Walking out

This is more of a cryptic diary entry than anything else. Sorry for being so vague. 

Hey you around?
Dad just got back from a trip, bought me this cute hat. You doing okay? How are things?
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Yo! Can you believe this teacher? He's all like "you guys probably didn't study for the exam and did great anyway" but that's not true. I studied for that exam for three days straight nonstop! You didn't take it did you? What have you been up to?
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Um, you there? not sure what's going on. Are you okay?
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This was like the 3rd or 4th time that the silence went on too long for me in the past few months. It bothers me every time it happens, as if it were the first, as if it were somehow my fault, or that maybe I wasn't worth talking to. I think what's going on is someone's just walking out on their previous life. Moving on, walking out.

Someone else told me today: "friends in the end aren't really worth it, all they do is let you down."
It made me feel cold and alone. Friends don't have to be that way. When they are, you know they're the wrong people for you. 

When people walk out on you after you've tried to be good to them, you have to accept that they aren't for you, even if you really want them to be. People don't change as much as you'd like them to. So don't force it. I've always been afraid that I'd be all alone in the world someday because of the experience I had in high school. I know now its not the same on outside world so to speak. I can't be afraid anymore. I just have to accept and move on however hard that is for me right now.