At the heart of the matter,
It isn’t complicated at all.
Whether there is trust,
Gratitude, appreciation,
Dedication…
We will find it all
In the center of our chests.
You see, when it beats for a friend
The rhythm never ends.
It will never cease,
And in its thump,
It speaks.
Truthfully, it cannot stop once it begins.
If you know this,
Then you know a friend.
If you show this,
Then you show a friend.
If you lack this,
Then it did not exist.
Unfortunate, if that is so,
And you will be duly missed.
We touch each other’s lives
In ways we cannot imagine,
In our smiles,
In our laughs,
And in our fears and passions.
In the hea
Steal…
That’s what they do.
Sand grains from the glass,
Strings from the organ core,
And space in that place which no one
Sees or hears,
They abscond with these and more.
Passionate and hot,
Then distant, swiftly
They freeze.
Drop you on high
And raise you to your knees.
Lick the wound they made bleed.
At best, refuse to feel.
Refuse to heal
That which causes such chaos,
Trapped and attached,
Bound to them like the skin they wear.
Unaware,
Never knowing how much they deprive
Themselves of what they pretend is not there.
But the real doesn’t fade.
What’s real feels.
It embraces the heat and the cold,
The young, th
The wind calls to me.
It tells me all the things that I can do.
It promises to carry me
As I sail, climb, dive, and swoop.
Everyone says to fly.
Everyone says set yourself free,
Live out your truth.
Well, I learned to fly,
And I freely live, but in truth…
I was never told
Where one flies to….
I remember building it,
And I recall the first time
It was broken down.
The sting still remains
From the spear of the one
Who penetrated my fortifications
All those years ago.
To this day,
I wonder who really won the war.
I suppose,
Survivors have the luxury
Of contemplating trivial matters,
Tallying their successes
And failures,
Adding and subtracting
Their cries and laughter.
Soon, I began again.
This time, my parameters
Were more carefully set.
New technologies were
Availed to me,
And my ambitions crept
Higher and higher,
To the summits
Where the sun set.
Still, these material things,
These mere manifestations
Of my own insecurit
Fingers pressed against the screen,
Almost enough to break through,
I’m approaching the other side
Of this familiar, foreign land
That I have always been.
Sliding back, the fixed and present
Seem less compelling and unreal.
The ether’s gone, void expands
And the material craves song
Akin to soft antidepressant.
Torturous and beautiful,
I slip into the prism of mind.
Angled and sharp, shining light
On matters immaterial in nature,
I find the substance oddly musical.
For it was filled, it was real,
Lying against an Oak I’d known since tender years,
It grew with me from sapling to tree,
And it spoke through rustled leaves
Calm and clear.
“Remember the wind,”
It said again and again.
“Remember how gentle it was
During times of fear.”
And I replied,
“I recall its sigh
When hope would die,
Just before answers became clear.”
It told me, “Take and hold to faith,
For we are of the same root and core.”
And I replied with dimming eyes,
“Have I not bled before?”
Screens close like storm doors,
Tight and foreboding
But transparent enough to reveal.
Still sweat attempts to drip,
Cold against hot skin,
Held in place by trembling lip,
With eyes peeled,
Unable to avert from the scene.
What was once tangible and precious
Fades like mist.
Before the architect’s eyes,
All hopes and dreams die with his life’s creation,
As he stands…
Helpless.
Caught in the spark,
Lost in the dark,
Chasing the end once it begins.
Shattered thoughts
Scatter,
Broken and far removed.
Time drags on,
And embers that were once spark
Turn to flame
And devour what’s left until it’s gone.
My heart pangs
As the silence is broken and no longer hangs
O'er head. Instead, the bell clangs
From the docks as I hold fast the vangs.
At port, I rush forth with force rivaling herds of excited mustangs.
A war scarred dragon with polished fangs
Roaring, "Long time no see Bangs!"
At the heart of the matter,
It isn’t complicated at all.
Whether there is trust,
Gratitude, appreciation,
Dedication…
We will find it all
In the center of our chests.
You see, when it beats for a friend
The rhythm never ends.
It will never cease,
And in its thump,
It speaks.
Truthfully, it cannot stop once it begins.
If you know this,
Then you know a friend.
If you show this,
Then you show a friend.
If you lack this,
Then it did not exist.
Unfortunate, if that is so,
And you will be duly missed.
We touch each other’s lives
In ways we cannot imagine,
In our smiles,
In our laughs,
And in our fears and passions.
In the hea
Steal…
That’s what they do.
Sand grains from the glass,
Strings from the organ core,
And space in that place which no one
Sees or hears,
They abscond with these and more.
Passionate and hot,
Then distant, swiftly
They freeze.
Drop you on high
And raise you to your knees.
Lick the wound they made bleed.
At best, refuse to feel.
Refuse to heal
That which causes such chaos,
Trapped and attached,
Bound to them like the skin they wear.
Unaware,
Never knowing how much they deprive
Themselves of what they pretend is not there.
But the real doesn’t fade.
What’s real feels.
It embraces the heat and the cold,
The young, th
The wind calls to me.
It tells me all the things that I can do.
It promises to carry me
As I sail, climb, dive, and swoop.
