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Flustered Calam by Hyperchaotix Flustered Calam :iconhyperchaotix:Hyperchaotix 9 0 NEW SONA Ref 2019 by Hyperchaotix NEW SONA Ref 2019 :iconhyperchaotix:Hyperchaotix 13 0 Valentines Gift for Chaofanatic by Hyperchaotix Valentines Gift for Chaofanatic :iconhyperchaotix:Hyperchaotix 12 1 Sonic Says: Trans Rights! by Hyperchaotix Sonic Says: Trans Rights! :iconhyperchaotix:Hyperchaotix 60 8 iibo gift by Hyperchaotix iibo gift :iconhyperchaotix:Hyperchaotix 9 0 SRB2 Kart Low Poly Pack 4K by Hyperchaotix SRB2 Kart Low Poly Pack 4K :iconhyperchaotix:Hyperchaotix 17 0 Just a hedgehog by Hyperchaotix Just a hedgehog :iconhyperchaotix:Hyperchaotix 25 1 Anthro Ketea Commission by Hyperchaotix Anthro Ketea Commission :iconhyperchaotix:Hyperchaotix 10 0 Hooters Outfit Vector by Hyperchaotix Hooters Outfit Vector :iconhyperchaotix:Hyperchaotix 37 4 Impatient Low Poly Sonic by Hyperchaotix Impatient Low Poly Sonic :iconhyperchaotix:Hyperchaotix 82 13 Low Poly Sonic by Hyperchaotix Low Poly Sonic :iconhyperchaotix:Hyperchaotix 39 3 Kass Heart Animation by Hyperchaotix Kass Heart Animation :iconhyperchaotix:Hyperchaotix 60 4 I LOVE GREGG OK by Hyperchaotix I LOVE GREGG OK :iconhyperchaotix:Hyperchaotix 2,229 251 Commission info 2017: Open by Hyperchaotix Commission info 2017: Open :iconhyperchaotix:Hyperchaotix 5 0 He returns by Hyperchaotix He returns :iconhyperchaotix:Hyperchaotix 42 3 Doom Spectre by Hyperchaotix Doom Spectre :iconhyperchaotix:Hyperchaotix 15 0
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:bulletblue: Traditional Art :bulletblue:
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:bulletpurple: 3D modeling :bulletpurple:

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FPS to FPB to BPM Calculator by inferno988 FPS to FPB to BPM Calculator :iconinferno988:inferno988 90 32 (B-day gift) Hyper Mania Chaotix and Knuckles by FranckyFox2468 (B-day gift) Hyper Mania Chaotix and Knuckles :iconfranckyfox2468:FranckyFox2468 3 0 Izora's gift by Red-IzaK Izora's gift :iconred-izak:Red-IzaK 438 20 Canine Cola by nothere3 Canine Cola :iconnothere3:nothere3 207 15 Golden by Jeniak Golden :iconjeniak:Jeniak 3,711 101 Patisserie en Pointe by uberchain Patisserie en Pointe :iconuberchain:uberchain 238 95 Art Trade with HyperChaotix by Py-Bun Art Trade with HyperChaotix :iconpy-bun:Py-Bun 82 3 Commission for Rosebuster by AbsoluteDream Commission for Rosebuster :iconabsolutedream:AbsoluteDream 1,795 112 No Return by thanshuhai No Return :iconthanshuhai:thanshuhai 2,007 93 Soft and Cell Shading Guide - PSD File by Nouraii Soft and Cell Shading Guide - PSD File :iconnouraii:Nouraii 2,613 20 This Kiss by RickGriffin
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This Kiss :iconrickgriffin:RickGriffin 648 59
Trixters by Red-IzaK Trixters :iconred-izak:Red-IzaK 367 28 Commission For Keizenmikazuki by Silverfox5213 Commission For Keizenmikazuki :iconsilverfox5213:Silverfox5213 1,065 29 Fire Wolf by The-SixthLeafClover Fire Wolf :iconthe-sixthleafclover:The-SixthLeafClover 1,607 53 Mecha Sonic by yoshiyaki Mecha Sonic :iconyoshiyaki:yoshiyaki 1,017 47 Pink Kiss by sakimichan Pink Kiss :iconsakimichan:sakimichan 11,885 268
I can't believe how long I've been here. Or not more recently I guess. So much has changed when I first joined this site when I was 13, for the site sure, but especially for me.

