Quick backstory: I have autism and have always had problems with socializing and fitting in. It's not easy to talk about because people tell me I use autism as an excuse not to do things, but now I do eveything everyone thought I wouldn't do. It is what it is.
It's easy to wish to be someone else, like someone who is more popular and liked and more social.. someone who says hi to more people so is more aquainted with others. Someone who doesn't question and look for the bad in social interactions, and naturally knows how to socialize. Someone who doesn't go mute, freezes up, gets afraid to speak up But there's a problem...
Wishing away the way you were made i