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*shrieking into the night*

So I went through another really really rough patch..... but that's fine. I'll be fine. <:'D

Trying to generate a good swing of balancing homework and personal work. Being able to work on my stuff is really my best venting outlet and it never helps when I have to push it off. Luckily, I don't have anything super heavy this semester because I could only get into 15 credit hours before all the classes filled up and one of the credits is literally just yoga....  //why this school gotta make me take a fitness class, like ugh// it's all good though. I do nothing but read, write, and draw all day, so yoga's actually been really good. It is quite painful though. 8I Warrior 2 and downward facing dog are my only friends.

Other than that, I have two history classes, World Civ up to 1500 which has been fun given that my preferred periods to study are the American Revolution and foundation and world from 1910-1950. //Gimmie them World Wars// Also have American History 1865- present. I... dislike that class. post civil war up to the world war is so.. boring for me. Like... I really don't give a crap about farmers revolting and people building trains. Like.... it's all very important, but I'm like, WHAT WAS PRUSSIA UP TO RN, I WANT TO KNOW ABOUT PRUSSIA. Plus since this is strictly AMERICAN history, there will be NONE of the good stuff over WWI, like the Christmas truces of 1914 which were HUGE and most people know nothing about them, and WWII will be an extrememly biased, winner-writes-the-history and the Wehrmacht were all evil Nazis, we're not even going to mention the mass German subversion, even within small circles in the SS, nope nope, nor will we talk about how much the Allies screwed Germany over after WWII and decided to pile mass murder on top of mass murder, because that's how we solve problems, right? Okay I'm done. Tell me when we get to Kennedy calling himself a jelly doughnut in Berlin and Reagan being a badass.

Then I have Statistics every morning at 9am which is hell because I'm bad at math and morning. <:'D
Aaaaand French 1, semester 2. My confusing French and German is getting worse and my German grammar is deteriorating. I must find a way to save my German. I will not let this happen. I will not lose to French.
Had a test today in French... I think I might have put the German word for chocolate instead of the French one.

So no huge papers so far, but I imagine things are going to get busy in later semesters when I get to all my ed classes. I'm double majoring in Secondary Ed and Social Sciences, so that's a heavy load, and then getting a minor in Theology hopefully, which is three extra theo classes on top of the required three. I came in with 3 credit hours from a college credit theo class I took in highschool, so I get out of Intro to Theo which will be good because it will be so basic, I'll be crying tears of pain, having to sit through it. Same with English Comp 1 and English Lit 1. So glad I aced the AP test to skip those! <:'D

So I'm doing SOMETHING right here!!

Working on a few things in regards to art. I'm dead set on figuring out some of the little details in The Damned by the end of this semester.... like Chalmar Stromann's rank and uniform.... how to get Florian out of the draft.... thinking prior service in the Wehrmacht and then injury to the head booted him out. Would help build up to how those blows to the head at the end of the story trigger amnesia. Also the structure of the HitlerJugend. Such a mess.
The Military and Police structure of Nazi Germany is so complex, it's utter chaos.
I have a book tho.
It's been very helpful.

Woot woot by HugaDuck

The SS book has been soooo helpful. It's an unbiased work of research dedicated to cataloging all of the ranking insignia present on SS uniforms. I read all the sections except over the Waffen SS because the Waffen SS is so freaking big and irrelevant to my story and the chapter is like... almost half the book.

The HJ book is..... bad. It's not a good research source. It's EXTREMELY biased, be what it says factual or not, and is just an aggressive work that's purpose is to demonize. I don't want to read how evil a group of 14-18 year olds were, I want concrete info on their formation, education, and internal structure!!!!! >8U
Like.. at one point, the book starts bashing on Hitler's paintings, and I'm just like WOAH STOP. Look, no one here likes Hitler. He was pretty messed up in the head.... but you're going to start insulting his art in a book that's supposed to be informative about the HJ??? First of all, this has nothing to do with anything, and second, his paintings were not that bad! How is this relevant to anything???
It's not.
The book sucks.

But the lowest price for the research book over the HJ by the man who did the SS one is around $200 because his books stopped printing a long tome ago, so there's few of them in circulation. I was lucky to get the SS one, and am rreaaaalllllyyyy dying to get my hands on Vol. 2 of the book he complied about the German police. It talks a lot about the Third Reich, and that stuff is super important to my story.

I do have a handbook from the actual time of the war dedicated to informing the allies about all details of the HJ, so I'm hoping that helps but it's veeeerryyy long, and I'm also trying to get through the "Communist Manifesto" (need to read it for developing my commie bastard Niklas, ((don't tell him I called him mean names)), and also want to read "Mein Kampf" as most of my kids in TD would have read it, so I ought to know it as well. But maaaaaaannnn..... Adi, that asshole, he had to write the most long winded angry diary/battle plan ever. Gotta finish Marx and Engels first.... then Hitler.
That just sounds so bad. <XDDD

Researching is hard.

Joseph Goebbels' first name was Paul, and he had a deformity that made him limp when he walked?
Goebbels.... Hitler's propaganda manager.... you know... the guy who helped preach that people with deformities were the weak and needed to be weeded out?
Oh irony.

Also trying to finish Dostoevsky's "The Idiot" because I love Dostoevsky and Myshkin is precious. Not as precious as Razumihin from "Crime and Punishment," but still precious. <3

So..... will hopefully be putting some decent art out. Currently working on.... this... thing....
Capture by HugaDuck

I know... I know..... I promised real art.....

oh well, I had to.

OKAY, WELL I need to do stats and French, so...


Hope everyone is well!

~~ Kyra
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PaintFeathers Featured By Owner Jan 28, 2017  Student Filmographer
Good luck with your classes!
HugaDuck Featured By Owner Jan 28, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
Thanks -u-
PaintFeathers Featured By Owner Jan 31, 2017  Student Filmographer
Nevareck Featured By Owner Jan 25, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
Asdfffffff ...sounds rough 
*hug you*
You'll get through that rough patch!  You can do it!  I believe in you!

That is an interesting fact about Goebbels.... I should look into WW history more... I used to love WW2 stuff...

And ya know, whatever the heck you post I like, whether it's doodles of your characters, or comics, or hourlong works, I love 'em all!  (Would like to see some Zane tho (>o<)
 He cool...)

Why can't they teach Prussia history in these schools... >:\
HugaDuck Featured By Owner Jan 26, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist

The whole era from the Franco-Prussian War to the Cold War is very interesting to me. They all tie together and it's frustrating to me that American textbooks pick them apart and make them all appear to be completely separate clashes, when in fact, a lot of it links together, ESPECIALLY the world wars conflict, which to many historians are really one thing and not to be taken as two. I mean, America showed up late to both WWs, which would help make sense of why our own textbooks only cover our perspective, but... ughh. It's also frustrating when many textbooks just show WWII materializing out of nowhere without presenting ALL of the circumstances that lead to it besides..... "Hitler was a butt hurt."
There's soooooo much more. <XU
Anywhoo, that's my mini rant.

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