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So, I've been updating you kinda frequently lately, and to not further bother you, I'll do one last update that will conclude everything I was giving you already, and the reason for something I don't like to do...

First, my inactivity should've been over by now... actually for over a week. Obviously this is not the case. The main reason for all that is, that I built my new computer, and I had to transfer MMD to said new system. First everything worked smoothly, but as soon as it got into the japanese names of the files, things got messed up, or better, I messed things up. I tried to transfer the old MMD folder to my new computer without installing the japanese language pack to Windows, means that all of my file names and the comtained data is written in nice useless gibberish, and therefore mostly useless. I tried to fix the problem by installing the japanese language afterwards but obviously the data was messed up already, so that didn't help. That wouldn't have been a problem if I wasn't dumb again. I already deleted all data from the external drive which contained the correct data. Yes stupid me...

And secondly, I use different file paths on both computers, but unlike other programs, MMD doesn't search for the files, but only opens the already given path. For an example let's use the program Audacity. If you save a project with Audacity, it creates a folder and a project file with all the data. After that, you can freely move the project file and the project folder on your computer. When you open the project file, Audacity looks through your whole system for the necessary data files and folders. MMD is different. When you save something in MMD and move anything that you used into a different location, MMD won't find the data, no matter what. You can say this program is kinda dumb. And, while you can edit the file directories inside the project data, it is faster to just re-create everything myself...

So in conclusion:

- I transferred corrupted MMD data to my new system
- This data is completely useless even with corrected file paths
- I do not have my old MMD folder anymore, so I can't restore the old data with correct language
- I screwed myself pretty hard, since I effectively threw away 17.4 GB of models, shaders, etc...
- Some (and actually most) of the models are not available anymore (that's the worst part of it)
- I lost my texture edits, and all of my image files... At least the MMD bases.

So there are two options right now:

1) I quit, and don't care...
2) I try to restore as much as possible for the next days and weeks and continue, but with just a very few options of models...

Well I don't like the idea of the first option... so I'll go with the second one. But I don't know how long it will take to get everything back together and working.

And with that I can say, that I'm going to live through this little crisis, no matter what.

Have a nice day!
  • Listening to: OST
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I just bought the final parts of my new computer, and at the same time sold my old one to my brother... Since I have a 3-5 days delivery time, I won't have any computing power except my phone. So until (probably) Friday I'm going to be more or less completely inactive. And after that, I'll have to play some games that I missed, because my computer couldn't handle them all too good. This is going to take at least some days and after that, I'm on vacation in Serbia until August 21st. And after THAT, I'll be back normally until September 4th, which is the date of my employment... I don't know what will happen from there on, considering that I might have a lot of time in the best case, or almost no time at all in the worst case. However, since my computer is goig to be WAY more powerful, my work time will be a lot shorter as well. So let's see what happens.
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  • Drinking: Tea
As you may have noticed: I'm pretty inactive. Here I want to talk about a few reasons for that.

There are 4 big reasons:

1) School
2) Zelda and NieR
3) My computer
4) My brain

So let's start with school. Well, I already told you back in January, that in May and June I'm going to write my final exams. As much as I don't care for my school life, that is probably the one and only time I really do care about it. I'm deadly stuck in basically learning all the stuff that we've done in the past 5-6 years in not even 6 months, because I'm a lazy ass, including working on an important school project at the same time. That is pretty much exhausting already so I really need some effective ways to relax at least a bit which leads me to point 2 - Zelda and NieR.

While I always say, that working on pictures is somehow relaxing and makes me feel good, there is also lots of work and a good load of concentration behind them. And I really need better ways to calm down a bit. March was a really big help, since two great games have been released BotW and NieR. Since I'm a 'sworn' 100% gamer and both are quite big open world games, it takes a shitload of time to get to this goal. ^^ But I'm still on it, and it's still going to take a while until I'm through, which leads me to point 3 - My computer

Actually, I'm pretty happy with my computer at the moment, but still, I really notice how it just is not enough for the things I do. 8GB DDR3 is not enough for good modern gaming and multitasking, and even the mighty 1070 is (and I'm saying this VERY carefully here! ^^) "too weak". While my system can handle most of the stuff I want, things like video editing or UHD Gaming is simply not possible without either 20+ minutes of rendering, or like 2 minutes of loading screens. I'm going to be able to set up my new system in August or, if things go bad, in September. Until then I'm simply not able to keep up with my old pace of picture output, since I need a lot more time for each one of them the further I go because my computer simply can't handle picture manipulation programs in multitasking anymore.

And the last thing that stops me from being active is basically myself. I really want to return to dA, but I really lost my motivation due to the situation of the past 3 months. I'm not willing to put myself under unnecessary pressure for a hobby of mine, even though I want to do exactly that. After all putting myself under pressure is a major factor that keeps me going, but I simply can't let this happen atm. So I'm stuck at this point until probably late May, when school is over for the main part.

And that basically concludes everything important for now. Have a nice one!

If you read through all this, here have a cookie! ^^
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Sometimes things just won't go as planned, or as you imagined they would be in the end. Usually I delete them instantly because I don't want to be tempted in any way to go back and finish them... I know how this would end. ^^ But some things have such a good idea in them, that I did not delete them as usual, instead I used them for inspiration or I really want to take a second try on them.

Here are three of these examples:

Scrapped 1 by headstert

This is almost 10 months old and was scrapped because of my lack of post editing skills at that time, but I did not give up on the idea... While the idea was re-used just a short time later in Helping Out by headstert, the base for Gladly by headstert has been created.

