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srsly - out of self hatred
  • Listening to: dj hidden - you are not real
  • Reading: less than usefull
  • Watching: a world painfully overcrowded with idiocy
  • Playing: sane
  • Eating: the shit of life
  • Drinking: too much
i'll be part of this exhibition:
guckmalkunst.wordpress.com/

1.-8.9. lenzburg / switzerland
[i'll be present on the 1st and 8th - both sundays]
  • Listening to: dj hidden - you are not real
  • Reading: less than usefull
  • Watching: a world painfully overcrowded with idiocy
  • Playing: sane
  • Eating: the shit of life
  • Drinking: too much
not that i'm not creative atm, but i lack the time to upload stuff and sanitize sites -_-
needs managers, secretarys, lots of money, time, tons of artists that can enhance all the sketches i made.... blablablablablablablablablablablablablablablalalalalabla........ DX ... fuck... yeah - i need help >_<
  • Listening to: dj hidden - you are not real
  • Reading: less than usefull
  • Watching: a world painfully overcrowded with idiocy
  • Playing: sane
  • Eating: the shit of life
  • Drinking: too much
...and no cash for a new one...




                       -fuck-
  • Listening to: eye-d &amp; dj hidden - speed bump
  • Reading: neal stephenson - quicksilver
  • Watching: a bunch of healthy domesticated pixels
  • Playing: sane
eat more jesus & hasensalat now available on t-shirt !

tinyurl.com/6fqrptb
  • Listening to: eye-d &amp; dj hidden - speed bump
  • Reading: neal stephenson - quicksilver
  • Watching: a bunch of healthy domesticated pixels
  • Playing: sane
i decided to upload:

fav.me/d3i78rp

including raw scans of the b/w work [in 300dpi]
to sendspace.com and archive.org

it is supposed to support positive evolution.
use as free as you wish [except commercial use - blablabla]
i think this world lacks of solid social structures.
i think that self organised communities are a necessary part
in evolving towards a point, where everyone respects everybody
and everything.[therefor universal peace, way better science blabla]

this is my way in contributing to evolution in a constructive way.
please only use for gentle intentions.

license something like cc...

artpack downloadable here:
www.sendspace.com/file/4np9zt [sendspace]
and here:
[sorry - still checking how to contribute pictures there] [archive.org]

pm me if the mirror is down - & feel free to mirror :>

.......and of course: share if you like !
[and any idea for optimising the content are welcome :>]

thanks !

      jakob
  • Listening to: filthcast 33 - eye-d &amp; dj hidden
  • Reading: neal stephenson - quicksilver
  • Watching: a bunch of healthy domesticated pixels
  • Playing: sane
opening 2200
accompanied by dark ambient sounds
transforming around 2400 into a dubstep,dnb,hardcore etc. party :)

@ white rabbit club freiburg
  • Listening to: luna-c - fuck me egyptian style
  • Reading: neal stephenson - quicksilver
  • Watching: /dev/urandom
  • Playing: sane
yay :)
@ tattoo bronx

and i made a da account for it aswell,
please welcome: :icontattoobronx:
  • Listening to: luna-c - fuck me egyptian style
  • Reading: neal stephenson - quicksilver
  • Watching: /dev/urandom
  • Playing: sane
o 1x chillmix: download
o 1x breakcorepartymix: download
  • Listening to: day of the tentacle OST
  • Reading: neal stephenson - quicksilver
  • Watching: /dev/urandom
  • Playing: sane
yay o/
3 of my pictures got selected: see here
mighty fine selection !
  • Listening to: enduser - 2/3
  • Reading: neal stephenson - quicksilver
  • Watching: /dev/urandom
  • Playing: sane
  • Eating: more than usual
  • Drinking: strong coffee
my application for studying art @ karlsruhe FAILED :(
  • Listening to: enduser - 2/3
  • Reading: neal stephenson - quicksilver
  • Watching: /dev/urandom
  • Playing: sane
  • Eating: more than usual
  • Drinking: strong coffee
...calms me at least as long as i stay away from my thoughts...
though i miss having an own lighter, constant internet and a propper
way to listen to music loud without headphones...
  • Listening to: detritus
  • Reading: not enough
  • Watching: /dev/urandom
  • Playing: sane
  • Eating: not enough
  • Drinking: decaf coffee (the only here o.O)
afk for several weeks. hope to recover soon.
  • Listening to: cdatakill
  • Reading: not enough
  • Watching: /dev/urandom
  • Playing: sane
  • Eating: not enough
  • Drinking: xxx
video

