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Journal Entry: Fri Apr 10, 2009, 11:06 PM
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Just now I realised how careless I have been to everything I'm doing.
My dA gallery is the best example: My newest deviations are dated to nov2008, then a quick one on jan2009, and 2 on march. Shit.
This is a dead account.

Sure until this moment drawing was not my priority, but now that I decided to drop International Trading (my actual major) and change to some Arts Academy (after I learn chinese and french, OF COURSE), I believe I do need to pay more attention to it.

After some hangovers, I believe this is time to go slower with everything else and dedicate myself to my drawings, plots, etc. As my brother said "If you want to go partying -and etc- like this and then spend the whole day after like zombie, then do it. But forget your 'art' plans."

I believe there is only one third of my watchers who still really watch me, because... Well, I believe the other ones have just gave up. Hehehe... I probably would do the same.
My last journal update was back on March 25... And I said I would be posting my new big painting in thee days. Today's April 11 and I have worked so little on it. It needs more 20 hours to be finished. Damn, what have I done in these 17 days??? Studying chinese? Sure I didn't.

Well, but now I tell you that everything will be different. (Hahahahahhahahaha. Sunday/Saturday's promises.)

Okay, but now, no kidding. I really need to put myself out in order to get my skills better.
If can't finish my last paitning in 2 days, I'll just call it finish anyway and start a new one, or else I'll be forever like this.


And so, finally, sincere thanks to everyone who still watch me or to those who check my gallery eventually... For all the visits, for all the favourites, for all the comments. Sometimes I take too long to answer all you, but I really appreciate immensely all your support. :heart::heart:

And forgive any errors.. I didn't read it after writing. So probably you'll find a lot of them.




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:iconreiowan:
reiowan Featured By Owner Apr 26, 2009
oiiiiii

eu entendo um pouco essa coisa de sentir como se nunca postasse nada!!!! eu quase nao tenho feito desenhos novos para a minha, mas meus planos nao envolvem as artes eu faço mais por hobby...entao nao posso usar como comparaçao!!!!

mas eu to te desejando boa sorte e esperando novos desenhos.
acho que seu irmao ta certo, mas nao completamente...se divertir é normal e necessario... mas com moderaçao.


boa sorte com seu projeto...continuo esperando!!!!
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:iconheylenne:
Heylenne Featured By Owner Jun 8, 2009  Professional General Artist
Hehehehehe... É, é. Eu não sou a pessoa mais dedicada do mundo.

É mesmo, tu não tens postado muitos desenhos ultimamente. Pelo menos não nos últimos dois meses, se não me engano. Assim como eu. -_-
Essa @$#%!& de mandarim tá me dando nos nervos aqui.

Thanks anyway... E também continuo esperando novidades da tua vampire story. =)
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reiowan Featured By Owner Jun 10, 2009
eu ando postando mais por agora, porque eu to fazendo curso e dai todo final de semana tem algo novo para postar. mas não tenho postado muito meus contos e coisas do genero, mas isso irá mudar até julho. \o;


calma...nao mate os chineses, eles que produzem quase tudo no mundo XDDDDD

a vampire story ta mais proxima do seu final. dai a revisao vai ser mais rapidinha de fazer e tudo ficará bom.

beijoss...obrigada pelo seu apoio tambem
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Dhuaine Featured By Owner Apr 14, 2009
At least when you post something, it's always of high quality ^^ I'm always looking forward to your art, unlike people's who submit a ton of photographs each day, all of them macros of some flower. Ugh.

Good luck with your art plans! <3
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Heylenne Featured By Owner Apr 18, 2009  Professional General Artist
Thank you very much, Dhuaine!!! :aww:
I'm really glad to hear it! Thanks a lot for the support. :heart:
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Heguy Featured By Owner Apr 13, 2009  Professional Digital Artist
Don't worry! I'll always be waiting for your updates :) Just take your time and be sure that you're doing what you love the most and makes you happy ^^
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Heylenne Featured By Owner Apr 18, 2009  Professional General Artist
Okay, thank you!!!! :blowkiss:
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Fredendil Featured By Owner Apr 12, 2009  Hobbyist Interface Designer
I could never stop watching you =) I'm also in the same predicament as you are, but mine has been going on for longer. I've pretty much given up drawing/illustrating/painting for almost a year now. Since i got a job, all i do afterwards is watch tv, watch a movie or play videogames... i've gotten really lazy. I think that's the reason i'm buying a brand new computer for myself, so i feel compelled to draw and paint in it... or i dunno... i still consider myself an "artist", and i still put in my hobbies "i love to draw"... it's just a matter of finding time for yourself, which i intend to do and i know u will too =)

So, try not to worry too much. I hope u don't end up like me and letting time go by without doing anything about it tho =)... i know u won't =).

