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Current Residence: Mobile, Alabama
Favourite genre of music: American and J-pop
Favourite style of art: anime (Hisashi Hirai mostly)
Operating System: Windows
MP3 player of choice: Musicmatch
Personal Quote: Prepare for the real power sources to take over the world and destroy the fake power sources forever
My opinion about my life; Perfect=me being alive, not perfect=me being in the ground, DEAD.

Favourite Movies
Transformers (1986), Star Wars, Stargate, Gundam Wing: Endless Waltz
Favourite TV Shows
Transformers, G.I. Joe, Jem, MASK, Gundam Seed, Gundam Wing, Gundam 00, Stargate SG-1
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Hard to determine
Favourite Books
Science and mythology
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Mostly Pencil and Paper

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I had enough

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I demand to know why I continue to have the door slammed in my face. I did what I was supposed to. I follow the rules. I went to school. I have my education. I apply to many different jobs and I continue to be rejected. Why? It is because I have both Autism and Cerebral Palsy. I ask for forgiveness for having them and no one wants to forgive me for having them. Everyone around me will continue to hold that against me and continue to discriminate me for it. I promise you. If my luck does not change and I do not get employment, I will become violent and start demanding that people finally hire me. This is not fair. I follow the rules and everyone continues to discriminate against me for these evil disabilities. I am sick of it. People wonder why I hate myself and why. I hate myself because of everything evil about me and I am constantly reminded of it. Good does not exist. It is all bad.
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I will never understand why my work means shit. I put in the work, I followed the rules, I did everything correctly and my work amounts to nothing. I have a bachelor of science in mechanical engineering and an associate degree in CAD and it does not mean anything to the world. I applied to a lot of jobs and continued to be rejected by almost every single one of them. Do you know how much that hurts me? A lot. I have no self-worth. Since I continue to be rejected, I truly believe that the world will do better without me. Having Autism and Cerebral Palsy continue to suck extremely hard. I wish that I never have it. I wish that I never broke the divine rule that made to have these punishments. I feel like I would be better off dead than alive. I mean, I even apologize for having these 2 and no one has yet to forgive me for having them. I do not know what to do.
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If you have Autism and Cerebral Palsy, stay the fuck away from Austal. They will ask you a question that you will not be able to answer and will never be able to describe to the interviewer.
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