If apathy were an option by ImprintMechanic, literature
Literature
If apathy were an option
I decided not to make an effort,
Not to bother...
Not to try...
And this is how it turned out,
It turned out fine!
I didn't have to wake up,
I let the pillow hit my head.
I escaped the wage slave rat race
I could spend the day in bed.
And if I don't eat or drink, or move at all
I wont make the place a mess.
I can probably live on air alone
But I'll have to exhale less.
Well You want to take things slowly,
However long it takes.
Fine. It's the same foot to accelerate,
Or to hit the brakes.
So if you want to come and join me,
If you can't be bothered with it all
Just drop whatever you are doing
I'll be waiting for your cal
We watch for storm clouds,
In the clearest blue skies.
If we worry too much it's because
We care in equal amounts.
Though our shadows,
Are never more than a step behind,
We face the future,
Racing towards a light,
In which we share hopes, dreams, and love.
We may be watching for storm clouds
But we are living beneath blue skies.
We should live like the blessed souls we are.
No moment together will pull us apart.
No time away will hold us from each others arms.
No doubt can shake our faith in each other.
No pain can kill the love inside our hearts.
If I had to do it all again I could. But I don't think I'll need to. I'm thinking about where should I go now that everything is different. The world is very strange even though vie been there shaping and changing the course of history all these years, even having seen all the more important moments, it's strange coming "home" and it not being the same place I grew up.
Technology is one thing I'm going to miss. I have a few trinkets with me, the tools I used to shape world history, but everything else I was used to is gone. The human race as it is has a few simple breakthroughs but we were so much more advanced. I don't regret it mind you. T
To have and to hold by ImprintMechanic, literature
Literature
To have and to hold
I haven't held anyone like that,
In so long,
I've almost forgotten how it feels.
Or maybe I never knew,
Until I held you.
Because in truth it only felt right.
It felt right in a way that made sense.
What might be right about such a thing?
I can only hope nothing about it was wrong.
I only see you in updates,
You haunt my profile.
I become dumbstruck,
My heart swept away,
In the torrent of your image.
I hold back from connecting.
Not through will power,
Not through choice,
I want to reach out.
I want that we could touch.
The winding tubes between us,
Are more barrier than portal.
You are so distant,
But distance is just another number.
And numbers mean nothing,
Online.
I lament,
Little can be done about our differences.
What could be overcome granted hope.
But all hope in your eyes gets dashed.
Yet I seek some way that hope might;
If held above doubts flood waters;
Be kept alive.
I do not seek to crush souls,
I do not presume to destroy dreams,
I do not aim to cause pain.
You who seem so familiar,
Deserving of more,
Face denial in your own mind.
Here in my heart I wish,
But cannot fulfill.
Yet I would be every bit your hope,
As much a muse as I have received.
Lets never talk again by ImprintMechanic, literature
Literature
Lets never talk again
If there had been one less thing to do,
Would that the day had been three minutes longer,
We could have held together, and fought the fire.
I cant take your good news, now that its over.
I cant hear your belated reprise, its proven too late.
Its no kind of redux, to insert success after failure,
Its no solution to make this villian vs. villian.
We can't talk face to face, we can't meet in one place.
We can't make things work, with things working like this.
You're feeling betrayed, and you make me feel worse.
Mistakes were made, but never by you.
Only in your eyes are all mistakes on one side.
In the world-at-large we both had faul
If apathy were an option by ImprintMechanic, literature
Literature
If apathy were an option
I decided not to make an effort,
Not to bother...
Not to try...
And this is how it turned out,
It turned out fine!
I didn't have to wake up,
I let the pillow hit my head.
I escaped the wage slave rat race
I could spend the day in bed.
And if I don't eat or drink, or move at all
I wont make the place a mess.
I can probably live on air alone
But I'll have to exhale less.
Well You want to take things slowly,
However long it takes.
Fine. It's the same foot to accelerate,
Or to hit the brakes.
So if you want to come and join me,
If you can't be bothered with it all
Just drop whatever you are doing
I'll be waiting for your cal
We watch for storm clouds,
In the clearest blue skies.
If we worry too much it's because
We care in equal amounts.
Though our shadows,
Are never more than a step behind,
We face the future,
Racing towards a light,
In which we share hopes, dreams, and love.
We may be watching for storm clouds
But we are living beneath blue skies.
We should live like the blessed souls we are.
No moment together will pull us apart.
No time away will hold us from each others arms.
