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Fighter
I may have my fragile moments,
Times when I just curl up and cry.
That doesn't make me weak
Or incapable of protecting myself.
I just live hard.
I might be short,
Lack muscle,
But I can endure more than you.
I might be tall,
Bigger than most girls,
But I can go farther than you.
I might be average,
Dress like a hoe,
But I can suck dick better than you.
So if you want to challenge me,
Be prepared to face all of us,
Not just the me you saw at a glimpse.
We're so much more complex than that.
It's difficult,
It really is,
Too difficult to settle for just being yourself.
Life forces you evolve for a reason,
To change and adapt to what's given to you.
Make it your goal to be a monster,
A person so fierce and determinined
That no one can stop them.
Strength alone isn't enough,
That's just a beast.
Come,
Agitate me.
I dare you.
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Literature
Injury
We go through life getting hurt,
Some wounds hurt more than others,
With a few going completely unseen.
The deeper the pain
The harder you try to cure it,
But there are those so deep
Where the only way to alleviate
Is through greater injury.
Before you know it your life
Is all over the walls,
Like bad wallpaper.
Everyone knows what you've been doing,
They see the shameful patchwork,
The way you walk tells them everything.
You're barely more than a corpse,
Is there even anything left
Inside of those veins
Or did you suck someone else dry?
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Literature
Collar
Ask me a question,
I'll answer truthfully,
At least to you.
Tell me a lie,
And I will never know you.
Say what's on your mind,
Are you thinking about someone
Other than me right now?
I am now,
Now that you reminded me
Of life outside this moment.
Who are you thinking about?
Why them and not someone else?
Is it odd if I say
I'm thinking about the you
That's not you,
But the you
That's you
When you're with your family?
Interesting...
So, right now you think
I'm not being truthful?
That I'm lying,
Hiding my true colors
While I wait for an opportunity
To take advantage of this situation.
Yes.
You would be correct.
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Literature
Sanity
boob
dick
boob
dick
let me suck on that clit
what
shit
what
shit
i'm having none of it
meow
meow
meow
meow
give me some pussy right neow
come
cum
come
cum
stick it in someone else's bum
woo
hoo
woo
hoo
we aren't sims, but that's cool
heaven
hell
heaven
hell
i'm a potato now.
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Literature
Shipwreck (Original Song Lyrics)
[Verse 1]
Tell me which is worst,
Feeling like you can't breath
Or actually not breathing?
I can't tell the difference...
At least not anymore.
[Chorus]
My life is a crime,
But I'm innocent...
At least in someone's mind.
They have more guilt,
More evil's than I.
[Verse 2]
Here I slip,
Clash collide and entangle with with another,
We struggle in a nonsensical way.
The surface below us wibbles and wobbles,
Occasionally dipping under.
[Verse 3]
She's clearly stronger,
I'm the weak one clinging on.
All the darkness and hate,
Her desire...
They overwhelm my own,
She has a reason to go on.
[Chorus]
My life is a crime,
But I'm innocent...
At least in someone's mind.
They have more guilt,
More evil's than I.
[Verse 4]
Overcome with sheer force
We're thrown under,
I loose my grip,
Her hand claws my arm
Keeping me from straying too far.
[Verse 5]
The storm grows worst,
Rain and thunder intensify
As the sky tears apart.
Hold on to me and don't let go!
She orders as she reaches a hand out to me.
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Literature
Latecomer
You're late.
I'm already dead.
You can't save me,
Even if you empty my lungs of water
And fill them with your air,
I'm not coming back.
I waited for you,
You said you'd be there...
You let me drown,
So just give up and save yourself.
Don't...
Don't try.
Why are you putting so much effort?
How can you still care?
Stop,
I don't want to surface.
I want to stay down here...
Why are you so strong?
What power do you have that I don't,
That allows you to carry my darkness?
To you it weighs so little,
Your absence so much.
Survivor's guilt, huh?
I'm sorry, but you took too long.
You knew I couldn't swim,
But still told me to go ahead,
To jump ship.
So here I am
Not breathing as you hold my weight,
Fighting the waves with nothing to hold on to,
But a corpse.
I know you see the shore,
But you won't make it that far,
Not with me anyway.
So go,
Stop holding onto me,
Get out of the storm,
Build a shelter and move along.
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Literature
Surface
No one knows your drowning,
The choice between life and death is your own,
You just haven't decided yet.
