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Thu Jun 14, 2018, 12:07 AM

Ya know, I have a lot to talk about, but I don't know where to start. I have nearly 24,000 notifications to catch up on. I'll probably scrap the bulk and just start over. We'll see.

Dad is coming home tomorrow. He's been in a nursing home for three weeks, the hospital a week before that. I'm anxious to see him! Just in time for Father's Day, too!

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Testing New Journal Skin

Journal Entry: Sun Mar 6, 2016, 4:04 PM
Hmm . . . The title and link colors are too dark. BALLS! by TheBeautyKiller666 Now how do I change them? Idk by TheBeautyKiller666

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DeviantArtist Questionnaire

Journal Entry: Fri Aug 7, 2015, 2:50 PM
  1. How long have you been on DeviantArt? 12 years, nearly 13

  2. What does your username mean? It's my first two initials plus the first three letters of my last name: P. A. Nix. I added -Mania because Panix was already taken

  3. Describe yourself in three words. Complete nervous wreck

  4. Are you left or right handed? I'm a rightie!

  5. What was your first deviation?
    Chibi Nickie Treize by InstantCoffeeBarista

  6. What is your favourite type of art to create? Men blush Oh, that's subject! I prefer to draw; pencil, pen, stylus, whatever's available.

  7. If you could instantly master a different art style, what would it be? Sculpting

  8. What was your first favourite? It's in storage ^^; This is the second  A Little Conversation by fallout161

  9. What type of art do you tend to favourite the most? Men blush icon 

  10. Who is your all-time favourite deviant artist? I can't choose! :confused: 

  11. If you could meet anyone on DeviantArt in person, who would it be? :scared: 

  12. How has a fellow deviant impacted your life? Encouragement ^_^

  13. What are your preferred tools to create art? Pencil, Photoshop, DAZ|Studio

  14. What is the most inspirational place for you to create art? My mind

  15. What is your favourite DeviantArt memory? :bademoticon:


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I need a new journal

Journal Entry: Sun Jun 28, 2015, 5:12 PM
. . . but I don't know what to write about.  :shrug: or :dunno: Insecure

Oh! Just found out I can't select a mood. Again. Castiel Icon ~ free to use! So, I reset it, as it is the only thing I can do. My current mood is sleepy. Not technically a mood, per se, but it's what I'm feeling the most right now. :tired:

And preview journal is FUBAR-ed, too. WTF?! 

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My favorite things to do . . .

Journal Entry: Thu Sep 25, 2014, 1:07 AM
. . . have become chores to me. :tears: :frustrated: revamp collapse Bored Panda Emoji-16 (Whew) [V1] Think that's enough emoticons to show my frustration and depression? Seriously though, my depression is making even game playing too much effort. Headache New :sigh: No, I spend most of my time sleeping or trying to sleep. It's ridiculous!Giving Up  In other news, because my sister and her little fam won't be making it for Christmas, we're having it early at Thanksgiving, which is also being a held a bit early because someone has to work Black Friday. ShiverPoor guy. Christmas this year (the actual date) is going to suck with just the three of us. collapse Last time, we opened presents from each other then, but that was just even more depressing. That's why we're opening them Thanksgiving week while Mandy, Paul, and Willow (my niece:loves: V2) are here. I'm eager to see them again! Okie Doke (P.S. Why does the journal formatting look weird on my profile page? :confused: revamp)

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Journal Entry: Tue Sep 24, 2013, 7:45 PM
Yeah, I have a Tumblr, too. If you have one too, feel free to let me know. I might just follow you. ^_~ I mostly re-post cute/funny cats and other animals at the moment, so don't feel obligated to follow back. ^^;

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Repetative redundancy

Journal Entry: Mon May 20, 2013, 9:40 PM
I know the Bible is big on repetition, but this is ridiculous! ^^; There's a passage in Numbers chapter 7 that is repeated over and over, one right after the other, with little variation at the beginning and end. The four verses in the middle are identical! :XD: Here, I'll show you:

Numbers 7:12 (this is just the beginning)
    And the one who offered his offering on the first day was Nashon the son of Amminadab, from the tribe of Judah.

