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My life is on hold

My life is on hold

My life is still on hold - after my husband died in October 2015, I'm still semi active as a cosplayer and with the BJD exhibitions. But I'm mostly alone, I suffer from PTSD and anxiety, I have panic attacks and my beagle "Spike" is my new BFF. I do try to have "fun", and my main survival strategy is reading, because there's still so much to read. Currently I'm buried deep in the Sterek fandom, and since I'm not able to write anything myself, I feel like I'm using but not contributing. Which I would love to change some day. ANYWAY. I keep passing the open windows. Because, maybe someday, it'll all worth it.

I'm crying

I'm crying

I'm crying. The last 15 years, I have spent with my husband, lover and best friend Emil. 14 of those years was spent as a family, with my daughter, who left us with an awful mess a year ago. 2 weeks ago today, he decided his life was no longer worth living without my daughter, whom he loves as his own child. He was brought back, but has been in a coma for the last two weeks. He has extensive brain damage, which means he's never going to get a normal life again, if he survives. I'm losing my best friend. I'm losing the man I've loved, and been faithful to, for the last 15 years, I'm losing the best father I could ever have wished for

June - August 2015

June - August 2015

Plans for this summer: Cosplay and BJD exhibition @ DesuCon 10 (Oslo/Lillestrøm, Norway) Viking markets at Bronseplassen (Høvåg, Norway) and Hove (Arendal, Norway) Canal Street (Jazz and blues festival, Arendal, Norway) Cosplay and BJD exhibition @ Torucon  (Trondheim, Norway)

BanzaiCon 4: Time Travel Trouble

BanzaiCon 4: Time Travel Trouble

This weekend I attended a cozy little Con in Larvik, Norway called Banzaicon. It was my 3rd BanzaiCon, and also my 3rd hosting a BJD stand. Our BJD stand this year was more in flow with the theme, and all the dolls cosplayed. I took a lot of pics, but hardly any were good enough to put on here, so I'm gonna try to copy the scenes at home and taker better pics ;) Anyway, I had an awesome time, I've already booked hotel rooms for next year, and I've just posted some pics of the dolls and of cosplayers holding some of my dolls on DA :heart: It's still winter here - spring is sneaking in but we're getting some more snow this weekend, lol I'm

Too many dolls, too little time...

Too many dolls, too little time...

It's March 15th. I mean, it's SPRING!!!! And I've been slacking on posting doll pics, I know. Sorry about that, lol I'll try to get better at it, but I have so much to do :heart: Anyway, it's still winter here (it's snowing!) so the whole "spring" thing was a bit overrated :P I'll see you guys around :) - Idril

SUMMER! :D

SUMMER! :D

It's getting warmer, I love it :D Also my husband Emil has allowed me to try out his SLR cam, which is like a spaceship to me :P Anyway, I hope to take loads of doll photos this summer, outdoors and indoors, and hopefully include ALL my dolls, not only the popular ones ;) Georg's original head is back on his body because the new, unspoiled head just wasn't HIM :heart: I may be switching bodies for Bill because I want him to pose better with the upgraded Mio -- and honestly, the undying kids are killing me with their bohemian life style. Sofia - the Groke - and Lucas are the only ones who actually have a job, both Charlotte and Amaury bein

Idrilkeeps = Idrilkeps --- Updated doll info

Idrilkeeps = Idrilkeps --- Updated doll info

Some 5 years ago I created a DA account so I could collect some  faves. idrilkeps (https://www.deviantart.com/idrilkeps) I misspelled my nickname, but kept the account, since over the years I got a truckload of faves on some of my doll photos. Late 2010 I decided that 500 Deviations was more than enough, and that I'd create a new account, username spelled out right, when I hit 500 deviations... So this is not a fake, it's not a copy - it's still the same old fart doing deviant things with polymer resin and a camera ;) My family on DA: ~Spandexboy ~FreakyCartoonist ~Stefansider ~miu88 *birdesigns Here's a list of my resin kids: Skaa, Dream of Doll DoI A&D Mio/Solí

IdrilKeeps = IdrilKeps

IdrilKeeps = IdrilKeps

Some 5 years ago I created a DA account so I could collect some  faves. idrilkeps (https://www.deviantart.com/idrilkeps) I misspelled my nickname, but kept the account, since over the years I got a truckload of faves on some of my doll photos. Late 2010 I decided that 500 Deviations was more than enough, and that I'd create a new account, username spelled out right, when I hit 500 deviations... So this is not a fake, it's not a copy - it's still the same old fart doing deviant things with polymer resin and a camera ;) My family on DA: Spandexboy (https://www.deviantart.com/spandexboy) FreakyCartoonist (https://www.deviantart.com/freakycartoonist) Stefansider (https://www.deviantart.com/stefansider) miu88 (https://www.deviantart.com/miu88) birdesigns (https://www.deviantart.com/birdesigns) Here's a list of my resin kids: Skaa, Dream of Doll Do
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