The song started. I stared at the wall, my eyes involuntarily going upwards until they were nearly staring at my light. Time seemed to slow as the fan took its time, going around and around in circles. I was cold, but I couldn’t have turned it off if I wanted to. It was as if I had forgotten how to move, or my body simple didn’t want to – didn’t have the energy.
I imagined freezing to death there. I failed to form an opinion on the matter. I just lied there, staring at my ceiling. My blanket was right there, but I stayed, cold. I didn’t think I even wanted to get it.
“Can you break my bones…” I started to mumble along with the song, realizing that my voice worked a bit. I mindlessly breathed along with it, stopping after a few lines when it started going too fast for me, and my voice choked up and stopped working again. After a while, I started singing along in my head.