I'm going to start by saying: Don't pity me. Feel what you feel, but just know that's not what I want. Being seen as an "attention seeker" is half the reason I keep this kinda shit to myself all the time.
This is more about holding myself accountable. It's so easy to ignore the fact that you have a problem when nobody knows about it. Not even my closest online friends, this is just on me. Well, I told someone this morning, but they haven't replied yet. Humans are extremely social, and as antisocial as I may be, I believe that even just the knowledge that other people know about this is going to be a powerful tool. Regardless of whether or no