Hey there man. I just watched both videos on your channel. I totally understand and respect your decision. When I began my idea for my personal invader Zim movie, I faced the same issue as you: it was just too ambitious. Couple that with my interest in making original content and ultimately I came to the point (regardless if I explicitly told myself this) that my fan film would have to be a fan fiction, or simply not even be made at all.
Also, I think I see what you’re saying about your project versus the real thing, and I get it. I actually had a similar reaction too regarding my fan fiction. After seeing that the art is similar to the comic, that kinda threw me for a loop in terms of what my idea was for my fan fiction. But I mostly thought about you when I saw the official trailer. I actually was kinda thinking the same thing: “wow, this is really good....” And just now I’m starting to understand how much stress and anxiety you must be under.
My point is, don’t beat yourself up over this. You were, and still are, an amazing person. The project was awesome and it always will be, but don’t let it kill you. Even if it means throwing in the towel. Personally, I’m just happy that I was able to help you with even a small part of the project. It gave me some very valuable experience and taught me how to storyboard correctly. I can never thank you enough for that. Thank you so much for everything, Stanley! Please don’t beat yourself up over this.
You are in my thoughts and prayers!
PS: I hope everything I just said wasn’t too overbearing.