You look while holding your breath,
But you take no action.
You rather wait and see who comes to your rescue,
To see if there's someone who actually cares.
You close your eyes,
Why would anyone come for someone like me?
You think as air and water exchanges place.
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Literature
Covers
A knock.
On the door?
On the wall?
No?
There it is again!
The window?
Outside is a bird peeking away,
Looking in,
Watching.
For a moment it looks away,
Then back again.
A scream, a thunderous sound escapes from it's beak.
Flapping it's wings it appears bigger than it is.
It's features distort,
Teeth emerge and the feathers turn to claws.
The window ledge magnifies in size...
A cat is now where the bird once was,
Steadily growing in size.
It's eyes meet yours as you feel yourself change too.
Your flesh burns,
Bones collapse and eyesight fades.
Unable to even hear yourself scream.
You wake up,
Look to the window
And close the blinds.
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Literature
Bleach
ever wish to wipe yourself clean,
to regain that state of innocence
that you lost not so long ago.
a purification of some sort,
removal of your misdeeds and ill thoughts,
a sanitation of your soul.
trust is needed for such a ritual.
who should be allowed to do it?
whoever takes up the task
will likely be tainted in the process.
i can't trust most,
and most shouldn't trust me.
it's difficult to place faith myself.
life is meant to be impure,
but to be wicked is to be harmful,
to others and yourself.
so how does one combat such corruption?
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Literature
Cannabis
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Can you understand?
Anyone could,
Not many do.
Now more are changing their thoughts on the matter
And it's becoming legalized in more places.
Beautiful,
Isn't it?
So, how do you feel about it?
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Literature
Pain (Original Song Lyrics)
[Verse 1]
No.
It doesn't hurt,
We do this because it's fun!
[Chorus]
Tearing into my flesh is normal.
Getting beat up is what the cool kids do.
Crying yourself to sleep is healthy.
Three hours of rest is efficiency!
Wanting to die puts you at top of the class!
[Verse 2]
So, what did you do last night?
I slit my wrist, but I did it the wrong way!
Cool, I drank bleach, but threw it up.
We should go beat up the new kid,
Then stay up all night and cry about it!
[Verse 3]
What the fuck is wrong with this town?
Is everyone on drugs?
Something in the water?
This isn't fun,
It's not even sane...
[Chorus]
Tearing into my flesh is normal.
Getting beat up is what the cool kids do.
Crying yourself to sleep is healthy.
Three hours of rest is efficiency!
Wanting to die puts you at top of the class!
[Verse 4]
Uhh,
What do you mean the new kid's dead?
She killed herself...
Apparently she was depressed,
And had a really fucked up past.
Well, shit, I'm gonna go drink some more bleach.
Yeah, let's all go
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Literature
Scars
There's a mark on my neck,
From a time I tried to slit my throat.
I have some on my legs too,
My feet,
Even the strange corners of my body.
Not all of them are self inflicted,
The ones on my back come from lovers,
Those on my face and arms from enemies,
There are even some from my own mother,
But those are harder to see.
I wake up some nights,
Or early mornings in this case,
And I just look,
Put on some healing cream,
And just massage old wounds.
It's these nights I spent alone,
In a naked half silence,
Music can take me away,
Or put me right back where I use to be,
In one of those moments.
Scars are as ugly as they are beautiful.
The pain and fear of the moment are gone,
And the lesson in embedded in your skin.
You're reminded every time you look at yourself,
A reason to not do it again.
But I'm stupid,
And it takes me a few times to learn my lesson.
Maybe one day I'll be a smart girl
And just put down the knife.
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Literature
Third
There's a ghost in my mind,
Something evil and unkind.
It wants to hurt me,
Stab, cut, and mutilate.
I recognize her,
As she has my face,
But she isn't me.
Her expression,
The look in her eyes,
The smile,
And her laugh,
They don't belong to me.
I fear she's insane,
No, I know she is.
She's neither the me I left behind,
Or the me who I am now,
She is her own derangement.
She doesn't care about harming others,
Like the old me,
She rather cause trouble.
I felt her yesterday,
She wanted to reach out and take the wheel,
Drive us off the road,
So I held her back,
Bound my arm to the door as I sat in the passenger seat.
There's a new toxin,
Something terrifying growing in my mind.
Mania is her name,
Psychosis is what she is.
I fear her.
