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nevermind by Jess2Lucky nevermind :iconjess2lucky:Jess2Lucky 6 0 i like the way it hurts by Jess2Lucky i like the way it hurts :iconjess2lucky:Jess2Lucky 1 0
she was a candle melted down to her core,
a dozen matchsticks had hurt her before.
she promised herself she would never burn again,
and blindly believed she could avoid feeling pain.
then she made a friend and inside something sparked,
he made her promises and they spoke heart-to-heart.
before she could stop it she trusted her friend,
and to her horror she was in love once again.
but this love burned deeper and brighter and hot.
she mistook him for something that he simply was not.
she loved him even as she died from his fire,
because all along, her dear love was a lighter.
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would it be so wrong for me to say it's meant to be?
that all we've been through together,
was leading up to fateful bliss?
i'm terrified.
you have terrified me to my core.
you have awaken in me feelings that i thought i would never be capable of generating.
is it love?
is it love
when it hurts?
does this mean it is real?
is it real
when the love is so deep
so consuming
that it makes me cry?
neither tears of sadness nor tears of joy;
tears of love, i believe they are called.
a combination of the power i hold in loving you
and the everlasting fear it has held on me.
i love you.
i love you.
but you have instilled in me the worst of fears.
my love for you fills every part of me.
it eats at me from the inside out,
knowing you're so far physically
but right next to me, emotionally.
loving you is my only way of touching you, right now.
i wouldn't know the first thing about this
happily ever after
that you think you want.
i'm used to the ending
in flames,
with me,
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it's pouring  by Jess2Lucky it's pouring :iconjess2lucky:Jess2Lucky 7 3 red by Jess2Lucky red :iconjess2lucky:Jess2Lucky 0 0 eye of the tiger by Jess2Lucky eye of the tiger :iconjess2lucky:Jess2Lucky 4 0
if you can live again
it's a scary thing to have your heart broken;
the first time, especially.
or maybe it's the 3rd time that truly stings the worst
(because no, the third time is not always a charm.)
or maybe the worst time
-- the only truly heart breaking, soul shattering, mind numbing time --
is the time you get your heart broken,
but find that by now, you've lost count how many times it's happened.
by now, it's "just another failed attempt at this so-called romance shit."  
by now, it's normal.
i mean,
is there really any other way this can end?
by now...
is it even worth trying, anymore? really??
and it is scary;
that fear that you'll never find love.
that fear that you'll never be loved.
...but you know what's truly terrifying?
it's when all of a sudden
out of the breathless silence
that you've endured for so long,
a single,
whisper of a bird,
begins to chirp.
when out of nowhere,
in the shadows you've learned to call home,
a lighter you thought had long run out of l
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oh well
"These following nine months will go by quickly, my friend.
They may be hard at times, but you are STRONG.
You've dealt with this for so long, I know you can do it.
We will be right there with you, cheering you across the home stretch.
We will cheer you up and distract you when you need it.
We will be here when you need to vent, and after these nine months we will help you to the very best of our abilities.

Because we love you and care about you."
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thighs bleed more.
i like that.
they also hurt more.
but i think i like that too.
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4:36 am
it's terrifying to realize,
at this hour of the morning,
that nobody really does care about you.
even if they claim to care --
and perhaps even genuinely believe themselves that they truly do care about you,
deeply --
their feeling of care for you is ultimately because of the way it makes them feel about themselves.
it means they enjoy having you around, love laughing with you, and get so much happiness from your friendship.
they'd hate to lose you,
for fear they'd lose the happiness you give them.
in lovers it means that having you makes them feel good about themselves and
like more of a person.
and they don't want to lose that boost of self esteem,
so essentially they "care" about you.
people care
because they like having someone to talk to,
about themselves, most likely.
they care because they'd be saddened if a close friend died.
because they'd feel saddened,
not because you were hurting and dying of sickness,
or were brutally murdered,
or were so lost that you
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perspective by Jess2Lucky perspective :iconjess2lucky:Jess2Lucky 0 0
breaking news
i. newsflash;
you actually don't know everything.
crazy, right?
see, you really piss me off.
and it's not like i can complain in much detail
because i value the friendship that doing so would break.
my god, you've ruined so much.
i'm actually dying of some kind of weird, insane laughter right now.
just because it's so... ridiculous, at this point.
you came into our lives.
put all these absolutely ludicrous ideas into our heads.
and yeah, some would argue it's a "good thing" you exposed those problems in our life.
but in reality, you were shining a light on things that weren't ready to be brought out of the dark.
you were opening wounds that were far from ready to heal.
all so you could be "right"??
ii. i had mere days left with the one person i actually cared about.
she's still the only one i care about,
which is so stupid,
because she's gone now.
and you were still telling me she was "beyond fucked up" and "wouldn't accept help."
sometimes, people ar
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23% virgin
start with 100% and subtract 1% for everything that you've done.
Then repost as your __% Virgin. Lowest number you have the more you've done! after you are done.
(x) Smoked.
(x) Drank alcohol.
(x) Cried when someone died.
(x) Been drunk.
(x) Had sex. 
(x) Been to a concert.
(x) gotten/given a handjob.
(x) gotten/given a blowjob.
(x) Been verbally/sexually harassed. (both)
(x) Verbally/sexually harassed somebody. (verbally..)
(x) Felt someone up and/or been felt up. 
(x) Laughed so hard something came out of your nose.
( ) Cheated on a boyfriend/girlfriend before.
(x) Been cheated on by a boyfriend/girlfriend.
( ) Been to prom.
(X) Cried at school.
(x) Gotten lost.
( ) Went streaking.
(x) Given or received a lap dance.
(x) Had someone of the opposite sex in your room. 
(x) Had someone of the opposite sex sleep over.
( ) Slept over at someone of the opposite sex's house. 
(x) Kissed a stranger.
(x) Hugged a stra
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my tag by Jess2Lucky my tag :iconjess2lucky:Jess2Lucky 1 0 no means yes by Jess2Lucky no means yes :iconjess2lucky:Jess2Lucky 1 0


