IzzyKaulitz

Hey guys how are you doing? seems like millions of years since i wrotte my last entry here. I have been online all this days just that not expending too much time on DA. You can find me easily on my Facebook www.facebook.com/IzzyBTK or in my twitter @IzzyBTK. Why do i give you those links, cos there are many people inDA i dont want to miss contact with and i often check out those account in my phone or in my laptop

I´m gonna be honest, the last days i haven´t any wish on logging in DA. I dont know, i dont feel like i´m having fun anymore, so seldom i log in and post something or answer some comments. I also haven´t made ay new drawing (as the ones i use to do) Since my Simone Simons´s one. That doesnt means i´m leaving this, is just that finally i will take deviant art as a hobby and not as a priority in my life. I still draw, but simple stuffs, some sketches. Funny simple cute and free sketches, forgetting about all the rules of making a traditional artwork with pastels, watercolors, charcoal, graphite anything.

I love to draw, is one of the only expressions that i find to express a deep feeling or a vision, a costume or something i like. But i dont have the time and the creativity at the moment for doing complex drawings.

But i dont feel confortable enough for sharing those drawings :/ they are personal -.-! a little of improvisation and some original characters so is not gonna be easy to undersand.

In other stuffs i´m planning to leave this country as soon as posible and leave to study in USA (yei cheers on me). Is not a mistery t nobody hat USA is not my favorite country, but being honest and realist is the best choice i have. Sounds crazy and my mother is not happy at all with the idea, but whatever, i dont pretend to stand in this place anymore.

Talking you about other aspect of my life... my emotional life is a disaster. The man of my life still fuck off my mind and dont leave me think clearly. My family is a natural disaster but that is also not a mistery cos i wrotte many journals explaining that.

I want to leave everything behind, like having a new life, letting people, dreams expectations, skills, thoughts behind. I dont want to conserve almost anything. I wish i culd live a new life, different people different points of view and different wishes. A different place, enviroment, i don tknow. Start all over again.

I wish there was a reset button in the life :/ but with a different home.

What else....?

I´m pointless. I feel like i dont have anything to fight for, and that´s getting me bored. This place makes me feel like this :/ i dont have to much to aspire for and like an already written and programed curse of life.

I´m reading too much philosophy... But is nice to feel that something you think has a reason to be and others had feel the same way.

I´m not leaving DA, just saying that i wont be in this place as i used to cos i dont feel anymore that need. I think maybe one day that wish will come back but now i´m a free soul, i wont do something i dont like too. And DA is not the only stuffs on that situation... Latelly i really dont want to do anything.

Hey everybody out there, long time without letting you know about myself... don´t blame me, lattely i don´t even recognize myself.

Everything is so crazy and weird, i´m tired aboput my university, everything is so stressing and this situation in my country does not make it better. The teachers, profesors and all that annoying people as i commented not long ago are in sort of strike. This is annoying cos i almost lost a half of my class periods. I guess that this damm term is gonna be suspended, making funabout allm the effor that some students made.

I have studied like never before, beliving thaty i will have my evaluations, but then, the same day, they announce that the evaluations have been canceled becouse blah blah blah blah.... this is annoying. If there is something that i hate is when others are making me waste my time, i hate it, is un respectful and outrage my patience and dignity. Seriously i hate this damm country.

When have my grade i will never come back to this place, i hate this, i hate this incompetence and this lack of repect. I understand the the have some demands, about their payment, the money, the budget and that stuffs. But sadly instead a dignified fight for their rights and that this has turned into a politic fight.

Is annoying.

I dont have any particular politic vision, cos all politcs are damm corrups and thieves. So how such a holy place as an university has turned so vulgar and mercantile party?...

The goverment is never gonna accept their demands cos they dont respect. Don separate politic visions from gremial and human fights. This is really a nonsense.

Talking you about something different, i hate and i fear the unknown.... is terrible when you don´t have an idea of how to react in front of some situations that this lifes involves you into. Guess who´s the character that is annoying my life?.... want a clue?

Pablo Giuliani, that damm bastard has turned my world into a constant russian roulet. Seriously maybe today i´m too delicated but i´m sick of hard, weird and complex people...

