hey guys. don't worry, it's nothing really bad. haha i promise you. it's something i wanted to write in this journal for a while.
During my time here on dA, I was pretty much drawing to get some recognition and attention.
I was never really satisfied what all of my art. To my past self, they are just nothing to me. And I also encountered my first emotion that has sent me to a mental downward spiral: Jealousy.
It felt like i was eating nails, and that they stabbed me a million times inside, and it also dragged to major depression and it made me hate the way I draw, almost made me quit at art, and it almost made me hate myself, because well, I thought I wasn't good enough. Didn't have what it takes to be a true artist. But after a while, (I'm gonna have to give a shoutout to one of my favorite artist who helped me improve and focus on being positive to my artwork) iLiekSkittlez said that I shouldn't let any of my jealousy get in the way of what I love. I honestly felt guilty because she