Listening to: Survivor Guilt- Rise Against
I'm not dead! I've been so busy, and haven't really felt motivated to draw lately. But tonight, I sat down and actually drew (and finished) a piece! It's my latest deviation, and I actually enjoyed making it! I feel like maybe if I start drawing content that I enjoy, I'll be able to actually finish things without feeling pressured or losing interest.
And the weird thing is that I don't take requests, even from family lol But between errands and life in general, I haven't really found time or motivation to do anything more than mess around online. Maybe it's a matter of finding the right inspiration, I guess. I dunno.
But wow, it is so hot now? Summer started early, as it usually does, at the end of April. But it feels like it does in August already, like peak hot and humid. Plus, hurricane season has started, which is fun. Alberto changed trajectory at the last minute, and turned eastward from the gulf. There were casualties, and I hope the families can find peace in their difficult time.
Things have also been happening in my county since they lifted the alcohol ban. Like murder, DUI, things like that. Like we didn't already have a drug trafficking problem here thanks to people in Clarkedale. A woman that I know murdered her boyfriend. The trial is next month, and I hope she's convicted and sentenced. It's been absolutely crazy here.
But life goes on as usual, and I need to figure out a way to make money or get a job. Or go beg for my job back, but my anxiety will not allow me to do that. I need to figure something out, though, and soon. I have an elderly cat to take care of.
I also now have a desk! I know that it doesn't seem like much to get excited over, but I've been without a desk for 6 years almost. It makes drawing difficult, even drawing digitally. I'll get everything set up tomorrow/later today, after I get home.
We're getting the truck's tires replaced, finally. I told my mom that I'm not driving her car anymore. The tire fell apart on the highway, and I had to drive 30 miles below the speed limit to go home and get the truck. What's funny is that I even thought to take the truck in the first place, but then told myself no because my mom would have a fit.
Turns out, the truck was the more reliable option in the first place, and I was terribly upset over that for hours. My mom and sister were in California at the time. They got back on the 31st of May, so now my sister annoys me asking me to take her to Dollar General all the time. If I start working there again, I'm not taking her every day anymore. She gets mad, but oh well.
For now, maybe I should try to get better at drawing so I can do something with it and not let it be just a useless talent. I've already improved a lot, but there's always more room for improvement.