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shelf life
i am dreaming, but i do not know it, & his eyes cut to me, cut through me, & i want to scream but i can't, & i am trapped in a classroom & he won't stop looking at me, stop looking at me, but no, i am far too scared to talk to him. i am running so fast, & this sidewalk is never-ending; this nightmare is never-ending, & maybe that thought is a little too self-aware, but it doesn't matter because i won't wake up, can't wake up, & i don't even know i'm asleep.
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like the needle in a compass
i shatter like glass, like the moon awake at half past noon, like winter snapped each of my bones in half, like the trees laughed when i begged them for you back. i pressed my fingers into the top of your spine, & when you turned around, you smiled at me. i knew then what it was like to be found. but to be found, you've gotta get lost, & i was tossed into the world with the ferocity of an animal, teeth sharp, nails sharper, climbing up, up, up till i could see what i was climbing to. & god, the sky was so blue, i didn't know that colour existed until i got there, until i pushed past the hologram & fell into something greater, something new.
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growing/going away
still, sometimes i close my eyes & see you everywhere— in the trees, in the air, in the daffodils by the road & the pink-flowered tree by my home & the colours grey & green, fresh, serene, & utterly, inescapably you. i know you hate me. i'd probably hate me, too. & even if i don't, (hate myself, that is,) i've found there's not much that won't remind me of your soda bubble eyes, smile like sunshine, hair that has probably changed since the last time i saw it two years ago. i learned a lot from you. i learned a lot from myself, too. i've grown a lot since then, you know, & i'd guess that you did a while ago; i just haven't been aro
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love letters to the lonely
this is a letter to every single soul who craves love. yes, you, with your soft eyes burning, soft heart yearning, soft hands reaching & then pulling away. you, who just wants someone to stay. you will not be alone forever. i know that sometimes, the night presses in, & creeps up your body, covers your skin, whispers that you're not enough; how could you ever be? you go through the day with a smile on your face, because you don't want anyone to see. you believe you will feel whole if you find someone to complete your soul, yet nobody's offering. but darling, i think all along you knew— the one you aren't enough for is you. or you thin
4/4/19
the daffodils bloom along the highway & still, the wind is whispering in my ear that summer will never reach me. this winter feels eternal. vision grey & cloudy, i open my mouth to sing, but the birds have already claimed all the songs. there is nothing left for me. i know that they love me, there's just no room for my voice here anymore. maybe there never was.
v
van gogh's left ear
i think we're all feeling pretty empty. this isn't what i should be, but still: i'm gnawing on the bones that once connected my shoulder to my wrist, & i'm hungry. i listen to the lonely, & they say: we crave connection, we reject being alone, we hunger for belonging. they claw at me, & they say: you cannot ignore us, for the guilt would be too great. i listen to the lonely until my ear drums no longer have a (heart)beat to follow. i listen, & i'm hungry.
f
fogged over
the sky presses down on me, cold yet comforting. i don't mind it. the green is kind of dull now; winter wrapped up the brighter hues to put under the tree. snowflakes fall, but usually not till january. still, when the wind wraps itself around me for warmth, i let it, because i know what it's like to be cold. my mother tells me that wearing mittens will keep my fingers from freezing, but i tell her my fingers hate feeling trapped. she understands. at the end of the day, the sky blazes as if this may be the last time it ever will. some things were not made to be subtle.
f
forgo the door for the open window
the wind blows more bitter in late december. all the trees have frozen to the roots, yet still i talk to the withered bluebells & pray for a gentle spring. the cherry blossoms may sting, but some day i will see their beauty & not feel their pain. fog drips out of my mouth & into the air above the ground. i close my eyes & imagine a lighthouse. sometimes the street lights glimmer in the dark, & i wonder who they will take next. i remember the monsters from my closet & under my bed. deep violet skies smother me until i can barely breathe, but i'm not giving up yet.
w
we bleed lake water
ur my red cream soda boy. u've talked me off of the ledge more times than i could count, & i know we're growing up, but this city's still our ghost town. we'll be haunting this place long after everyone else has left. i'm ok with that. i think that u've got a heart the size of the sun. whenever i can make u laugh, i feel like i've won a war. ur one of the best causes to fight for. ur smile can open any door, settle any score. just b patient. i promise life can b kinder.
i
i swear one day we'll get there
we were 14 & 15 & 16 & it was us against the world— or maybe us outside the world— you be mars, i'll be pluto, & we'll both still face the sun. we let people love us, & we let them break our hearts, & we glued them back together. the past brought us here, & the future's unclear, but you know i'll be right beside you. you are my mirror as time grows nearer. you tell me things i want to hear & things i don't. maybe part of getting older is just getting bolder & getting better at knowing what to say. yeah, we're growing up, but we aren't outta luck just yet. we're on a road trip with no destination, we're writing poetry for no real r
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shelf life
i am dreaming, but i do not know it, & his eyes cut to me, cut through me, & i want to scream but i can't, & i am trapped in a classroom & he won't stop looking at me, stop looking at me, but no, i am far too scared to talk to him. i am running so fast, & this sidewalk is never-ending; this nightmare is never-ending, & maybe that thought is a little too self-aware, but it doesn't matter because i won't wake up, can't wake up, & i don't even know i'm asleep.