No doubt can shake our faith in each other.
No pain can kill the love inside our hearts.
If I had to do it all again I could. But I don't think I'll need to. I'm thinking about where should I go now that everything is different. The world is very strange even though vie been there shaping and changing the course of history all these years, even having seen all the more important moments, it's strange coming "home" and it not being the same place I grew up.
Technology is one thing I'm going to miss. I have a few trinkets with me, the tools I used to shape world history, but everything else I was used to is gone. The human race as it is has a few simple breakthroughs but we were so much more advanced. I don't regret it mind you. T
To have and to hold by ImprintMechanic, literature
Literature
To have and to hold
I haven't held anyone like that,
In so long,
I've almost forgotten how it feels.
Or maybe I never knew,
Until I held you.
Because in truth it only felt right.
It felt right in a way that made sense.
What might be right about such a thing?
I can only hope nothing about it was wrong.
I only see you in updates,
You haunt my profile.
I become dumbstruck,
My heart swept away,
In the torrent of your image.
I hold back from connecting.
Not through will power,
Not through choice,
I want to reach out.
I want that we could touch.
The winding tubes between us,
Are more barrier than portal.
You are so distant,
But distance is just another number.
And numbers mean nothing,
Online.
I lament,
Little can be done about our differences.
What could be overcome granted hope.
But all hope in your eyes gets dashed.
Yet I seek some way that hope might;
If held above doubts flood waters;
Be kept alive.
I do not seek to crush souls,
I do not presume to destroy dreams,
I do not aim to cause pain.
You who seem so familiar,
Deserving of more,
Face denial in your own mind.
Here in my heart I wish,
But cannot fulfill.
Yet I would be every bit your hope,
As much a muse as I have received.
Lets never talk again by ImprintMechanic, literature
Literature
Lets never talk again
If there had been one less thing to do,
Would that the day had been three minutes longer,
We could have held together, and fought the fire.
I cant take your good news, now that its over.
I cant hear your belated reprise, its proven too late.
Its no kind of redux, to insert success after failure,
Its no solution to make this villian vs. villian.
We can't talk face to face, we can't meet in one place.
We can't make things work, with things working like this.
You're feeling betrayed, and you make me feel worse.
Mistakes were made, but never by you.
Only in your eyes are all mistakes on one side.
In the world-at-large we both had faul
If apathy were an option by ImprintMechanic, literature
Literature
If apathy were an option
I decided not to make an effort,
Not to bother...
Not to try...
And this is how it turned out,
It turned out fine!
I didn't have to wake up,
I let the pillow hit my head.
I escaped the wage slave rat race
I could spend the day in bed.
And if I don't eat or drink, or move at all
I wont make the place a mess.
I can probably live on air alone
But I'll have to exhale less.
Well You want to take things slowly,
However long it takes.
Fine. It's the same foot to accelerate,
Or to hit the brakes.
So if you want to come and join me,
If you can't be bothered with it all
Just drop whatever you are doing
I'll be waiting for your cal
We watch for storm clouds,
In the clearest blue skies.
If we worry too much it's because
We care in equal amounts.
Though our shadows,
Are never more than a step behind,
We face the future,
Racing towards a light,
In which we share hopes, dreams, and love.
We may be watching for storm clouds
But we are living beneath blue skies.
We should live like the blessed souls we are.
No moment together will pull us apart.
No time away will hold us from each others arms.
No doubt can shake our faith in each other.
No pain can kill the love inside our hearts.
To have and to hold by ImprintMechanic, literature
Literature
To have and to hold
I haven't held anyone like that,
In so long,
I've almost forgotten how it feels.
Or maybe I never knew,
Until I held you.
Because in truth it only felt right.
It felt right in a way that made sense.
What might be right about such a thing?
I can only hope nothing about it was wrong.
I lament,
Little can be done about our differences.
What could be overcome granted hope.
But all hope in your eyes gets dashed.
Yet I seek some way that hope might;
If held above doubts flood waters;
Be kept alive.
I do not seek to crush souls,
I do not presume to destroy dreams,
I do not aim to cause pain.
You who seem so familiar,
Deserving of more,
Face denial in your own mind.
Here in my heart I wish,
But cannot fulfill.
Yet I would be every bit your hope,
As much a muse as I have received.
Lets never talk again by ImprintMechanic, literature
Literature
Lets never talk again
If there had been one less thing to do,
Would that the day had been three minutes longer,
We could have held together, and fought the fire.
