Back to our roots.I have finally found the courage to write about you today.
Just a couple of lines for you.
I cannot believe you left our world.
But your heart couldn't take it anymore.
We knew you were leaving long time ago,
but not knowing when would it happen
I am happy you could make it
to day you were 85 years old.
Even a little bit more.
I prayed him for it for the longest time.
I am not sure if you knew it was coming
because you never said a word in front of me
and I rather not knowing.
What makes me suffer is
not being there with you in your last days,
not being able to say I love you
one more time.
But of course you knew.
I always made sure of it.
On our last call,
I knew you were not that strong,
but I choose to believe
nothing strange was happening.
it had happened before
and you always came stronger.
The day after that
FeelingI feel like writing something today.
Let's see... it's been a while.
Yesterday it was the second aniversary of the date that changed it all for me, but just like the first one, it passed and, at the moment, I did not feel bad.
Today, that's another story... I feel regret, which is becoming something usual for me at this time of the year.
Things are complicated again, and I am not in the best mindset, sadness is the feeling that I have with me. But that is something that I will keep for myself, again.
Writing my feelings down, calms it just a little bit. But that is enough. It allows me to see how broken I am inside because of this. It gives me perception.
I feel like my feelings cannot be undertood by anyone, so that is why I am being much more private in general, although people think I am not. But I guess that is part of it, part of our lives. Everyone gets sad at one point or another, right?
Over a year ago.Where do I start?
I think that it changed me completely because I feel that it isn't the same anymore.
I don't feel the same, and that is scary.
Over a year ago everything changed, and I guess I don't like to think about it.
I think I had everything, but then a part of me was taken.
After the third month I just stopped, but
Nothing has changed about how much you are missed.
Some days are meant to be sad.
Third fifteen.It is now three fifteens without you,
and we miss you so much.
Some days are meant to cry.
AlwaysI want you to know that I miss you
you have no idea of how hard it is.
I could not have asked for more
because I had you here
for a really long time
I could hold your hand one last time
I was able to say goodbye
and that is something that I really appreciate and always will
You will always be remembered
you are in our minds
and the memories we have are wonderful
I wish I had more pictures of you in detail
because I want to remember everything about you
Every skin patch
That is why I could not stop looking at you
I wish I was there with you
or you still here with me
I wish I could have seen you
you must be proud
of what you have left here
You deserve peace
You will always be in my heart.