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Literature
Deathless (Original Song Lyrics)
Ever just look at yourself,
Ever just question what if?
I have.
I do it everyday.
And I beg for an ending.
An end to the chaos
The deranged sound of my own heart.
I know he knows
That it can't be done.
My life is my own
I have found a will
A stance that allows me to stand on my own...
I slip and stumble
But rarely do I fully fall.
Everyone knows that I'm strong,
Too strong for my own good.
Rejection is just a word
That tries to get in my way.
Please, leave me alone.
You don't want to know me,
I'll just be a messy night
And you'll forget me.
So, go now.
Run while you still can.
Don't touch me,
Don't say hello,
Don't give me a second glance.
I know he knows
That it can't be done.
My life is my own
I have found a will
A stance that allows me to stand on my own...
I'm not the one you want to fuck with,
I've moved out,
Living without you now.
Careful,
Cynical,
Abusive.
That's me,
The monster that wanted to die.
Strength.
I found it in an unlikely place.
I won't be able to die.
I'll live for
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Literature
Rest
It's three in the morning,
I can't sleep again,
I should probably take my medicine,
However, I enjoy feeling like this.
It's not a good or bad mood,
Just not perfectly healthy.
...now I'm suddenly tired.
I guess I'll go settle down.
Pick out a nice coffin,
To lay my body in.
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Literature
Kill
You know.
I've had these thoughts before.
But maybe,
Just maybe,
The ones who's wrong isn't me,
But everyone?
Ever just fall so far into yourself
That you felt like your eyes melted into your stomach
And dissolved into a kind of mushy soup
That's only meant for people with no teeth?
Yeah?
Me too.
Maybe next time we can do it together,
Hell, we can even call it a date,
And blindly scramble around trying to find a lightswitch
Only to stumble over each other.
What?
You don't like me that way?
Then why the hell am I here?
And why did we take our clothes off?
Oh, you're still dressed?
Well, I'm sorry for being so open with you
This is my life,
This is my body.
Oh, wait,
There's actually no one there,
I'm alone in the house.
I'm here though,
You have me,
You have yourself.
True.
Honestly hard to tell which of us is better.
Is it you, or is it me?
To be fair though, we're both me.
I think I'm better,
At least I haven't fucked anyone up too bad.
No, but you have fucked yourself up
Pretty badly
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Literature
Someone.
Saturday 18/08/18
There's someone here.
He's here.
Besides me.
Makes me coffee.
Smiling.
Laughing.
"Don't worry so much!"
He says.
He pats my head,
as I was his girlfriend.
I'm not his girlfriend.
He's annoying.
He breaks me.
How did he find me?
Why me?
I want him to go away.
I don't want him here.
He won't leave.
He knows I don't want him here.
That's why he's here.
What's the meaning of this?
How can I get rid of him?
He knows.
Everything.
He's been watching me.
How?
I don't know.
I just don't want him here.
He makes me sick.
He makes my heart feel weird.
What is this weird feeling?
My heart feels weird
When you pat my head.
When you give me coffee.
When you smile and laugh.
When you hold me.
I don't like it.
Please leave me,
Like everyone do.
Please don't leave me.  
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Literature
believe again
I took a walk down memory lane
to try and find the life I knew
a journey broken filled with pain
in search of redeeming value
boarded windows empty rooms
the faded paint was peeling
floors un swept abandoned brooms
forgotten promises congealing
crowded out childhood dreams
delusions fueled of innocence
putting away childish things
losing my grip on past tense
learning how to believe again
to breathe and dance and sing
finding the peace to begin
that surpasses all understanding
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Literature
A Not-Strange Way
I breathe the quiet
from these loud minds
respirate, detonate
carbon fiber monoxide - through the expanse;
the span
of Yours
The filter fills
and overflows
You level me;
your Jericho
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Journal
Devious Journal Entry
LOVING
A smile reflected in your eyes.
Ease with beauty, no need, no tries.
Effortless the star that's you.
A glow within that shines so true.
Sparks that fly and fill all space.
You radiate amazing grace.
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So, watching Shameless.  Really glad my mom stopped having kids after me. I wouldn't want me or my brother being responsible for more of us.  Like shit, my brother made me an adult at 14, if I had to take care of younger siblings I don't know... I'd be even more fucked than I actually am?

