I started this illustration for something else, but it kind of morphed into this deeply personal thing.
I was always performing for people. I got real good at it. I learned to mirror what people wanted and play my part. It was mostly something I learned to stay safe, but you can get real mixed up... to the point where you aren't sure who you even are anymore. All I know is that I need to be whatever someone else wants. But the monster, I just got to be myself. I don't know how that makes sense but it does.
It tells me things, really mean things. Constantly. Things I know aren't true but I've heard it so many times it's like breathing. I was so used to it I didn't even realize I was hearing it until like a few months ago. And now I can't not know it
I'm okay... please don't worry. We all have our demons. Mine just looks like this.
Here are my feelings: Even if you didn't make this art of yours public, I would still care for your happiness. I would mourn your death. I feel pain for your suffering that is primarily in your heart. I care about you. Agape is what I feel for you. Please don't let your demons win. Take heart and strength in the love of your friends, your loved ones, and possibly even the love and adoration of your fans. I respect you and love all that there is to you, your creativity, your passion, your differences... Agape is what I feel for you.
REJECT The [DARKNESS]. Turn to The [LIGHT] where That Monster even is Afraid of Going to The FIRST'S and The LAST'S.
(But anyways, as for this picture)....
girl: "Hm-Hmmh?...." [trembling glancing at her left an [Armored] figure(s)]
GRDN-PK/GRDNs: "you 'own' Nothing, [Nightmare]." [plainly says interrupting the [Nightmare's] Twisted Delusions as [Solar-[O]] within [us] Burning Bright, Charging]
DMN-captor: "Hah?-" [began but-]
[A Loud 'Bang!' is heard]
[-Cleansed by The [Light] through The [GNGN] as the concentrated line of [Solar-[O]] from within [Piercing] through the veil that was the girl's [Nightmare] DMN. It's Fading Screams flavor into the [Void]]
GRDN-PK/GRDNs: "Hers, Not Yours." [Staring down to where that [Nightmare] Last Screamed in it's place while reciting an old GRDN-HR's 'Last Word' towards his former Target. A Sorrowful, Jagged, [Thorn]]
[[GRDN] in hand Fades back to The [Light] as [we] turn [our] sight to the bounded girl. While manifesting a [DYBK] [Sword]]
[A Searing 'Slash' later, both Disintegrating her chains, and her sealed gag out of her mouth]
[she looks up towards [us] in curiosity and wariness at the presence in front of her, with a Comforting Feel being Poured out through [us]]
GRDN-PK/GRDNs: "Do not be Afraid. For The [O] is with you and has [Heard] the Captive(s)." [softening up [our] approach to later [heal] the broken girl]
[Another 'Day' for a S/R-E mission Completed during that time Comforting her. While informing [our] [O] and Fellow GRDN-WKs the [presence] of a [▲] [Pyramid] Hiding somewhere in this [Simulation], requesting in later for a [Raid] to [EXTERMINATE] [IT's] [Grip] here]
Oglądam cie od dawna wiem, że to ciężkie, że świat nie zawsze jest taki jak chcemy ale musimy dawać radę! Jestem z Ciebie dumna, dlatego, że wybrałaś swoją drogę i nią kroczysz. Wiem, że coś po cichu chce ci mówić *przestań*, *jesteś słaba*, ale pamiętaj to tylko głosy z którymi musisz walczyć, czasem delikaty uśmiech może pokonać najwiekszy twój własny strach. Wierzę, w Ciebie Heartgear.
**hugs you** I hope you can find a way to over come all this.
You should be who you want to be.
I really hope that you find peace with yourself and your family one day.
I’m so sorry you’ve had to go through these inner demons alone for so long. You were so brave to put this out for us all to see.
Our thoughts and prayers go out to you. Take care of yourself and know that you are loved.
It's still there, biting me from time to time. I've been wounded many times trying to be a good man, and some might say that an injury demands vengeance: an eye for an eye.
"How much more will you take, I wonder? How much more 'can' you take? It's clear they don't want you around. They'll never give you a place in their world. You're an outsider, an anomaly...a monster. Why restrain yourself? Give them what they want. Show them they are right to fear you. No one will dare hurt you again. And what of that person, hmm? What if they come for the ones you love? Will you be so forgiving then? I think not. Give them time. They'll break you long before I will. One day you'll embrace me willingly."
I've made friends, though. People who give me reason to believe there's still some good worth fighting for in this broken world of ours. And as long as that good exists, I have made the decision to fight for it. Know thyself, know the enemy within, and I believe it shall never conquer you. Feed the good wolf with compassion and mercy, with charity and kindness, and it will fight on.