I'll watch ya forever, so no worries there =). Even if all you post are journals (as i do lately, lol). Even the smallest submission is worthy =D so, you got yourself a loyal fan/watcher =D. Take care Ailin, hope u doing ok in Taiwan =D. Bye!
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Heylenne Featured By Owner Apr 18, 2009  Professional General Artist
YEAAAH!!! I understand EXACTLY what you are saying. I have lots of "break times" like this.


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Aaaaaaaww... Thanks soooo much, Fred! :heart::heart:
I'm so glad to hear it!!! :hug:

(And I'm in Shanghai, not Taiwan.)
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Fredendil Featured By Owner Apr 20, 2009  Hobbyist Interface Designer
Cool =). Good to know i'm not alone there =D

hey, you're welcome, and i meant it =D

Shanghai, oops! my bad... i always mix up those Asian countries/cities =S... alright, Shanghai it is, i won't forget this time, lol =D
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zxrdp Featured By Owner Apr 12, 2009
I'm glad to see you around here again! :hug: (I should also try to come here a little more)

I hope your Major change will do just perfectly and that you can improve the most you can from it. (I know some French, maybe we could practice together, yay!)

Watchers, well, I'm still one of them, and I'm pretending to always be one of them. :heart: Even if I don't comment everytime I visit your gallery/profile or fav everything you have done, don't forget you have my support (: (even if it's no big deal, lol)

-Sour stars and sugar dreams. :glomp:
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Raphies-mine Featured By Owner Apr 12, 2009  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
wow, gotta say wasn't expecting that, but I'm overjoyed to hear from you once again!

I understand what you mean..I haven't been focusing on my art and wittle away my free time like it's just always going to be there. However, I am happy to hear that you are taking a new drive and focus toward something you love and are talented at. I cannot wait to see what this new inspiration does for you, and I do wish you luck! It can be frustrating changing priorities like this, but I bet in the long run it'll be worth it.

Keep up your awesome sauciness <3 I haven't given up on you and don't plan to!
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Heylenne Featured By Owner Apr 18, 2009  Professional General Artist
It's not exactly frustating, I'm actually enjoying it. I was just... err... appalled with my own recklessness. Not exactly about dA stuffs. I just used it as an example. Well... "Morning after" thoughts.

Anyway, thank you very much for your support, RAphies! :blowkiss:
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Raphies-mine Featured By Owner May 12, 2009  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
well that's good then o.o ah gotcha...can't say I've never been in that boat before.

anytime :3 I shall always support your awesomeness!
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Ayhe Featured By Owner Apr 11, 2009  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I´m very happy seeing you around again :hug: But don´t force yourself to do artworks if you still don´t feel the muse. Sometimes the artist needs to take a break and have fun, don´t feel guilty:smooch:
I can´t wait to see your new arts, but take it easy ;)
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Heylenne Featured By Owner Apr 13, 2009  Professional General Artist
Yeah, but I think I'm taking tooooo easy. Since I came to Shanghai I did nothing! Nothing! Everything here is being just about bars, clubs, convinience stores and a terrible wasted day after. -_____-
I think it's time to take more seriously this art stuff, since I decided to follow this path. (YEAH! At my 21 years, after dropping 3 different majors and almost killing my parents of heartache, I decided to start everything again, now on the Art's path.)
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Ayhe Featured By Owner Apr 15, 2009  Hobbyist Digital Artist
lol! It´s ok to take your objetive more seriously, and at the same time, I understand your need of having fun. You recently arrived to another country, to a new city and you must be still trying to adapt yourself to a very different culture. :blowkiss:
Well, , I initially studied 2 years in Fine Arts "Prilidiano Pueyrredón" from Buenos Aires and then I made another year in Marketing in the Universidad de Belgrano, before graduating in Graphic Design in Universidad de Palermo :laughing:
My dad is still ¬¬ at me ;)
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Heylenne Featured By Owner Apr 18, 2009  Professional General Artist
HAhahahahahaah!!! Exaclty! Just like me, except for majors choice. :lol:
For me it was one semester in Agronomy, one year in Physics, 2 years in International Trading and now I'm studying chinese and french. Now I decided I definetely want to major in Fine Arts. -_-'
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:iconayhe:
Ayhe Featured By Owner Apr 18, 2009  Hobbyist Digital Artist
:lol: Well, even unfinished, everything you studied is useful. It gave you a valuable experience, so nothing went wasted.
The Fine Art and Marketing experience allowed me to have 2 jobs in two art galleries. I did sell very well, and at the same time I met great artists that helped me a lot.
I wish you the best of luck in Fine Arts :hug:
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QuaterComet Featured By Owner Apr 11, 2009
Moar focus on plots, say you? :excited: Coupled with your resolve, I'm most definitely looking forward to this. :hug:
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Heylenne Featured By Owner Apr 13, 2009  Professional General Artist
Hehehehehe! Yeah, I'll work harder now. ;)

