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Artist | Hobbyist | Digital Art
United States
My name is Nicole, and I am a feminine presenting nonbinary artist based in the gulf coast region of the United States. I'm trying to be more active here and get back into drawing things I like and can finish while trying to build my creative career. Thank you for checking out my gallery, I hope to have more stuff up soon!

At the moment, my life is so busy that I can't find time to draw and when I have time, I have little motivation. I'm hoping that at some point, I will have time. My mother, who I currently live with, has bone marrow cancer and so I stay busy trying to keep things clean so that she won't get really sick. If you do enjoy my content, please let me know! A comment or favorite is greatly appreciated!

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Other Places I Can Be Found:

YouTube
@Otabaes
Glass Rubies on Tumblr
ValhallaPeach on AO3
Nicole Blogs on Blogspot

Current Fandoms:

Yuri!!! On Ice
Adventure Time
Steven Universe
Ao no Exorcist
Haikyuu!!
Gangsta
Tokyo Ghoul
Ten Count
American Horror Story
BNHA
Loveless
Free!
Frozen/Disney Princesses
Kingdom Hearts
The Legend of Zelda
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Camping Trip
This is based on a weird, but cute dream that I had one night. It's not sexual in nature, but I guess can be seen as seductive? I dunno. It's Yulia again shhh, but I had fun drawing and experimenting with this.
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Twitter Icon [Yulia]
Made an icon for my genderbent au rp twitter account......Not that I've really done anything with it in he last few days, but hey. I haven't drawn anything in forever, and I figured this was a good way to start. The size kind of ruined the details in it, but I did select the twitter icon size, so not sure what I expected.
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I haven't drawn in a while, I've been so busy this week......we got my mom's official diagnosis last Tuesday, but for personal reasons, I won't disclose it. I'm just hoping that from here, things will start looking up.
I haven't been motivated the last few days. I do have a drawing to work on, but honestly after Thursday's devastating news of Denis Ten's murder, I haven't wanted to do anything. But now, I do- and I just need to figure out what it is that I want to do. Do I finish the sketch I started, or draw something in memoriam of Denis Ten's life and career?
  • Listening to: Survivor Guilt- Rise Against
  • Drinking: water
So....today is my birthday. Or was, it's almost over. Please save the half hearted "happy birthday", I've had more than enough disappointment today. I was looking forward to today for weeks. 

I had to fight with my mom and sister to come back for cake. They left again right after.

Earlier today, my mom went with her friend instead of waiting for me to get up so we could go and eat. Mind you, I actually got up early today. We did that, went to the store to get milk, and then she had me drop her off at her friend's house. I came home and took a nap and then talked to the one friend I have here.

My sister went to a baby shower, where she had been all day. And then, went to pick up her friend when she kept insisting that they were on their way over. They came here, ate cake, and then left after telling me that they were going home to continue their tradition of getting drunk on my birthday without me.

I wasn't invited, wasn't even thought about. 

Mom went back to her friend's house.

I'm not upset that I wasn't invited to drink with my sister. She's done it every year for the last five years. What upset me is that I had to fight with both of them to even try to celebrate another year of a life that I never wanted. 

A life that 3 years ago, I tried to end. I'm 32 years old today, and this is the first birthday that I've actually cried for a reason that never involved me being a year old and being surrounded by too many people and terrified.

And I don't know anyone here because I was forced into moving 2000+ miles away from everyone that I knew because I "could make new friends and would still have my family". 6 years later, I have 1 friend that I NEVER see anymore and a family that doesn't give a shit about me. And on top of all of that, I feel so fucking selfish because my mom was just diagnosed with cancer a few days ago, and I'm here crying over no one wanting to be here on my birthday.

Happy Fucking Birthday. I'm not doing this again next year. I'm not even going to bother with it.

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birthdays Featured By Owner Jul 16, 2018
:woohoo: :party: :iconcakelickplz: !!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY !!! :iconcakelickplz: :party: :woohoo:

On behalf of the birthdays team, I sincerely apologize that your greeting has arrived late this year.

We hope you had an awesome day with lots of birthday fun, gifts, happiness and most definitely, lots of cake! Here's to another year!

Many well wishes and love from your friendly birthdays team :love:

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candhproductions Featured By Owner Jul 14, 2017
Happy Birthday!!!! :heart:
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Jasperinity Featured By Owner Jul 14, 2017
Happy birthday! :D
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birthdays Featured By Owner Jul 14, 2017
:woohoo: :party: :iconcakelickplz: !!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY !!! :iconcakelickplz: :party: :woohoo:

It's July 14th which means it's that time of the year again and your special day is here! We hope you have an awesome day with lots of birthday fun, gifts, happiness and most definitely, lots of cake! Here's to another year!

Many well wishes and love from your friendly birthdays team :love:

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