Okay here we go again.... Uhm yea it's going to be pretty much the same as my old Journal post and yea I suck.
I really want and hope that this is going to be my last journal entry about me disappearing. ;-;
Why do I keep disappearing? The truth is I've come to a point where I'm not enjoying drawing anymore, it isn't fun anymore and I wanted to quit (but I obviously can't cause I owe a lot of people some drawings and i feel I'm trapped or something). No matter how hard I try to force myself I just cant really finish a pic like completely zero motivation and usually when I did manage to finish one, I just end up hating the result. It's becoming more of a stressful thing to do than it being fun. I've become really depressed and anxious and it's the reason why I have not been posting anything. I started hating myself to the core to the point I even started hating my ugly physical self and I just wanted to disappear in this world. I didn't want to talk to everyone because I'm scared and anxious about it. I'm afraid of getting
a lot of hate because of it.
A few of you already sent me mail saying that I'm ignoring you. I AM NOT ignoring you guys or at least I didn't mean to, it's just that I really have not opened my mails yet because I'm scared. Which is really really stupid. (And I think technically that's still considered ignoring? OTL I'm so sorry).
But enough of this negativity, the main point of this journal is to let you guys know that recently I have been feeling a lil better, I've started doing more personal projects (Please don't hate me my commissioners ;A; ). At first I thought that this will help me cope up with my depression and help me get back on track with drawing in general instead of just lying and rot in bed the whole time. And it did help! I started enjoying drawing again and get excited every time I hold my pen.
My friend Scott (who has been helping me a lot with my shitty issues, specially financially ;O; ) encouraged me to open a Patreon page, it's like a win win for me, I do things I enjoy the most and earn some lil cash at the same time. Bless the people who made that site happen xD
So yea everyone, I'm introducing you my Patreon page! It's about our project Elder's Floating Temple! We're making this happen! For now it's all just character sheets and stuff but once we reached a certain goal we'll be finally start working on the actual manga! I'm really excited!
Here it is -> www.patreon.com/ichan01?ty=h ( *beware the page contains a lot of nsfw stuff 'o' * )
Now about the commissions, I already started working on it again, still slowly and little by little tho but yea I guess it's better than nothing? OTL I sincerely apologize to everyone who have waited for ages. Since I started getting back my normal rhythm in drawing, I'll try to update more and I can only promise everyone a quality art. ><
I want to thank everyone who has been really patient! Thank you so much and I'm so sorry ;o;
Today I created a Facebook page to update everyone more with my works! I'll post WIPS and stuff and I will try to be active more. For now I will post commission pics (color sketch) since the beginning.
Here -> www.facebook.com/pages/Ichan-d…
To all my friends here! Again I'm so sorry I have not talked to youl for a long time now, I'll try to make it up to you guys. >< I love you.
The following days I will post some of the things I've done the past few weeks which is from our personal projects and hopefully more commission pics.
So yea that's all for now! Once again I'm so sorry everyone and I'll try my best to give you more fun contents regularly!!
I also want to thank the people who have been very supportive! Thank you! ;3; /hugs
Have a nice day and take care everyone!