Hello everyone, how's it going? It's been awhile since I've made a journal entry lol. With that said, I am unable to sleep, so this seems like the ideal time to sort through some thoughts!
In my mind, I have a very clear picture of where I want to go with my art and what I want to do once I reach my end goal, but it seems like there is something that is holding me back from crossing my stepping stones. When it comes to art, I have always simply wanted to bring my characters to life, whether that be animations, manga(comics), or just plain illustrations, and tell a story that connects with viewers in a way that my favorite artist and writers characters connect with me. But there are always doubts that hold me back and make me think twice about my ambitions. What are the chances of being successful? What if you're never good enough?
Often times these thoughts completely kill my motivation and drive to even try, and I end up wasting hours on hours doing nothing at all to to reach my goals. I put off drawing for the next day, and when the next day comes I put it off again. Then weeks, and then weeks become months. I have been drawing since I was like 6, and although I can look back at older works and see my improvement, I still can't appreciate where I am at with my art. I look at my current work and feel miles and miles behind all the artist I put on a pedestal. Many of the artist I look up to have been drawing for the same amount of time as I have, yet are levels beyond me, and have actually created careers based solely off of their art. I have finally come to truly understand that it is very easy to say, "If they can do it, so can I". However, actions speak a lot louder than words, and that is the very reason why I am stuck where I am at.
Sitting around moping about where I am at with my art, and why I am not good enough, is the very reason why I am not improving(or improving slowly). It's like wishing upon a star, which is unrealistic. The hours, the days, the weeks, and the months that I have let pass me by year after year is the very reason why I haven't accomplished anything as an artist. With that said, I am done dreaming and wishing about being where I want to be in life with my art.
There are many cliche lines I can use to end this journal about what I need to do or what I am going to do to reach my goals, but I feel like there is no need for that lol. It's clear as day what I need to do, or anyone who feels the same needs to do to. Work harder, complain less. I'm not willing to let the remainder of this year, or any other year go by in vain. I have many projects that I WILL bring to life. Just as the title of this journal says, I'm about to make a STATEMENT!