Bleh whatever... today has not been a very good day. Is raining, i just finnished and sent a big paper about that theme that is messing up my life (politic). I had kind of "differece" with Pablo, and all that about my studies and my college is rally stressing..

By the way, i´m very interested in all of you, i haven´´t been logged in too much becouse of my (frustrated) studies, so i seldom have time to spend online and that , anyways i wish the most of you could leave a little resume about your lives, i miss you, i miss the happines that this place provides me, i miss the confort, that sweet ignorance that coughts me safetly away from this real world.





Whatever.


Changing the toppic, my beloved frind Elbereth a.k.a. tagged me.... lets try to make this


1. You must post these rules.
2. Answer the question that the tagger gave you and then create 10 new questions for the people you tag.
3. You must tag 10 people and post their icons on your journal.
4. Go to their pages and tell peeps you have tagged them.
5. No tagging back the person who tagged you.
6. No junk in the tagging section about "you are tagged if your reading this". You must personally tag 10 people.

Lets the drums beat.....

Here are her questions:

1) If you had wings, how would you like them to look like?

That´s easy, an angel wing for the good things of my life, a demon wing for the bad ones.

2) Would you consider yourself emotionally stable?

No, today i have to go to sleep and disconnect myself from this world that hates me. But in a normal situation i am, almost cinic indeed, i don´t laugh too much and always think a lot, and just bothers me what i let to.

3) Do you watch Adventure time?

Always!! long live to Vampire´s queen Marceline.

4) Wich one goes first? left shoe? right shoe?

Left shoe, i always look at this first.

5) There's actually a way to transform people's ashes into a crystal, and their colours change depending of the person. would you like to become a crystal?

Noooooooo! never XD i wish i could be sepulted into  normal tomb, no creametions or that. I think that would be like burning in hell. And about the crystals man... i fear my crystal becames into a rock of carbon.

6) Describe yourself with a cooking dish!

I´m a damm pizza!! full of ingredients with an unique resultant flavor

7) Your fancy side?

I better dont answer this one, too much lack of humilty for one single journal.

8) Are you a dancer?

Nein. I don´t like to dance.

9) A strange ability! which one it is?

I can sing opera mwahahahaha!

10) Something you miss lately?

My sweet ignorance of the real world .


Sorry for those terrible answers, but today, if i would say something different I would have had to add another default to the big list i already have.

So well i guess i have to make 10 more questions... et me see.

1) describe yourself in a single word
2) let me know what´s your favorite phylosophical extract?
3) what about this word... butterfly?... i think i a butter (the ones you add to the bread) with a fly (those damm insects)
4) Ohn beautyful/damm love.... what do you prefer?
5) if you made yourself "one" (not two three or zero) tatoo, what would that be and why?
6) Is human being good? or is it bad?
7) Writte a short poem of what are you thinking right now?

(four verses, mine wouldbe this one:

Roses are red
And i dont remember the others but they are blue
The whole life is a burning hell
Cos this sistem´s never gonna leave me be with you...) That´s it, is stupid but that´s something i´m thinking.

8) in which categpry do you think that you deserve a prize?
9) If you could, tell me something that you will extermnate
10) What about this journal? you think i already lost my mind?...


And that´s all my little friends. As you know i should tagg some poeple but i´m too lazy for thinking... so please, i beg you all who let me a comment on thins ournal that please, take the time to answer my questions and give me an advice for calm down

I love you guys, sorry if i tormented you with all those weird ideas!

Your half broken, Izzy.

CSS by little-billie
texture by SnapeisSexy

Well... after almost three days making some changes in my DA front page i think this is almost done. I want to add other stuffs so if you have the codes for making different kind of buttons (like a facebook button, twitter, tumblr...)would be awesome if you let me know te codes.

Besides, i want to learn how to paste a video, not sure if i´m going to add them but i want to know how to use it!

Besides, any suggestion or critique as always i´m open to recieve it! but pleeease....

Let me know what do you think about this!

CSS by little-billie
texture by SnapeisSexy