The End.
Hello there, fellow deviants. 
I have some news.
As those of you that read enough of my work may know, all of my poetry is based on my own personal pain and sadness. 
I have spent a majority of my life dealing with depression, self harm, body dysmorphia, one bad break up, feelings of worthlessness, etc.
Basically, I've never been happy. And even when I felt "happy", it quickly faded.
Until now.
I am happy. I can truly say that I am. If you want to know what changed, you can note me and ask, I'm quite willing to tell you.
But that's beside the point. 
I want to say that I am happy. Even when terrible things have happened in the past couple months, my happiness is not circumstantial.  I've never felt so content and fulfilled in my life. 
And because of that, I must say this: it seems my poetry wells have dried up.
I cannot write happy poems. All of my work comes out of bad times.
And I'm not saying I'll never have bad times again, I'm saying that the permeating s
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I'm so confused by Pisces--Dreamer I'm so confused :iconpisces--dreamer:Pisces--Dreamer 3 14 12:03 Am by Pisces--Dreamer 12:03 Am :iconpisces--dreamer:Pisces--Dreamer 1 0 I'm an inky paradox by Pisces--Dreamer I'm an inky paradox :iconpisces--dreamer:Pisces--Dreamer 2 1,055 fly fishing by LadyHess fly fishing :iconladyhess:LadyHess 5 1 Future eye job  by LadyHess Future eye job :iconladyhess:LadyHess 3 0
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right so I been reading back on some shit and realized this account is legit cancer.
like autistic cancer in its purest form.

so I'll be moving accounts and pretty soon this one will be hella inactive.
probably, idk.

I kinda want to be more serious about my shit now, and this account is the exact opposite of that.
this was really just a vent account for teenage angst and bitchy rants, and I don't want to be associated with that anymore.
I want to get recognized for the hard work I put into my art, so in an attempt to achieve that I'm going to try out a new account and see how it goes.

if you want to watch my new account, please just leave a comment and I'll hook you up with the link.
just cause I wanna know who my loyal watchers are. c;

ah, who am I kidding.
none of y'all are alive.

ight well imma see how this all goes and aye, I might be back on here who knows.  


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i'm not good at intros, so if you wanna know who i am, look through my journals.
look through my gallery.
through the profanity and confusion, you might just find a sarcastic, apathetic teenager looking for a life that isn't hers.

or, y'know, you'll just find that i'm a fucking asshole.

have a gr8 life, loser~




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soona15 Featured By Owner Dec 25, 2018  Student General Artist
Happy birthday!! Have fun and eat lots of cake!! :D :party:
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Happy birthday! Gift for You And Merry Christmas! christmas wave
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Happy birthday! :D
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:woohoo: :party: :iconcakelickplz: !!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY !!! :iconcakelickplz: :party: :woohoo:

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Namco-NintendoFan-88 Featured By Owner Dec 27, 2016  Student Traditional Artist
HAPPY belated BIRTHDAY and MERRY belated CHRISTMAS, Jessica, a.k.a. "jess2lucky," dear hobbyist 'n artist gal! :party: :cake: :santa: :xmas:
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:woohoo: :party: :iconcakelickplz: !!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY !!! :iconcakelickplz: :party: :woohoo:

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Jasperinity Featured By Owner Dec 25, 2016
Happy birthday! :D
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Heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeey you^^
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Thank you for the watch, man. :hug:
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