Thanks a lot for the support, dear! :blowkiss:
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Cheng9999 Featured By Owner Apr 11, 2009
Ah, and nice feature! =)
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Cheng9999 Featured By Owner Apr 11, 2009
GO PARTYING!!! SHANGHAI IS A GREAT PLACE FOR THIS, DON'T MISS IT!!!!

Don't think about the hangover, just about the nocturnal fun! o/
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Zephyrhant Featured By Owner Apr 14, 2009
GO PARTYING!!!!!

TEACH ME SOME SPELLS, SORCERESS!!!!!
Vodoo, whatever!!!!!!!

I NEED TO KILL THAT FAT CLUMSY BITCH!!!!

Do you know what is this?! I'll have two less days to do whatever i want! Oh, fuck!!!!
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Zephyrhant Featured By Owner Apr 14, 2009
Since now, i am dead, i can try do something like a ghost.
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:iconheylenne:
Heylenne Featured By Owner Apr 13, 2009  Professional General Artist
Shut up, Cheng. -_-
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JavEA5D Featured By Owner Apr 11, 2009   Digital Artist
I call that ish, the Lazy Bug.. bastard does strike every once ina while.

Just gotta stay up on your grind and keep focused.

Do some bit of artistic relation everyday, be it a sketch or even checking up on the site for some inspiration, ya know? whatever.

But yea, glad to hear you'll be dropping beast-bombs our way now.. gotta get my tablet ready..

::coughs::

Lol.
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Heylenne Featured By Owner Apr 13, 2009  Professional General Artist
*Laughs.*

Your comments kill me. Hahahahahahah...
Yeah, you're right. I was just complaining that I'm too reckless with everything I do, deviantART was just an example. Anyway, I think I shouldn't post it here... Why the hell people will be interested in my paticular thoughts?
Whatever...
Thanks! =D
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JavEA5D Featured By Owner Apr 14, 2009   Digital Artist
Particular thoughts are the most intriguing.

Catches mad eyes like, whoa..

Lol.

Much welcomed.

P.S.- Don't die.

Lol.
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TheeForsakenOne Featured By Owner Apr 11, 2009  Professional General Artist
I'm still around. ^^ Just glad to hear you're okay and still around even if not very much. :nod:
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Heylenne Featured By Owner Apr 13, 2009  Professional General Artist
Yeah, you're my most loyal watcher! :hug:
You were one of the first to watch me, right after I bought my first tablet, and you are still around!
Thank you for the continued support. :heart:
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TheeForsakenOne Featured By Owner Apr 14, 2009  Professional General Artist
It's no problem. :aww:
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Vaelyane Featured By Owner Apr 11, 2009   General Artist
Hee! You featured me! Thank youuu! :hug: :aww: :heart:

Don't worry about the time you take to post things here. ^^' Even though I visit this site everyday, I also take a lot of time to "finish" something. (and my journals are a good example, I can wait for months until I dare to send a new one)
Anyway, the more you wait, the happiest you are when you see there's something new!