l
like the needle in a compass
i shatter like glass, like the moon awake at half past noon, like winter snapped each of my bones in half, like the trees laughed when i begged them for you back. i pressed my fingers into the top of your spine, & when you turned around, you smiled at me. i knew then what it was like to be found. but to be found, you've gotta get lost, & i was tossed into the world with the ferocity of an animal, teeth sharp, nails sharper, climbing up, up, up till i could see what i was climbing to. & god, the sky was so blue, i didn't know that colour existed until i got there, until i pushed past the hologram & fell into something greater, something new.
g
growing/going away
still, sometimes i close my eyes & see you everywhere— in the trees, in the air, in the daffodils by the road & the pink-flowered tree by my home & the colours grey & green, fresh, serene, & utterly, inescapably you. i know you hate me. i'd probably hate me, too. & even if i don't, (hate myself, that is,) i've found there's not much that won't remind me of your soda bubble eyes, smile like sunshine, hair that has probably changed since the last time i saw it two years ago. i learned a lot from you. i learned a lot from myself, too. i've grown a lot since then, you know, & i'd guess that you did a while ago; i just haven't been aro
l
love letters to the lonely
this is a letter to every single soul who craves love. yes, you, with your soft eyes burning, soft heart yearning, soft hands reaching & then pulling away. you, who just wants someone to stay. you will not be alone forever. i know that sometimes, the night presses in, & creeps up your body, covers your skin, whispers that you're not enough; how could you ever be? you go through the day with a smile on your face, because you don't want anyone to see. you believe you will feel whole if you find someone to complete your soul, yet nobody's offering. but darling, i think all along you knew— the one you aren't enough for is you. or you thin
4/4/19
the daffodils bloom along the highway & still, the wind is whispering in my ear that summer will never reach me. this winter feels eternal. vision grey & cloudy, i open my mouth to sing, but the birds have already claimed all the songs. there is nothing left for me. i know that they love me, there's just no room for my voice here anymore. maybe there never was.
v
van gogh's left ear
i think we're all feeling pretty empty. this isn't what i should be, but still: i'm gnawing on the bones that once connected my shoulder to my wrist, & i'm hungry. i listen to the lonely, & they say: we crave connection, we reject being alone, we hunger for belonging. they claw at me, & they say: you cannot ignore us, for the guilt would be too great. i listen to the lonely until my ear drums no longer have a (heart)beat to follow. i listen, & i'm hungry.
f
fogged over
the sky presses down on me, cold yet comforting. i don't mind it. the green is kind of dull now; winter wrapped up the brighter hues to put under the tree. snowflakes fall, but usually not till january. still, when the wind wraps itself around me for warmth, i let it, because i know what it's like to be cold. my mother tells me that wearing mittens will keep my fingers from freezing, but i tell her my fingers hate feeling trapped. she understands. at the end of the day, the sky blazes as if this may be the last time it ever will. some things were not made to be subtle.
f
forgo the door for the open window
the wind blows more bitter in late december. all the trees have frozen to the roots, yet still i talk to the withered bluebells & pray for a gentle spring. the cherry blossoms may sting, but some day i will see their beauty & not feel their pain. fog drips out of my mouth & into the air above the ground. i close my eyes & imagine a lighthouse. sometimes the street lights glimmer in the dark, & i wonder who they will take next. i remember the monsters from my closet & under my bed. deep violet skies smother me until i can barely breathe, but i'm not giving up yet.
w
we bleed lake water
ur my red cream soda boy. u've talked me off of the ledge more times than i could count, & i know we're growing up, but this city's still our ghost town. we'll be haunting this place long after everyone else has left. i'm ok with that. i think that u've got a heart the size of the sun. whenever i can make u laugh, i feel like i've won a war. ur one of the best causes to fight for. ur smile can open any door, settle any score. just b patient. i promise life can b kinder.
i
i swear one day we'll get there
we were 14 & 15 & 16 & it was us against the world— or maybe us outside the world— you be mars, i'll be pluto, & we'll both still face the sun. we let people love us, & we let them break our hearts, & we glued them back together. the past brought us here, & the future's unclear, but you know i'll be right beside you. you are my mirror as time grows nearer. you tell me things i want to hear & things i don't. maybe part of getting older is just getting bolder & getting better at knowing what to say. yeah, we're growing up, but we aren't outta luck just yet. we're on a road trip with no destination, we're writing poetry for no real r
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& you wear blue like it's the only colour that exists.
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