After this things get awfully familiar . . . :psychotic:

Numbers 7:13 - 18, etc.
    His offering was one silver platter, the weight of which was one hundred and thirty shekels, and one silver bowl of seventy shekels, according to the shekel of the sanctuary, both of them full of fine flour mixed with oil as a grain offering;
    one gold pan of ten shekels, full of incense;
    one young bull, one ram, and one male lamb in its first year, as a burnt offering;
    one kid of the goats as a sin offering;
   and for the sacrifice of peace offerings: two oxen, five rams, five male goats, and five male lambs in their first year. This was the offering of _______ the son of _________.
(end of first)
    On the _______ day ________ the son of ________, leader of the children of ________, presented an offering. (beginning of next)

Lather, rinse, repeat. :roll: That last verse only shows up 11 times since the first day (Numbers 7:12) is different, but the others show up a total of 12 times, once per tribe.

Here are the few differences:

7:17 . . . the offering of Nashon the son of Amminadab.
7:18 On the second day Nethanel the son of Zuar, leader of the children of Issachar . . .
7:23 . . . the offering of Nethanel the son of Zuar.
7:24 On the third day Eliab the son of Helon, leader of the children of Zebulun . . .
7:29 . . . the offering of Eliab the son of Helon.
7:30 On the fourth day Elizur the son of Shedeur, leader of the children of Reuben . . .
7:35 . . . the offering of Elizur the son of Shedeur.
7:36 On the fifth day Shelumiel the son of Zurishaddai, leader of the children of Simeon . . .
7:41 . . . the offering of Shelumiel the son of Zurishaddai.
7:42 On the sixth day Eliasaph the son of Deuel, leader of the children of Gad . . .
7:47 . . . the offering of Eliasaph the son of Deuel.
7:48 On the seventh day Elishama the son of Ammihud, leader of the children of Ephraim . . .
7:53 . . . the offering of Elishama the son of Ammihud.
7:54 On the eighth day Gamaliel the son of Pedahzur, leader of the children of Manasseh . . .
7:59 . . . the offering of Gamaliel the son of Pedahzur.
7:60 On the ninth day Abidan the son of Gideoni, leader of the children of Benjamin . . .
7:65 . . . the offering of Abidan the son of Gideoni.
7:66 On the tenth day Ahiezer the son of Ammishaddai, leader of the children of Dan . . .
7:71 . . . the offering of Ahiezer the son of Ammishaddai.
7:72 On the eleventh day Pagiel the son of Ocran, leader of the children of Asher . . .
7:77 . . . the offering of Pagiel the son of Ocran.
7:78 On the twelfth day Ahira the son of Enan, leader of the children of Naphtali . . .
7:83 . . . the offering of Ahira the son of Enan.

Only the bold worlds differ and even half of those repeat. :O_o:

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Journal Entry: Sat May 18, 2013, 3:24 PM
[x] Grease
[x] Pirates of the Caribbean
[x] Pirates of the Caribbean 2: Dead Man's Chest
[x] Pirates of the Caribbean 3: At World's End
[ ] Boondock Saints
[ ] Fight Club 
[ ] Starsky and Hutch
[x] Neverending Story
[x] Blazing Saddles
[ ] Airplane
Total: 6

[ ] Anchorman: The Legend Of Ron Burgundy
[ ] Napoleon Dynamite 
[x] Labyrinth 
[x] Saw 
[x] Saw II 
[x] saw III
[x] White Noise
[ ] 50 First Dates
[x] The Princess Diaries
[x] The Princess Diaries 2: Royal Engagement

Total all together: 13

[x] Scream
[x] Scream 2
[x] Scream 3
[ ] scary Movie
[ ] Scary Movie 2
[ ] Scary Movie 3
[ ] Scary Movie 4

Total all together: 16

[x] Harry Potter 1
[x] Harry Potter 2
[x] Harry Potter 3
[x] Harry Potter 4
[x] Resident Evil 1 
[x] Resident Evil 2
[ ] The Wedding Singer
[ ] Little Black Book
[x] The Village
[x] Lilo & Stitch
Total all together: 24

[x] Finding Nemo
[ ] Finding Neverland
[x] Signs
[x] The Grinch
[x] Texas Chainsaw Massacre
[ ] Texas Chainsaw Massacre: The Beginning
[x] White Chicks
[x] Butterfly Effect
[ ] 13 Going on 30
[x] I, Robot
[x] Robots
Total all together: 32

[ ] Universal Soldier
[x] Lemony Snicket: A Series Of Unfortunate Events
[ ] Along Came Polly
[x] Deep Impact
[ ] KingPin
[x] Never Been Kissed
[ ] Meet The Parents
[ ] Meet the Fockers
[x] Eight Crazy Nights
[ ] Joe Dirt
[x] King Kong
Total all together: 37