recently got a small scene in a new hiphop[german] video from jaw: youtube
support it by voting for mtv urban: mtv.de


therapy

head broken. need fix. few days or weeks off reality. hopefully soon. will see tomorrow.


ideas

at least 99.9% of my ideas sink in the sands of time positive thinking would highlight
the other 0.01% - still i feel pretty unable to express myself propper in an adequate
timeframe - which renders me in a state of feeling stupid and distant.
  • Listening to: cdatakill
  • Reading: not enough
  • Watching: /dev/urandom
  • Playing: sane
  • Eating: not enough
  • Drinking: xxx
yesterday i wanted to draw something friendly and didn't know what o_O
  • Listening to: the teknoist
  • Reading: not enough
  • Watching: /dev/urandom
  • Playing: sane
  • Eating: not enough
  • Drinking: xxx
5 days passed working halfdays outside.
getting up 5 in the morning is still somewhat unusual [prefer to go to bed then].
positive aspects: my well undertrained body gets some exercise and i'm outside.
somehow lightens my state of mind.
  • Listening to: semiomime - the new worck
  • Reading: not enough
  • Watching: /dev/urandom
  • Playing: sane
  • Eating: not enough
  • Drinking: xxx
got my slaveclothing today.
starting on the 6th with a job for 2eu/h o.O
[i have to do this - not my choice]

still i prefer building a new system instead of fucking up the old one.
actually the old one is fucked enough to destroy itself on its own.
it's endurance sucks pretty hard though.

-

i want to know what i want. lately i'd like to join the darkside.
though i think i'm condemned to live both sides.
at least for the ppl i know its good too keep a bright spot inside.
recently i feel like a vampire walking weird ground.
i feel like failing art in doing reactonary stuff based on how i feel
and not doing stuff like i would prefer to feel.
currently the darkside is so strong that it's too hard to play another way.
my number of deathwishes definately exceeds the number of days passed in 2010.
yet this would be no answer so i'm trapped here.
...
i hate myself and would love to change this

if i could i'd build a dark fortress of fear where i'd hide forever away from humans.
a lot of my recent thoughts feel wrong though this is how i feel atm.
if death would solve things i'd be gone by now.
since this doesn't work i'm tormented to wander the streets.
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  • Listening to: mystification and kharon - chosen for destruction
  • Reading: not enough
  • Watching: /dev/urandom
  • Playing: sane
  • Eating: not enough
  • Drinking: xxx
.
  • Listening to: techno animal - blood money
  • Reading: quicksilver
  • Watching: /dev/urandom
  • Playing: sane
  • Eating: not enough
  • Drinking: xxx
1. failing at everything [except socializing,art & mixing]
2. ????????
3. profit!

currently trying to figure out step 2.
i want to study art and yet i still have to figure out
how i can gather enough money on a regular basis o.O
society ought to have a structure that carries each and
everyone to the optimized individual point of power.
  • Listening to: atari tennage riot - u.s. fadeout
  • Reading: quicksilver
  • Watching: /dev/urandom
  • Playing: sane
  • Eating: not enough
  • Drinking: xxx
* found new home

* first exhibition on the 28th of november @ M1 / freiburg

* plan c finished [on 42 A4 pages 0_0 - scanning & digital afterwork suck]

* ?

* !
  • Listening to: panacea @ drumatizacia pt2
  • Watching: /dev/urandom
  • Playing: sane
  • Eating: not enough
  • Drinking: xxx