This has been something that's been on my mind a lot over the past few months, and since I'm bored at work, I thought I might write it up to just get these thoughts down.
I get a lot of comments, through notes, comments, and in streams, where people self-deprecate themselves as a means of attempting to compliment me. What I mean are comments like "why can't I be as good/popular/skilled/talented/etc as you". This happens a lot more often than I think people realize (and I'm sure it happens to a lot of other artists too). Those comments make me extremely uncomfortable and I do not find self-pitying flattering. People ask me how I got to where I am as if I'm some kind of celebrity, as if I've got it made, as if I'm not just a 20-year-old college student who struggles. Who has to fight fear of rejection every time she posts a piece of art, and is only now becoming more comfortable with sharing her personal work. Who fights to battle her sometimes-crippling anxiety, to come to terms with he