[ ] A Cinderella Story
[ ] The Terminal 
[ ] Lizzie McGuire Movie
[ ] Passport to Paris
[x] Dumb & Dumber
[x] Final Destination
[x] Final Destination 2
[x] Final Destination 3
[x] Halloween
[x] The Ring
[x] The Ring 2
[ ] Surviving Christmas
[ ] Flubber
all together: 44

[ ] Harold & Kumar Go To White Castle
[x] Practical Magic
[x] Chicago
[ ] Ghost Ship
[x] From Hell
[x] Hellboy  
[x] Secret Window
[ ] I Am Sam
[x] The Whole Nine Yards
[ ] The Whole Ten Yards 
Total all together: 50

[x] The Day After Tomorrow
[x] Child's Play
[ ] Seed of Chucky
[x] Bride of Chucky
[x]Ten Things I Hate About You 
[ ] Just Married 
[x] Gothika
[x] Nightmare on Elm Street
[ ] Sixteen Candles
[ ] Remember the Titans
[ ] Coach Carter
[ ] The Longest Yard
[ ] Gridiron Gang  
[x] The Grudge
[x] The Grudge 2
[x] The Mask
[ ] Son Of The Mask 
Total all together: 59

[ ] Bad Boys
[ ] Bad Boys 2
[ ] Joy Ride
[x] Lucky Number Sleven  
[x] Ocean's Eleven 
[x] Ocean's Twelve
[x] Ocean's Thirteen
[x] Bourne Identity
[x] Bourne Supremecy
[ ] Lone Star
[ ] Bedazzled
[x] Predator I
[x] Predator II
[x] The Fog  
[x] Ice Age
[x] Ice Age 2: The Meltdown
[ ] Curious George
Total all together: 70

[x] Independence Day
[ ] Children of Men
[ ] No Vacancy
[x] Mummy  
[x] Mummy Returns
Total All Together: 73

[x] Darkness Falls
[x] Christine
[x] ET 
[x]Children of the Corn
[ ] My Bosses Daughter 
[x] Maid In Manhattan
[x] War of the Worlds 
[x] Rush Hour
[x] Rush Hour 2 
Total all together: 81

[ ] Swimfan
[ ] Miracle on 34th street 
[ ] Old School
[x] The Notebook
[x] K-Pax 
[x] Krippendorf's Tribe
[x] A Walk to Remember
[ ] Ice Castles
[x] Boogeyman
[ ] The 40-year-old-virgin
Total all together: 86

[x] Lord of the Rings Fellowship of the Ring 
[x] Lord of the Rings The Two Towers
[x] Lord of the Rings Return Of the King
[x] Indiana Jones and the Raiders of the Lost Ark 
[x] Indiana Jones and the Temple of Doom
[x] Indiana Jones and the Last Crusade
Total all together: 92

[ ] Super Troopers
[x] Hostel 
[ ] Waiting for Guffman
[x] House of 1000 Corpses
[x] Devils Rejects
[ ] Elf
[ ] Highlander
[x] Mothman Prophecies
[ ] American History x
[ ] Three
Total all together: 96

[ ] The Jacket
[ ] Kung Fu Hustle
[ ] Full Metal Jacket
[ ] Shaolin Soccer
[ ] Night Watch
[x] Monsters Inc.
[ ] Titanic
[x] Monty Python and the Holy Grail
[x] Shaun Of the Dead   
[x] Willard
Total all together : 100

[ ] High Tension
[ ] Club Dread
[ ] Hulk
[x] Dawn of the Dead
[x] Hook
[x] Chronicle Of Narnia The Lion the Witch and the Wardrobe
[x] 28 days Later 
[x] Orgazmo
[ ] Phantasm
[x] Waterworld
[x] waynes world
Total all together: 107

[x] Kill Bill vol 1
[x] Kill Bill vol 2
[x] Mortal Kombat
[ ] Wolf Creek
[ ] Kingdom of Heaven
[x] The Hills Have Eyes
[x] The Hills Have Eyes II
[ ] The Last House on the Left
[ ] Re-Animator
[x] Army of Darkness
Total all together: 113

