The Failed Man (Remastered)

The Failed Man

Remastered

              By J.C. Solis

I am a man deeply troubled within

I do not know from which road to begin

For I cannot face the weight of my din

The darkness inside that comes from my sin

I am a man who is fearful of pain

A pain that won’t cease and always remains

A pain that won’t leave; that won’t ever wane

A pain that slowly now drives me insane

It’s fear that I failed, that I am now done

The fear that my failure has at last won

A fear from which won’t ever let me rise

It won’t let me work despite my own cries

You see, I’ve so many chances to change

Yet my inner thoughts I can’t rearrange

Deep inside, no matter how much I push hard

I cannot make do, I cannot push far

I was in my hands, my future was bright

And now I cannot defeat my own blight

I lost my own way, I lost my own light

Now I can’t see, I lost my own sight

I lost my dreams, my hopes, and my joy

As avolition now makes me its toy

A feeling of failure, so was its ploy

For, with me, it did decide to get coy

But though I’m a failure not of my hands

I hope to again to take my own stand

I hope that, you too, also understand

That I now refuse to make this my brand

I must stop and see where I am now wrong

For I now refuse to let this stay long

I must get back up and make my own worth

I must reveal why I was given birth

I accept I have failed, but failure won’t win

I will not give up, I will not give in

I am a man who refuses to quit

And failure is something that I won’t submit

I am a man who now pushes for glee

And this will not keep down to my knees

And when I am calm and collected, I’ll see

That the truth is that I’ve always been free…

I am The Failed Man, and this is my fight

And I will not stop till I make things right

I am The Failed Man, but I will succeed

This is my path, my course, and my creed

For I now refuse to let my own din

Succeed in snuffing my courage within

And when I come back and see what I’ve done

Will I soon see what it is I have won…