Inevitably-dead

You may be older but you certainly are not wiser; I've lived a thousand lives and died a thousand deaths from every night  I breathed in lies  and coughed out blood and ice -  I've seen my shadow dance with people I loved, laugh and say, "you can look but  you can't touch" -  you are not theirs anymore they were tired  of playing with a toy stuffed and limp -  so they left and found a castle filled with grimacing porcelain people -  replacing the real with the fake  because it doesn't break as easily  

And say the earth looks so clean and fresh after a hard rain but mother nature is crying; she lost the ones she loved  they couldn't take it anymore; they couldn't take the rain

uncertainty is a handful of water cupped by hands too small to carry it realizing you have a chance and watching it drip through your fingers

Oh but they never tell anyone about the strong who become weak the ones flayed to the bone from lost love they couldn't keep those with broken hearts streaming  blood from their cupped hands as they cry in quiet contempt Oh only the remarkable can sweep the strong up off their feet and leave them broken  among the weak(Darling, I told you you're amazing, and you must have been - cause now I'm broken like the rest.)

Make me a promise then break itSay "I love you" then fake itWatch me drown then dive in too

That song came on again the one that splits my heart with devastating quakes and causes me to fleeBut I didn't bother changing it this time I turned it up real loud and let our Eulogy play

The glass is empty The glass is parched The glass is stained with blood and tears                                                           (and so am I) The glass is cracked  The glass is screaming The glass is old  and unwashed                                                        (and so am I) The glass is broken The glass is shattered The glass is blowing the dust  of forgotten dreams away and sighing                                                        (and so am I) The glass is nothing The glass is useless The glass is spent and swept away                                                         And so am I.

this final goodbye will shut a door i've left gaping openfar too longthis ceaseless night will end a life left struggling alonefar too longand my shadows will seal the coffin kissing this body goodbye

This girl cowered in frail skin but she could not hide for long and being timid, there she hid and fared alone long as she could until there she found a place to dwell;She made anew, yet equally false, and knowing perhaps the inevitable, she stepped into someone else's skin and zipped it head to toe -  yet it wore really about the same,And both knees hit the ground her eyes not taken off of the sky.  Oh, they said she'd been damned from the start! And spoke rapidly as if to prevent the vultures from flying out of her mind.They said she'd lay awake with a smile one crooked and hence -  eyes aglow in a dying world, would she life a gaze unto...

Tell them all a fictitious tale one about the girl who smiled and laughed (the one you used to know) don't tell them the real storyjust smiled and let them believeeverything is okay (just read my eyes - they say it all)