[x] Star Wars Ep. I The Phantom Menace
[x] Star Wars Ep. II Attack of the Clones
[x] Star Wars Ep. III Revenge of the Sith
[x] Star Wars A new Hope
[x] Star Wars The Empire Strikes Back
[x] Star Wars Return of the Jedi
[ ] Ewoks the caravan of courage 
[ ] Ewoks The Battle For Endor
Total all together: 121

[x] The Matrix 
[x] The Matrix Reloaded 
[x] The Matrix Revolutions 
[ ] Slapshot1
[ ] Slapshot2
[x] Evil Dead
[x] Evil Dead 2
[ ] Team America: World Police
[x] Silence of the Lambs
[x] Hannibal
[x] BASEketball 
[ ] Anger Management

Total = 129

This isn't ALL I've seen and some of these I didn't like, but what the hell.

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I get a C in Life . . . barely!

Journal Entry: Wed May 1, 2013, 3:52 PM
[ ] You have kissed someone
[x] You have your own room.
[x] You own a cell phone.
[x] You have an mp3 player/ipod/discman.
[x] Your parents are still married.
[x] You love your family
[ ] There is a pool/spa in your backyard.
T O T A L : 5

[x] You dress the way you want to.
[ ] You hang out with friends more than once a week.
[x] There is a computer/ laptop in your room.
[x] You have never been beaten up.
[x] You are allowed to listen to the music you want to.
[x] Your room is big enough for you.
[x] People don't use you for something you have.
[x] You have been to the movies

T 0 T A L : 7

[x] You have over 500 friends on facebook.
[x] You have pictures on facebook
[x] Your parents let you have a facebook
[/] You get allowance/loan (SSI)
[x] You collect something normal.
[ ] You look forward to going to university.
[ ] You don't wish you were someone else.
[ ] You play a sport.
[ ] You want to do something after school/college
T O T A L : 4 1/2

[ ] You own a car/truck.
[x] You usually don't fight with your parents
[x] You have never got a failing grade on a report card in your life.
[x] You have friends.
[ ] You've never had a detention. (I had one, senior year, I cracked from the stress)
T O T A L : 3

[/] You know what is going on in the world (somewhat)
[ ] You are happy with your life
[ ] You usually aren't sick
[ ] You know more than one language.
[x] You have a screen name.
[x] You own a pet.
[x] You know the words to more than 5 songs.
[x] You don't have any enemies
T O T A L : 4 1/2

Total over all: 24

Multiply by 3

Total: 72%

101%+: A+
90-100%: A
80-89%: B
70-79%: C
60-69%: D
00-59%: F

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Girl Confessions

Journal Entry: Sat Apr 6, 2013, 3:13 PM
1. Do you sleep in your bra?
I have, but I don't like to

2. Do you sleep with socks on?
only when it's cold

3. Would you rather sleep alone or with someone?
alone; I haven't shared a bed since I was a child

4. Do you enjoy drama?
depends on the drama, but usually no

5. Are you a girly-girl?
not really

6. Who was the last person you hugged?
hmm . . . I think it was Dad

8. Are you short?
I'm 5'9, so no Wink/Razz

9. Do you like somebody?
if you mean 'like-like', then no

10. Does your Facebook password have to do with a boy?

11. Do you care if your socks are dirty?
nah, as long as they're not crunchy

12. Do you think you're alone sometimes?

13. Do you dress up on Halloween?

14. Are you double jointed?
technically, no one is; they're loose ligaments, but yes

15. Where is the weirdest place you have slept?
car seat Shrug

16. Has anyone touched/smacked your butt in the past 24 hours?

17. Is there any type of rumour going around about you?
not that I'm aware of, and I doubt it

18. Do you call anybody by their last name?
not really, no

19. How many guys will read this just because it says "Girl Confessions"?
what am I, psychic? Facepalm

20. Check those that apply:
[ ] I do wear make up.
[x] I have cried in a movie theatre.
[ ] I can put mascara on without opening my mouth.
[x] I think Johnny Depp is sexy.
[ ] I like death/grind/black metal.
[ ] I like rap.
[ ] I like techno.
[x] I like country.
[x] I carry a purse.
[X] I'd be lost without my computer.
[ ] I own a Spice Girls CD.
[x] I own a Britney Spears CD.
[x] I own a boy band CD.
[X] I get bored watching football.
[ ] I've never been called a spoiled brat.
[X] Guys are confusing.