Just wish things were different, but glad to know I don't have younger siblings to look after too. My brother might of abandoned us if that was the case, even if he wouldn't have, certain a lot of the responsibilities would of fallen on me. Just thinking about it is scary, my brother could barely support me three years ago... and I'm sadly seen as unfit to work. Not sure what's going to happen once I turn 18, right now between depression and anxiety I loose my shit in school. Panic attacks in the bathroom every now and then. Yeah I got meds, but I sometimes run out or forget them. Our pharmacy is pretty bad at their job and fail to have everything we need.  To make things worse I seem to be developing some kind of psychosis, personalities, one of which I'm rather afraid of... 

Part of the reason I'm so adamant on condoms, I don't want to be pregnant, have someone else to take care of; but not sure if I did get pregnant I could actually get an abortion. It's paradoxical, and these thoughts are pretty maddening.  In thirty years I might be one of those crazy ladies walking the street and talking to herself while spending half of her disability on ice cream. Fuck, I hope I don't live past 24.
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  • Reading: you
  • Watching: you
  • Playing: with you
  • Eating: you
  • Drinking: you

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I didn't think I was in the closet, but I don't know... now that I feel done with men and letting myself be gay, I'm actually feeling happy... and I haven't even hooked up yet. Momo Kisaragi (Joy) [V5]    
I may have my fragile moments,
Times when I just curl up and cry.
That doesn't make me weak
Or incapable of protecting myself.
I just live hard.

I might be short,
Lack muscle,
But I can endure more than you.

I might be tall,
Bigger than most girls,
But I can go farther than you.

I might be average,
Dress like a hoe,
But I can suck dick better than you.

So if you want to challenge me,
Be prepared to face all of us,
Not just the me you saw at a glimpse.
We're so much more complex than that.

It's difficult,
It really is,
Too difficult to settle for just being yourself.
Life forces you evolve for a reason,
To change and adapt to what's given to you.

Make it your goal to be a monster,
A person so fierce and determinined
That no one can stop them.
Strength alone isn't enough,
That's just a beast.

Come,
Agitate me.
I dare you.
Oh hey, I made it to 200 watchers.  Heeeyy!~ Joy Love Emote
 

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Thank you for the llama!:happybounce: 
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Hey thanks for the llama, you can have one too. 'w'
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Thank you for the llama! :heart:
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Thank you for the llama! ^-^
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thanks for the llama
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Thank you so much for the llama, Amira! :)
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Llama get! Here's one back!
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Thank you for the Llama badge.
I gave one in return!
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Thank You for the Llama Badge!
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Hey!
Thanks for the Llama!
very appreciated.

Btw. have one in return!
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