlyI love you sincerely Please love me tooPlease love me true
Tender PartsTender PartsTender Heart cut and boundAgitated thumping the only soundTender Lips cracked and dryWind passes through in a sorrowful sighTender Eyes look to the groundTear drops fall all aroundTender Hands reach for the skyBegging Why oh why?Tender Feet drag alongCarrying to the beat of another sorrowful song
To Precious SoulPrecious Soul shine your light on mePrecious Angel it's because of you that I now seePrecious Lips never part from mePrecious Hands never let me bePrecious Eyes glisten like the seaPrecious Legs ticklish at the kneePrecious Heart you hold the key (to my heart)Precious Stomach soft as can bePrecious Hair falls around eloquentlyPrecious Smell drive me to ecstasyMy Precious Marie