Everyone says to fly.
Everyone says set yourself free,
Live out your truth.
Well, I learned to fly,
And I freely live, but in truth…
I was never told
Where one flies to….
I remember building it,
And I recall the first time
It was broken down.
The sting still remains
From the spear of the one
Who penetrated my fortifications
All those years ago.
To this day,
I wonder who really won the war.
I suppose,
Survivors have the luxury
Of contemplating trivial matters,
Tallying their successes
And failures,
Adding and subtracting
Their cries and laughter.
Soon, I began again.
This time, my parameters
Were more carefully set.
New technologies were
Availed to me,
And my ambitions crept
Higher and higher,
To the summits
Where the sun set.
Still, these material things,
These mere manifestations
Of my own insecurit
Fingers pressed against the screen,
Almost enough to break through,
I’m approaching the other side
Of this familiar, foreign land
That I have always been.
Sliding back, the fixed and present
Seem less compelling and unreal.
The ether’s gone, void expands
And the material craves song
Akin to soft antidepressant.
Torturous and beautiful,
I slip into the prism of mind.
Angled and sharp, shining light
On matters immaterial in nature,
I find the substance oddly musical.
For it was filled, it was real,
Lying against an Oak I’d known since tender years,
It grew with me from sapling to tree,
And it spoke through rustled leaves
Calm and clear.
“Remember the wind,”
It said again and again.
“Remember how gentle it was
During times of fear.”
And I replied,
“I recall its sigh
When hope would die,
Just before answers became clear.”
It told me, “Take and hold to faith,
For we are of the same root and core.”
And I replied with dimming eyes,
“Have I not bled before?”
Screens close like storm doors,
Tight and foreboding
But transparent enough to reveal.
Still sweat attempts to drip,
Cold against hot skin,
Held in place by trembling lip,
With eyes peeled,
Unable to avert from the scene.
What was once tangible and precious
Fades like mist.
Before the architect’s eyes,
All hopes and dreams die with his life’s creation,
As he stands…
Helpless.
Caught in the spark,
Lost in the dark,
Chasing the end once it begins.
Shattered thoughts
Scatter,
Broken and far removed.
Time drags on,
And embers that were once spark
Turn to flame
And devour what’s left until it’s gone.
My heart pangs
As the silence is broken and no longer hangs
O'er head. Instead, the bell clangs
From the docks as I hold fast the vangs.
At port, I rush forth with force rivaling herds of excited mustangs.
A war scarred dragon with polished fangs
Roaring, "Long time no see Bangs!"
letter to a little me .:reprise:. by LeahShae, literature
Literature
letter to a little me .:reprise:.
have some hard-won lessons:
1. things are hard, but here's the kicker -
everyone is just as imperfect as you are.
2. yes, you do have demons.
make friends with them. this way,
when they start causing trouble,
you can say "oh, honey, be a lamb,"
and send them out on errands for a while.
3. you will give your heart out freely
and unabashed.
sometimes you will have it politely returned.
sometimes you will have it set on fire.
always
you will heal.
never lose this capacity for implicit trust.
because after all -
the people that matter will crawl inside your skin
and treat it like their own.
4. here's the big secret -
your purpose in life is t
you made room for yourself in my chest -
no -
i made room,
reorganized and reprioritized.
you were always good at
putting things into perspective.
i made a room for you -
and i've torn the door off its hinges,
driven my fist through the windows,
torn up our ephemera and scattered it across the floor and doused it all in gasoline and dropped a motherfucking match and -
pain won't burn like hatred will.
wouldn't it be nice
to hate you.
so i'm empty and kneeling in the bomb(ed) shelter of my heart,
filling the silence with self-soothing sobs
and choking on feathers
and coughing up roses
and drowning in the sick comfort of
making the right ch
D'you taste the rain
Of your laughter,
Falling on the lashes
Of all you have damned?
And regret the blame
Of your failure,
When others
Do heed?
Your desire,
Your memoirs,
And your guilt,
Paint the Universe
in Dark and Crimson.
Eternally dancing silhouettes,
Tossing and Spinning,
In your tapestry of pain;
Only when
You whisper
Your vanity,
To the writhing forms
of the beauty you have destroyed.
See
Some people need to learn to see,
Not with there eyes, the souls of those like me,
The Outcasts, the freaks, we don't judge by view,
Because we were judged before they ever knew,
Who we are, the hopes we have as we shoot for the stars.
Even if we are on the lowest social bars.
Life is a very precious thing, but people are cold and ruthless.
That's why it saddens me when they take their life, because they were called useless.
Or I see a poor soul, full of pity and strife,
And they think the problem will be solved when wrist meets knife.
Even when I was sad and in pain,
It took all I was before the demon was slain.
Right
Current Residence: The abyss Favourite genre of music: Alternative/Rap Favourite style of art: Poetry MP3 player of choice: iPod Personal Quote: "Eh, I'm taking meh a nap."
Yeah....I've gone back in rock history. I've bought and I'm listening to depressing Johnny Cash, and I really think I shouldn't keep up with my bad habit of listening to depressing music but hey, everyone's got their thing I guess. The song's called hurt, if you know of it, you know what I mean by seriously depressing music. :/
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