Wow. Yesterday marked the sixth year I've been here on deviantART--more or less, of course--and it's something I find strange. So much time has gone by since I first joined the community, I've seen friends come and go, I've met a beautiful woman who I now call my wife, and I myself have gone and returned many times over. Yet I'm still here, in some way or another.
This is where, for better or worse, I've developed my photography "skills"--put in quotations because I still don't consider myself that great of a photographer, but I try. This is also where I've nourished my writing talents, as slim as they've been in recent years and as poor as they've been in my lifetime. I love reading but when it comes to writing, I don't know. I've lost much of that passion. I've just become more enamored with photography I guess. I know that a man can have more than one hobby but photography is something I've just enjoyed more thoroughly. I'm still a perfectionist with it but with writing, it came to a point that I literally revised word for word simple lines and passages that for anyone else would come as simple as anything. I was a nightmarish critic of my own work, and it got in the way of enjoying the actual process of writing.
With photography, I feel more accomplishment when I look at a photo I've shot and I like
it. I genuinely, wholly like
it. It's something I can't really explain so I just hope it makes sense. I'll try writing again at some point but until I'm struck with a passion to do so, I don't know. We'll see.
But six years. Six years of maturing, of socializing, of keeping up friendships. I've lost touch with many of the friends I met when I first joined, but if any of you find yourselves reading this, please don't be a stranger. I'd love to catch up.
And to my newer friends, I've enjoyed our conversations and your work, and everything else that in between. I look forward to getting to know you all more in the coming years.
That's it, I guess. I've been trying to return to the community recently as mainly a distraction from a family tragedy a few weeks, and just trying to keep my mind off of it. It's another reason I've been doing my best to bury myself in my photography and everything else. Sometimes it's just easier not to think about them, I guess. In any case, Erika (TheMaidenInBlack
) and I will be celebrating our sixth year anniversary tomorrow and even though I will be returning to the States in a few weeks, I still cherish the time I have with her. I want nothing else in this world than her smiling, adorable face. Nothing at all.
Watching: "Sons of Anarchy," "Game of Thrones," and recently "The Newsroom" again. Oh, and "The Walking Dead."
Listening to: ENO, Bob Dylan, The Dubliners, Her Name is Calla. All unrelated but those have been the more recent ones.
Playing: Not much actually. I haven't had a lot of passion to play recently. When I can eventually get my hands on a PS4, it will surely be Dragon Age: Inquisition. It looks pretty incredible, much better than the 2nd one. Eck.