When I first joined I was just a dumb kid desperately looking for an outlet or escape of any kind. Didn't realize just how much I needed it at the time, but I got to make dumb Sonic art and post them somewhere anyone stumbling through the internet could see. I kind of miss those days but at the same time, I would not want to go back and relive what I'd been through.

Ever since 2016 I've been coming to terms with my emotional trauma. 2016 was the last year I had to make contact with my dad and I've been pushing to keep him out of my life since. In December 2018 I got a new phone and that was the last thing I had connected to him. Now... it's strange. I'd been so focused on not having to endure any more manipulation and trauma that I never really... grew up.

I'm 24 now and my mind is stuck at who I was at 18. Coping with this has been stressful and I kept myself quiet and shut myself out from a lot of things. I tried to take a long break from the internet almost entirely in 2018, thinking I would be better for it with a clearer head. What ended up happening was I hyper-fixated on what little I feel like I've accomplished, how stunted I was by my upbringing, and accentuated just how isolated and alone I felt.


But I'm tired of being like that. I'm tired of not being able to grow up. I'm tired of feeling isolated. I'm going to make 2019 better and get back on track towards my dream career.


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:iconteslarossa:
Teslarossa Featured By Owner Aug 27, 2018  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Happy birthday!
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PurpleFoxKinz Featured By Owner Aug 27, 2018
Happy Birthday!!
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SonicAndTailsfan64 Featured By Owner Aug 27, 2018
happy birthday :)
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AlphaShitlord Featured By Owner Aug 27, 2018  Hobbyist General Artist
   𝓗𝓪𝓹𝓹𝔂 𝓫𝓲𝓻𝓽𝓱𝓭𝓪𝔂!
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VanillaCreamKilly Featured By Owner Aug 27, 2018
Happy Birthday!! 
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HS-KEN Featured By Owner Aug 27, 2018
Happy Birthday!
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ParagonRaven Featured By Owner Aug 27, 2018
Happy Birthday!
 La la la la I am a dummy! Beach Cake with candles 50x50 icon OMG CAKE :happy birthday: 
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MechaAshura20 Featured By Owner Aug 27, 2018
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BlueAIien Featured By Owner Aug 6, 2018  Student Filmographer
hey dude, can i get the death at the disco sprites
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:iconteslarossa:
Teslarossa Featured By Owner Aug 27, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Happy birthday!
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SonicAndTailsfan64 Featured By Owner Aug 27, 2017
happy birthday :)
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PurpleComet5 Featured By Owner Aug 27, 2017  Student Digital Artist
Happy Birthday!
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VanillaCreamKilly Featured By Owner Aug 27, 2017
Happy Birthday!! 
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ParagonRaven Featured By Owner Aug 27, 2017
H A P P Y  B I R T H D A Y !
I am a dummy!ClapBirthday cake  icon:happy birthday::deliciouscake: 
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HS-KEN Featured By Owner Aug 27, 2017
Happy Birthday!
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eryk276 Featured By Owner Aug 27, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
happy birthday! :3
I wish you every happiness on your special day
Have a wonderful day, get many nice presents and a lot of fun!
:hugs from poland and gives you a cake:
:333
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MechaAshura20 Featured By Owner Aug 27, 2017
{F2U} Exotic Butters Icon 
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AffectiveBlast Featured By Owner Apr 17, 2017  Hobbyist Artist
:)
Hello my fellow deviant!!
;)
You look good today
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MechaAshura20 Featured By Owner Aug 27, 2016
Five Nights at Freddys 2- Chicas Cupcake -Icon GIF 
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Teslarossa Featured By Owner Aug 27, 2016  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Happy birthday!
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Hyperchaotix Featured By Owner Sep 6, 2016  Hobbyist General Artist
Thanks!
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Gr8Finity Featured By Owner Aug 27, 2016
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Hyperchaotix Featured By Owner Sep 3, 2016  Hobbyist General Artist
Haha wow I love these! Thank you!
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thestooge2222 Featured By Owner Aug 27, 2016  Hobbyist Artist
happy birthday pal!
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Hyperchaotix Featured By Owner Sep 3, 2016  Hobbyist General Artist
Thanks bud!
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