I cant take your good news, now that its over.
I cant hear your belated reprise, its proven too late.
Its no kind of redux, to insert success after failure,
Its no solution to make this villian vs. villian.
We can't talk face to face, we can't meet in one place.
We can't make things work, with things working like this.
You're feeling betrayed, and you make me feel worse.
Mistakes were made, but never by you.
Only in your eyes are all mistakes on one side.
In the world-at-large we both had faul
I stand Apart, Aside, Aloof
Filled with a mix of promise and adventure.
But all attention is fleeting,
I feel you approach, gather near,
But you take what you need,
Then you take the party and leave.
I'm Aglow, I stand out, I am mapped,
I am here only for you.
But I am never free of the need, the want, the desire.
I bathe you in the quest givers glow.
But I get so little in return.
How can soft sweet lyrics,
Sung with such care,
Eminate from anything ugly?
A heart filled with grace,
Bled out to her lover.
The fragrance of a dozen roses.
The raw heat of its passion.
All hearts beat and pump,
But true hearts radiate.
Scatter Shot Compassion by ImprintMechanic, literature
Literature
Scatter Shot Compassion
I'm not wise. I'm not smart.
I'm as likely to uplift souls,
As I might trample hearts.
Your a shadow on a wall.
A mirage in heats haze.
I assumed you came to pain,
In all the familiar ways.
Your life isn't familiar,
Your loss is non-generic.
My words are too random,
Scatter shot compassion.
Its clear you felt betrayed,
When love's promise was denied.
So I tentatively come to ask-
How your lover died?
Listening and Hearing by ImprintMechanic, literature
Literature
Listening and Hearing
Look at who you listen to.
It's no receding echo.
You hear the voice,
Drowning out the doubts,
But it doesn't fill,
That dreaded silence.
Fight the dissonance.
Fight the doldrums.
Fight the insistent,
Clawing hopes.
Pedestals always topple.
She's not safe up there.
You can't define the ideal,
Nor can you deny the real.
She is neither one thing or the other
In your dreams she fills you.
She might even complete you.
But taking and holding dreams,
Is in itself un-fulfilling.
Fall then, fall into that crush of love.
The impact will do you the world of good,
Virgin hearts need a world of pain.
Scars need to form,
Over the wo
Muse demands tribute by ImprintMechanic, literature
Literature
Muse demands tribute
My muse demands tribute
From each lover.
Some token of connection.
A sliver of the heart I invest.
For every hope filled wish,
Or romantic dream,
I pay a price.
And in return,
This.
Current Residence: England MP3 player of choice: iPod Touch Personal Quote: Mitchell's the man, I'm the idiot, you're the screw up, and we are all losers.
Favourite Games
Race for the Galaxy, Settlers of Catan, Dominion
Favourite Gaming Platform
Table Top
Tools of the Trade
Words
Other Interests
Poetry, Philosophy, Understanding, Making no sense.
Apple aversion
I've given in, or so some friends tell me. And as I'm sat typing this journal on my iPad I have to give a little to their arguments, maybe there's something to it! A dozen half formed concepts that might be objections come to mind, and none of them seem important enough to mention. I'm a sell out in part to the grand design of the House of Mac.
Steve Jobs and Jonathan Ive conspire against me with their lovely looking devices. It pleases me, in a royal approval kind of way. I'm not yet an iConvert, but I am an iPod-person.
I'm still a PC.
Nine years, used to sound like a sentance.
Now it seems that my history with my employer will not continue. For nine years it has grown, every day adding one more twenty four hour period to the amassed value of time I've worked in the charity sector. Every night another night where I closed the temporal distance between now and the 30th of July 2010. That will be the last day employed here.
All this is odd timings and my ridiculously upbeat method of handling adversity. All my friends, my family, and valued co-workers are offering sympathy and support. I am riding a rollercoaster theat threatens to dive but instead cork-screws around its cu
Knowledge has a cost.
This last year has been an eye opener. I learned a thing or two about who I am. There have been deep revelations and insights into my faults. What I have been able to do is accept that my self image was faulty, that there are things I am not, and I've managed to take this shift in perspective without becoming jaded and disheartened.
But I do feel the illusions are passing.
Where the truth lies.
Any assumption that I am a purely nice guy has been shown to be false. I'm not a joyous bundle of fluffy, I do have faults and people have issues with me and the way I do things. Rightly so. I am an awkward git, its difficult