21. What color is your bra that your wearing?
I'm not wearing one Blush

22. Do you prefer light or dark haired guys/girls?
I like both, but lean more towards dark

23. Are you currently frustrated with a boy?

24. What's one thing guys can do to make you like them?
be nice to me

25. Do you have a best friend?
does Mom count? XD

26. Have you ever had your heart broken?

27. Have you ever thought of having plastic surgery?
:shifty: . . . . . . . yes

28. Do you like your life?
some things I like, some I don't, but it's the only life I have so for the most part

wait, what? O_o

30. Has one of your friends ever stolen a boy/girlfriend from you?
nope, never dated

31. Have you ever jumped in the pool with your clothes on?
no, but I have gotten into a hot tub fully clothed

32. Do you have more friends that are girls or boys?
no idea Confused

33. How long have you had a Facebook?
too long

34. Have you ever slapped a boy in the face?

35. What are your biggest fears?
suffocating, dying, extreme pain, Hell

36. Have you ever cried yourself to sleep?

37. Have you ever not been able to get someone off of your mind?
if that was true, they'd still be on my mind, and that is not the case

38. Do you believe in the saying "once a cheater, always a cheater?"
no, people can change

39. Have you ever had a good feeling about something?

40. Do you ever wish you were famous?

41. Are you currently missing someone?
my sister and her daughter

42. Cowboy or Gangster?
cowboys! yeehaw! :happybounce:

43. Preppy or Punk?

44. Face or Body?

45. Good cook or take you out a lot?
feeeeeed meeeeeeeee! I'm hungry...Get in my belly!

46. Sweet or sexy?

47. Armani or Abercrombie?

48. Contacts or glasses?
I wear glasses and I like them on other people Flirtatious

49. Have you ever had sex in RL?
rofl no

50. Have you ever thought you'd marry someone you dated?
again, never dated

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Fear check list

Journal Entry: Wed Apr 3, 2013, 4:48 PM
[] Achluophobia - Fear of darkness...
[x]  Acrophobia - Fear of heights...
[x] Agliophobia - Fear of pain...  
[x] Agoraphobia - Fear of open spaces or crowds...
[ ] Agyrophobia - Fear of crossing the street...
[x] Aichmophobia - Fear of needles or pointed objects...
[ ] Amaxophobia - Fear of riding in a car... (more of a strong dislike)
[ ] Androphobia - Fear of men...
[x] Anginophobia - Fear of angina or choking...
[ ] Anthrophobia - Fear of flowers...
[ ] Anthropophobia - Fear of human being or society...
[ ] Apeirophobia - Fear of infinity...
[ ] Aphenphosmphobia - Fear of being touched...
[ ] Arachnophobia - Fear of spiders...
[ ] Arithmophobia - Fear of numbers...
[ ] Astraphobia - Fear of thunder and lightning...
[ ] Ataxophobia - Fear of disorder or untidiness.
[ ] Atelophobia - Fear of imperfection...
[ ] Atychiphobia - Fear of failure...
[ ] Aulophobia - Fear of flutes...  
[ ] Autophobia - Fear of being alone...

Total so far :  5
[ ] Bacteriophobia - Fear of bacteria...
[ ] Barophobia - Fear of gravity...
[ ] Bathmophobia - Fear of stairs or steep...
[ ] Batrachophobia - Fear of amphibians...
[ ] Bibliophobia - Fear of books...
[ ] Botanophobia - Fear of plants...

Total so far :  5
[ ] Cacophobia - Fear of ugliness.  
[ ] Catoptrophobia - Fear of mirrors. (Nah, just my reflection! XD)
[ ] Chionophobia - Fear of snow...
[ ] Chromophobia - Fear of colors...
[ ] Chronomentrophobia - Fear of clocks...
[ ] Claustrophobia - Fear of confined spaces...
[ ] Coulrophobia - Fear of clowns... (... I just don't like 'em :shifty: )
[ ] Cyberphobia - Fear of computers...
[ ] Cynophobia - Fear of dogs...

Total so far:  5

[ ] Dendrophobia - Fear of trees...
[ ] Dentophobia - Fear of dentists...
[ ] Domatophobia - Fear of houses...
[ ] Dtychiphobia - Fear of accidents...

Total so far : 5
[ ] Ecophobia - Fear of the home...
[ ] Elurophobia - Fear of cats...
[ ] Ephebiphobia - Fear of teenagers.
[ ] Equinophobia - Fear of horses...

