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(Art Trade) Bucking Magnifico
Carácter poseído por: CallicatYT

1st Art Trade I've ever done, and I'm pleased with my results.
Let's hope Calli likes it too!

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YA BOI HAS A DISCORD!
Ironbrofst#1852
Rally to me!
I'm very lonely...
Imagine:

You wake up out of bed, get a shower, get dressed, eat breakfast, and head out into the world to do whatever it is you must do to keep the cogs in the clock of time forever moving. Be it school, or work, you must repeat this process for as many times as humanly capable. You've done it before, countless times, what's stopping you today? Well...It's the realization that what you are doing, at this current moment, could mean nothing in the far, and distant future. You have dreams of accomplishing great things once you get out of High School, and get that college degree you've worked so hard for. But what would it all amount to? 

I feel this way right now.

I've worked tirelessly to get myself onto the Honor Roll, something that has never happened to me before. And now that constant stress of trying to stay on it is only adding to my anxieties. It gets to a point where it has robbed me of the one thing I enjoy doing most. Art. I'm not going to incorporate things like Algebra, or Fractions, or freaking chemistry to my everyday life. I would be making it big with ideas that flow from my brain to my fingers. I'd be sitting at a desk for hours, drawing courageous, war-hardened heroes, going toe to toe with horrid abominations from other worlds. I'd be writing, drawing, and occasionally, acting them out in my head. But the everyday grind of waking up, learning trivial things, getting a grade for said trivial thing, and trying to keep it as high as you can gets strenuous, and the ungodly thought of you getting anything, ANYTHING lower than a B- weighs heavy on the mind! You have to keep that grade up! Otherwise you won't go to the college you want, you won't get the job you want, you'll be near penniless, your family will disown you, and you'll become a worthless sack of human excrement for the world to mock and berate! 

It's gotten to a point, where I do get a break, I don't feel like doing anything.
All I want to do is just lie on my couch, or my bed, and just whither away from the inside out.
I no longer have the motivation to pick up a pencil and use it for my own purposes. 
Not to solve equations that look like some long forgotten alien language. Not to write a summary on some product of literature. No, I want that pencil to dance. I want it to make complicated shapes, and patterns. I want it to make complex characters, and fascinating creatures. I want play God, and create my own world!

But I've been feeling like I can't. 
I couldn't find the time.

It's gotten to a point where I've been told to stop taking my drawing stuff all together, and to focus on work...
It's also gotten to a point where I don't even want to look at a pencil anymore, and the art I AM doing ALSO feels like work!

I don't want to feel like this anymore...
I don't want to feel like the world is breathing down my neck, waiting for me to slip up.
I don't want to feel like I can't do anything anymore.
And I don't want to feel like my art is a chore!

If anyone, ANYONE knows how to get out of the metaphorical hole that i have dug myself into, please, say something.
I need all the help I can get right now...

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Colin Dobrilovic Holt
Artist | Hobbyist | Varied
United States
Likes : Drawing, Gaming, Rock (classic, to metal), other artists (they give me inspiration) and fantasy weaponry

Dislikes : ...bad games, bad music (can't get more precise than that)
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:iconkhasdannyanlord:
Khasdannyanlord Featured By Owner 5 days ago  Student Traditional Artist
thanks for the watch i hope uplaod something enough good to be faved!
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:iconcallicatyt:
CallicatYT Featured By Owner Sep 29, 2018  Student Digital Artist
I finished my part of the art trade!
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Javadoodle Featured By Owner Sep 18, 2018  Professional Digital Artist
DAthanks001 by Javadoodle  
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KSapphire8989 Featured By Owner Sep 17, 2018  Professional Traditional Artist
:iconthxwatchplz: 
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Nafyo-Toons Featured By Owner Sep 9, 2018  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Boga Squeak: Thanks for the Watch by Nafyo-Toons   Agent Spot : Nice to meet you by Nafyo-Toons  
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littledredre Featured By Owner Jul 31, 2018
Thank you for the watch! :3
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littledredre Featured By Owner Jul 26, 2018
Thank you so much for the watch! :3
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IronBroFst Featured By Owner Jul 30, 2018  Hobbyist General Artist
no problem. 
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:iconkhasdannyanlord:
Khasdannyanlord Featured By Owner Jul 14, 2018  Student Traditional Artist
magnificent place thanks a lot for the watch!
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ArachnaFonFenris Featured By Owner Jul 12, 2018  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thanx for faving that monstrosity!
SCP-058,  Herz der Dunkelheit by ArachnaFonFenris
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