You don't have to paint all the time for us to appreciate your work. Just work at your pace! We'll support you all the same!
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Heylenne Featured By Owner Apr 13, 2009  Professional General Artist
You're welcome! :blowkiss:

Yeah, surely you're right. But don't misunderstand me, this is not a attention-whore post. U_U I was just wondering about how reckless I am about everything. And I used dA as the perfect example.
It's not about posting works, but doing them. Everything I do, I post on dA.... So... Yeah, as you can see, I do almost nothing. -_-
And since I have plans to really work with illustration/artistic stuff in future (distant future), I believe I should put more effort on it at this moment. <dead>
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Vaelyane Featured By Owner Apr 13, 2009   General Artist
Eh, you seem to forget that I mostly draw in class and that I'm so lazy that I almost never draw at home. >.>' I think I'm far worse, considering the fact that I would like to work with illustration as well. ^^" (of course, I don't post everything I doodle but... The problem lies here! I doodle a lot of little nothings, then I don't do anything with it, and that's all. x'D Doodles, doodles, doodles. It's about all I can do. xD)
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Heylenne Featured By Owner Apr 13, 2009  Professional General Artist
You know... We're in the same boat, 'cause we two are managing to go to some Art's Academy and we don't even draw at all... I mean, we rarely dedicate ourselves to it, as far as I can see and based on what you just said. u.u
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Vaelyane Featured By Owner Apr 14, 2009   General Artist
Still, we've got some time before getting into it. ^^ And even at my snail pace, I seem to progress a little. So, well, it's no use getting that worried about it. :3
(doodling in class helps a lot, in fact. xD)
Anyway, considering your current painting level, I'm sure everything'll be fine for you. >.<

Parce que, franchement, c'est sublime.
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Gwenwhyfar Featured By Owner Apr 11, 2009   Digital Artist
oh, but i watch a lot of artists who only post some work from time to time...i'm personally not a fan of ppl who post up everything they make: after all, DA is not the same as a blog, right? that and - someone else already mentioned this - you can't do art 24/7, it's all about getting into that focused 'state of mind'.

and honestly, i think all of us have a majority of watchers who never respond to anything you do. doesn't mean they don't check out your work. :D
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Heylenne Featured By Owner Apr 13, 2009  Professional General Artist
Yep. Me too. I detest to watch those people who are always posting some lame 5 minutes sketches. Rrr... It's so annoying to have a msgs box full of these stuffs.

But I believe I'm being too careless about the one thing I love the most and to what I've decided to dedicate my next years. I always think I have no time, but it's all about having priorities and being organized. Two things I lack.

May I call you Guinevere? Gwenwhyfar surely is pretty, but my brain goes nuts everytime I have to spell it. :dead: (Or if you prefer I call you any other way, just let me know.)
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Gwenwhyfar Featured By Owner Apr 16, 2009   Digital Artist
oh, priorities and organization...god knows i lack that too... that and discipline. i'm trying to do one speedpaint a day: up til know it's a real fight to keep myself from procrastinating. :lol:

btw:you can call me Eva if you like, seeing that is my real name after all. and a whole lot shorter than either Gwenwhyfar or Guinevere. :D
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Heylenne Featured By Owner Apr 18, 2009  Professional General Artist
Eva? Okay.
I just LOVE this name.
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Hotica Featured By Owner Apr 11, 2009
Lol isnt this normal? Even artists cant do art all the time, thats totally understandable. =)
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Heylenne Featured By Owner Apr 13, 2009  Professional General Artist
Yeah, but I rarely do something. That's the point. I started thinking about it and I realized the last thing I am prioritizing is art. And it's also the one thing I most love.
So... Yeah, there is something wrong in that.
I'm too disorganized.
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Hotica Featured By Owner Apr 13, 2009
Well youre ok now arent you? =) So I see no reason to fuss about it. =)
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BluDrgn426 Featured By Owner Apr 10, 2009  Professional Digital Artist
we've all been there before, I know I sure have =P . Welcome back and like the coffee we drink on Mondays, you gotta stay strong.
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Heylenne Featured By Owner Apr 13, 2009  Professional General Artist
Strong like coffee. I liked that. *coffee addicted.*

Anyway, thank you. =)
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Lotusmist Featured By Owner Apr 10, 2009
don;t worry about it , we all have lives outside of da lol we can't always be expected to draw crap loads, especially if they want quality. :)
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Heylenne Featured By Owner Apr 10, 2009  Professional General Artist
It's not exatcly about dA.. This account is only an example. I'm too careless about everything... -_-
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Lotusmist Featured By Owner Apr 10, 2009
well It can only get better :)!
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popcorncomics Featured By Owner Apr 10, 2009  Student General Artist
Don't worry :] We look foward to whatever you'll post x3
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