Hey, I know life's hard for you. But don't let your mental disease chain you...I don't have diseases but I have experienced suicidal depression. I know it's not fun to have that kind of life...I just wanna say that don't ever lose hope alright, I do kinda feel you because I have very strict asian parents and I struggle to get some freedom every day. Don't let life decide what you should be...No matter what happens don't ever give in okay? You're a great person I know it, have a nice day and always do your best!