Total so far :  5
[ ] Gophobia - Fear of marriage...
[ ] Genuphobia - Fear of knees...
[ ] Globophobia - Fear of balloons...
[x] Glossophobia - Fear of speaking in public...
[ ] Gynophobia - Fear of women...

Total so far :  6
[ ] Heliophobia - Fear of the sun...
[ ] Hemophobia - Fear of blood...
[ ] Herpetophobia - Fear of reptiles...
[ ] Hydrophobia - Fear of water

Total so far :  6
I - K
[ ] Itrophobia - Fear of doctors...
[ ] Insectophobia - Fear of insects...
[ ] Koinoniphobia - Fear of rooms...

Total so far : 6
L - M
[ ] Lekophobia - Fear of the color white...
[x] Lilapsophobia - Fear of tornadoes and hurricanes... (I have nightmares about tornadoes ^^; )
[x] Lockiophobia - Fear of childbirth...
[ ] Mageirocophobia - Fear of cooking...
[ ] Melanophobia - Fear of the color black...
[ ] Microphobia - Fear of small things...
[ ] Mysophobia - Fear of dirt and germs...

Total so far : 8
[ ] Necrophobia - Fear of death or dead things...
[ ] Noctiphobia - Fear of the night...
[ ] Nosocomephobia - Fear of hospitals...

Total so far :  8
[ ] Obesophobia - Fear of gaining weight...
[ ] Octophobia - Fear of the figure 8...
[ ] Ombrophobia - Fear of rain...
[ ] Ophidiophobia - Fear of snakes...
[ ] Ornithophobia - Fear of birds...

Total so far :  8
[ ] Papyrophobia - Fear of paper...
[ ] Pathophobia - Fear of disease...
[ ] Pedophobia - Fear of children...
[ ] Philophobia - Fear of love...
[ ] Phobophobia - Fear of being afraid...
[ ] Podophobia - Fear of feet...
[ ] Porphyrophobia - Fear of the color purple...
[ ] Pteridophobia - Fear of ferns...
[ ] Pteromerhanophobia - Fear of flying...
[ ] Pyrophobia - Fear of fire...

Total so far :  8
R - S
[ ] Rajalophobia - Fear of Apes...
[ ] Scolionophobia - Fear of school...
[ ] Selenophobia - Fear of the moon...
[x] Sociophobia - Fear of social evaluation..
[ ] Somniphobia - Fear of sleep...

Total so far :  9
[ ] Tachophobia - Fear of speed...
[ ] Technophobia - Fear of technology...
[ ] Tonitrophobia - Fear of thunder
[ ] Trypanophobia - Fear of injections...

Total so far :  9
[ ] Venustraphobia - Fear of beautiful women...
[ ] Verminophobia - Fear of germs...
[ ] Wiccaphobia - Fear of witches and witchcraft...  
[x] Xenophobia - Fear of strangers...
[ ] Zoophobia - Fear of animals...

Final result :  10

[ ]More than 50, Why aren't you in a psyche-ward yet?
[ ]More than 30, I strongly recommend some counseling.
[ ]More then 20, you're paranoid.
[x]10-20, you are normal. (O.o Dang, I thought I was worse than that! XD)
[ ] 10 or less, you're fearless.

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Brony test result

Journal Entry: Sat Feb 23, 2013, 10:45 PM
Twilight Sparkle

My PC is running again! :squee:

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PC broken, Mac painfully old

Journal Entry: Thu Feb 14, 2013, 3:39 PM
:nuu: My PC turns itself off after a few minutes, so until it gets fixed ala new motherboard, etc., I'm stuck with using my nearly nine year old Mac mini. It's running OS X 10.3 and I cannot upgrade its software because its hardware is incompatible. Because of that, I can't upgrade my browser (or anything, really), and everything is running sooo slow! >.< DA and Gmail keep pestering me to upgrade browsers, too. :cries:

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  • Reading: The Night Circus
  • Watching: The Mentalist

Snazzy new Journal skin! ^_^

Journal Entry: Sat Jan 26, 2013, 1:38 PM
It's just marvelous! :happybounce: It's made by krowvernix, as stated at the bottom. :aww:

In other news, Dad is back from his week long meeting in Denver! :woohoo: Oh, how we missed him! It's kinda lonely with just Mom and me.

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  • Reading: The Amber Spyglass
  • Watching: Hannibal

11 Random Things about Me

Journal Entry: Tue Jan 15, 2013, 5:40 AM
I saw someone else do this and thought, why not?

