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Nearing my 30s it really feels like a taboo to say this because I hate it when people say this…

I’m really resenting me having a huge audience with art when I was forming my skill, when I was pretty cringey and edgy. Like in my mid teens and early 20s it was stupidly easy to hook an audience.

These days when I’m a lot more skilled, I’m having a hard time finding any audience. and I’m actually trying now.Like it’s not really on a weekly basis but I’m trying to get art out on a more regular schedule. I’m working on a comic and I am self conscious as fuck about it because this is something people make for money. Like…$500 a page.

They say to do art and what you enjoy butI’m getting worn out here. Art takes up so much of my time and I do it for free for an audience that isn’t really even 10 people. Occasionally if I draw fanart a fan blog picks it up and I get a few dozen notes but even that is hit or miss.

This coincides with a job I don’t necessarily hate, though I feel imprisoned by. I get lenient hours and I make a decent chunk and somehow I can do it working part-time. The reason I feel imprisoned by it is because the only way to move up and make more money is to work 50+ hour weeks for years at a time. I could make 75k a year but I know what my superiors do and I do not envy them. I don’t have the mind to stand in one place doing the same thing for up to 16 hours a day.

But I don’t know of any other job that affords me the flexibility and pay I currently have.

I kinda just feel like curling up and dying.
See now is the perfect time to undergo a style change because as you can see I have absolutely no active watchers and I've been working on the same style for about a decade and that's what I'm known for.

So yeah the tits are totes NOT up.
The house is NOT burning.
Though to be real I need a new platform.
I have a relatively successful FA but I barely post there either.
As much as I like those elevator panels...they're traced and after doing some research, I believe that's a copyright violation. So I'm gonna have to design my own elevators for this comic.
*Puts gun to head and clicks back hammer*
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No, I did not freehand this, are you insane?
this is traced, and yet I STILL am driven insane by the amount of work that I had to do.
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Shono Featured By Owner 3 days ago  Professional General Artist
Thank you for the faves! by Shono  
Just like what WarAngel said: Thanks for the faves!

If you enjoy my art, you can help me make more by becoming a patron at patreon.com/shadowsofoblivion
If you’re not interested, that’s cool too, I really appreciate the faves and the support!
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SylvanSmith Featured By Owner Dec 25, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
:holly: :rudolph: Merry Christmas and Happy New Year :santa: :holly:
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AranniHK Featured By Owner Jul 5, 2017  Professional Digital Artist
Thanks for the fav!
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artmatrix Featured By Owner Apr 13, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thanks for the :+fav: :bow:
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Internet-Cancer Featured By Owner Apr 15, 2017  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
welcomes!!
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artmatrix Featured By Owner Jan 19, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
:wave:

I wish to thank you for your  :+fav: :boogie: :hug: :iconthankyouplz1:


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artmatrix Featured By Owner Jan 9, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thanks for the :+fav: :bow:
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Internet-Cancer Featured By Owner Jan 9, 2017  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
mmmm you're welcome.

Usually I just ignore "thank you for the fave" comments, but you make this every time and it kinda makes me feel bad.
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artmatrix Featured By Owner Jan 10, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
:hug: :devilish:
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SylvanSmith Featured By Owner Dec 24, 2016  Hobbyist General Artist
:holly: :santa:  Merry Christmas  :rudolph: :holly:
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Internet-Cancer Featured By Owner Dec 24, 2016  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
You too, good sir.
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artmatrix Featured By Owner Edited Dec 6, 2016  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thanks for all the :+fav: :bow:
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Internet-Cancer Featured By Owner Dec 7, 2016  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
you're very much welcome!
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artmatrix Featured By Owner Nov 27, 2016  Hobbyist Digital Artist
:wave:

I wish to thank you for your  :+fav: :boogie: :hug: :iconthankyouplz1:


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SylvanSmith Featured By Owner Nov 3, 2016  Hobbyist General Artist
Thanks for the fave. That picture was shitty though.
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LeftHand-Black Featured By Owner Nov 2, 2016
thanks for dat watch!
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SylvanSmith Featured By Owner Oct 31, 2016  Hobbyist General Artist

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Drusatis Featured By Owner Oct 18, 2016  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thank you for the fave!
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SylvanSmith Featured By Owner Oct 12, 2016  Hobbyist General Artist
Thanks for the faves.
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artmatrix Featured By Owner Oct 7, 2016  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thanks for all the :+fav: :bow:
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MevrouwRoze Featured By Owner Jul 9, 2016  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thanks for the fav!
It's Like One of My Japanese Animes!_Sailor Moon by MevrouwRoze
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Chwen-Hoou Featured By Owner Jun 2, 2016
Thanks for the fav.
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dan-zigg Featured By Owner Apr 21, 2016
So... Thought I'd drop by again. :p
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Internet-Cancer Featured By Owner Apr 21, 2016  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
sorry
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dan-zigg Featured By Owner Apr 21, 2016
I know things are tough, but I just wanted a lil' update.
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