1. I'm on Medicaid.
2. I have a toothache and will have to go out of town to see a dentist. (no one here takes Medicaid :facepalm: )
3. I set my alarm clock to 2 AM to use the Internet. (usage rate doesn't count from 1-5 AM)
4. Last year I had a Mensa page-a-day calendar; I got 248 out of 366 (over two-thirds) correct. :hooray: (leap year=366 days)
5. I own a lot more books than I've read. So many books, so little time!
6. Despite my limited funds, I am sponsoring a child through ChildFund International, starting this year. (her name is Buddhi :aww: )
7. I only turn my TV off when I go to bed.
8. I always have music playing in my bedroom; it can be heard from the bathroom. :la:
9. I use smilies/emoticons waaaaay too much! ^^;
10. I'm coying my Bible by hand, off and on. College ruled notebooks and gel pens are what I use, plus white-out when needed.
11. I have astigmatism, which means my eyes don't naturally focus on the same point. Add that to being near-sighted and glasses are a must.

:phew: This was harder than I expected! :faint:

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Disability update

Journal Entry: Wed Jan 9, 2013, 1:14 PM
Well, it took five years but Sallie Mae is now under the impression that I may, in fact, have a total and permanent disability. So, they are kicking my student loans over to the Department of Education (ED) so THEY can see if I meet their criteria for total and permanent disability. All so I can get my loans discharged. Can't work, can't pay off loans. Now, I just have to wait to hear back from ED to find out if I qualify, and if I do, it's three years of scrutiny to see if I stay qualified. Yay. :sarcasm:

Honestly, I like the idea of me having a total and permanent disability about as much as I like the idea of me working my butt off and forking over most/all of my money to pay off student loans. :depressed: It could be a year before I find out if I qualify for further scrutiny. It could be 4 years before I find out if ED will discharge my loans or not. The waiting and not knowing is going to drive my crazy! Well, crazier. :shifty:

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Art Progress? . . . Me?

Journal Entry: Thu Jan 3, 2013, 4:31 AM
I keep seeing these deviations showing off one's art progress for the past year; it's like everyone is doing them! It's so depressing. :depressed: Not that I'm not happy for y'alls progress, I am. I'm just depressed about my lack of progress. :crying: Know how many deviations I've posted in total last year? ONE. And 3D at that. (Still need to update that, too.) I can't exactly show drawing/coloring progress if there hasn't been any. :stupidme: I have sketched and even worked on Mandy's orc a little (in Photoshop), but nothing finished, nothing to post. :faint:

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Tagged . . . yay

Journal Entry: Sat Dec 1, 2012, 6:47 PM
Tagged by :iconsubject-241:

1. You have to post the rules.
2. No tag backs.
3. You have to choose 10 people and post their icons in your journal. (Make me! =P)
4. Answer the questions that the tagged gave you and make up new questions for the people you tag.
5. Go to their page and tell them you tagged them. (Whose page? :confused:)
6. Post 10 things about yourself.

10 things about me
1. I own a katana.
2. I am disabled.
3. I buy games from BigFish and GameHouse online.
4. I'm indecisive.
5. I love cats, but I'm allergic to them.
6. My IQ is 132, according to an online test.
7. I have stuffed animals and plushies.
8. I have an art piece I've been working on, off and on, for years.
9. I play Zynga games, but only after midnight.
10. I love horror.

Questions I had to answer
1. Whats your favorite book?
What, just one? I love Stephen King, Harry Potter, Stephanie Plum, Patricia Cornwell, and many, many more!
2. If you could go back and learn one thing, what would it be?
3. Do you even lift?
Only when I stand ^^;
5. What happened to four?
It wandered off :shrug:
6. There is a creeper, what do?
Call my bear of a father to take care of it while I suffer a panic attack.
7. Wrench or crowbar?
Hmm . . . crowbar. Good heft, reach, and there's never one around when you need it.
8. What is the item to your left?
9. Would you eat golden boots?
Only if they haven't been worn and only if Rarity offered.
10. Bloop Bloop Bloop What am I?
Friggin' nuts XD

My questions
1. What is your favorite movie genre?
2. What has four legs in the morning, two in the afternoon, and three in the evening?
3. Who is best pony?
4. What are you watching/last watched? (tv, movie, or computer)
5. You've been abducted by aliens. Do you tell anyone?
6. Do you write fanfiction?
7. What is your favorite food?
8. What is your mood right now?
9. Which Doctor is your fav?
10. Ever been in love?

People I'm Tagging
:shifty: I don't tag. Do this if you want.

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  • Watching: Numbers
  • Eating: Pizza

Black Friday for other countries?

Journal Entry: Tue Nov 20, 2012, 8:02 AM
Since Thanksgiving is a North American holiday, and Black Friday is the day after Thanksgiving in November, does that mean no other countries have a Black Friday? What about something equivalent? (Dec. 1st, last weekend in Nov., etc.) Anyone know? The bombardment of Black Friday commercials got me wondering. :shrug:

Still can't set a mood. :frustrated: I can get the drop down list, but I can't select anything. :stinkeye:

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  • Listening to: head banging on desk
  • Reading: not able to set mood
  • Watching: Supernatural

Internet back after 2 1/2 weeks 6_9

Journal Entry: Tue Aug 21, 2012, 9:20 PM
Two and a half weeks . . . of AGONY!!!! :faint: At the beginning, we at least had intermittent partial connection, enough that I could connect to the bank, but anything more intensive was out of the question. =_=; Soooo, I replayed games that didn't require an Internet connection (no online help, either) and did a lot more "scribing". I think I've got a semi-callus on my right middle-finger, I wrote so much. ^^; It's a weird mixture of pain and numbness.

What else happened . . . I got bit by a centipede, on my right thumb near the knuckle. That might have been a bit before the Internet problems, though. I've still got a little bump where it bit me. Pinched like hell! >.< I didn't so much scream as let out a high-pitched yelp. ^^;

Mandy visited for a couple weeks with Willow. My niece is so cute and precious! And I have picture to prove it! :evillaugh: Yeeeeeeesssss, I will torture y'all with baby pictures! :plotting: . . . eventually. Willow likes to go for walkies, walking with someone holding her hands so she doesn't fall. Most exercise I've been getting. ^^; Bending over and walking without my walker huuuuuuuuurts! Speaking of my walker, she'd liked to grab the lower bars on the inside and move from one side to the other in a circular manner. She's almost 10 months, but she's already the size of an 18-month-old, she's that tall! Which is weird, since her parents are both kinda short. Many's 5'5"(ish) and Paul is not much different in height. Her light blonde hair and oh so blue eyes are not a mystery, though. Mandy and I both had similar hair and eye colors when we were young'uns (like our daddy), even though our hair has darkened over the years and our eyes are not quite as blue-blue as before . . . plus, Paul is also blond and blue-eyed, so between the two, she didn't stand a chance of anything else. Oh! She does jazz hands! XD I wish I had video of it, and many other things, but oh well. Consider yourselves lucky . . . for now! :plotting::evillaugh:

So much to catch up on! I came back to 1600+ emails (not counting spam) and 12,000+ in my inbox here. Y'all are so prolific! :faint: Slowly working on both, whittling down the numbers, day-by-day. I had to dump the journals and polls (sorry). I'm focusing mainly on deviations, and I can go through those faster with thumbnails than I can with reading titles of journals/polls. That's just the way the muffin crumbles. :/

Oh, right. The "scribing" thing. Still curious about that, hmm? Well, as it so happens, a few moths ago I decided to work on my penmanship. But just copying the letters over and over ad nauseum was boring as hell, so I decided to copy some text. What text, pray tell? Why, the Bible, of course! New King James version, which has not had even one thee or thou so far. I'm in Exodus, just after the parting of the Red Sea. I'm on my fourth notebook (college ruled, single subject) and sixth pen, or so. There's quite a bit of information I don't recall from previous readings, and this time I've noticed a lot more understanding of things that I did not get as a kid. The amount of sex in Genesis alone . . . I mean actually mentioned specifically, and not just assumed from "begettings", is considerably higher than I recalled/imagined. Romance novels don't have that much sex in them! One guy even got himself killed (or smote, if you will) by God for *ahem* pulling out. :blush: Tidbits like this makes me want to do a "How well do you know the Bible" poll. They won't have anything to do with whether or not you believe, just what you know about a book's content (like the Twilight Saga =p or Harry Potter), and how well you can guess if you don't know the answer. After I end a poll, I'd post the answer before making the next poll.

PS. My mood: tired, head hurts >.<

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  • Listening to: head banging on desk
  • Reading: not able to set mood
  • Watching: The Mentalist
  • Drinking: Java Chiller w/ Caramel