Another example would be here: Scrapped 3 by headstert

This was originally supposed to be the cover/title of my 16 Days Story. Well I made a better version of it already within the comic... And a better cover alongside with it.

But I wanted to do something similar in the future already back then, so I kept it until now.

Finally the most recent discontinued picture is this one:
Scrapped 2 by headstert

Here I'm at the same point as I was with my first example. I did not give up completely on this one, I just lack of the necessary skills for it. I definitely would like to come back to this one sometime in the future. I hope I'm going to be able to do it.

All this scrapping is one of the main reasons why I'm working so slow. Because of school, I can not work in a single blow anymore, which is necessary for me to do what I want. I just have to sit 6 hours straight in front of my computer and finish what I began. Otherwise everything I do looks like an uncoordinated, ill-conceived bunch of crap. And since that is rarely possible I began to scrap a lot of things, most of them don't even end up in a single render, or even a finished pose.

Once I'm done with school in May, I'm going to have time for MMD again.

However, since this weekend is off, I'm going to deliver again. I already told you in the last picture that it's going to be Hecatia, and this plan hasn't changed yet, so I hope you're looking forward to it.

See you!

  • Listening to: OST
  • Drinking: Tea
So 2016 is over and 2017 has begun. I wish all of you a happy and successful Year 2017!

For me, well, I'm gonna start this year with as many pictures as I can, because this year is very important for me concerning school, because I'm going to write my final exams in May, and I've done nothing so far ('cause I'm lazy as fuck), so until May I'm gonna be very, VERY busy with school. These holidays are the last days until I'll begin to learn, so I'll try to do as much as possible in this time.

Another thing is, that I'm going to get a new computer in April, with nearly double the power of my current computer, so I can finally get more quality in whatever I do. Concerning MMD this means, that I can use better shaders and effects, which will influence the quality immensely.

But that's enough from me! I hope you have a good start into the New Year, stay positive and of course keep up your good work! :D
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I guess many of you know the Sigils of many Characters in the Grimoire of Marisa. And you may have noticed, that all these sigils are in a pretty low resolution. I've seen some people, who are scaling these up, and I thought it would be a cool idea to work together to scale all the Sigils up, so that they have reasonable quality. I would do it myself, but I certainly don't have the necessary skills and the talent to redo everyone of them. There are some (like Ran's) that are really complex, and I won't be able to do these. So I want to create something like a small 'database' for all the sigils.

If you want to contribute this project, you should create the Sigils in reasonable quality. Of course this is not very specific and can be interpreted as you wish, but I would say that everything above 750x750px is just fine.

You can link me the finished work, and I will post this link to your work in this databank. If you don't want me to post anything you can tell me.

The original Sigil from the Grimoire is linked in the section of the respective character. It is always the first link.

It would be cool, if you would spread the word, so we have a realistic chance of eventually getting all the Sigils together.

The Database so far:





-Cirno Sigil



-Flandre Scarlet Sigil (Upscaled)






Kisume (This should be the most difficult)…

































-Wriggle sigil





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  • Drinking: Tea
I'll never run a bet that I can't win to 100% again... But I keep my word in case I lose so here are the 400 questions. *Sigh* This took so long.

1. Name: Dominic
2. Nickname(s): Domi, Dome, Baka
3. Birthday: 27.10.1998
4. That makes you: 18
5. Where were you born: Germany
6. Location right now: Obviously at home ^^
7. Shoe size: 43 European size
8. How many piercings?: None
9. Tattoos?: Nothing as well
10. When you wake up you're: Motivated enough to go back to sleep again
11. When your about to sleep you're: Way too relaxed
12. Zodiac sign: Scorpio
13. Chinese sign: Tiger
14. Righty or Lefty: ->
15. Innie or Outie: What?
16. School: Gymnasium. Translated into English this would be Academic High School.

Section Two: Looks
17. Nationality: German
18. Hair color: I don't know the exact color but brown should be enough xD
20. Weight: The last time I checked was like 5 years ago. Should be around 60 kilograms though
21. Height: 173 cm
22. Braces? Nah
23. Glasses? Nah

Section Three: Private Life
24. Do you have a boy/girlfriend? Nope
25. If so, who? --
26. If not, do you have a crush on someone? Not at the moment
27. Who has a crush on you? Don't know if there's someone right now.
28. Ever cheated on your bf/gf? NAH!!!
29. Who was your first kiss: My mom like 10 seconds after I was born, HAHA!!! xD Ok it was back in first class of school. Don't even know how that happened anymore. ^^
30. Who was your last kiss: A strangers Labrador ^^
31. Are you a virgin? Actually I don't know O_o
32. Ever had a threesome before? The fuck? NO!
33. Every been swarmed by ladybugs?: Wha-?
34. Have you ever been in love? Of course.
35. Broken any hearts? Not that I remember, but I guess it might happened once
36. Got your heart broken? Not really in that way, but in other ways
37. Ever liked a friend? Yup
38. What happened? Got taken away. xD

Section Four: Past Relationships
39. How many relationships have you been in? 2
40. How many were serious enough to count: Both of them
41. Who were those serious ones: Michelle and Jessica
42. Who used to be your best friend: My best friend still is my best friend
43. What made them different: He's one of the few guys who understand me
44. What happened: --
45. Best boy/girlfriend: Jessica
46. Worst boy/girlfriend: Michelle wasn't bad o.o
47. Ever been kissed: Sure
48. Who do you want back: Jessica
49. Who do you regret: None
50. Why?: Both were super kind and lovely persons

Section Five: Favourites
51. Song: Right at this moment it is Red like Roses by Jeff Williams
52. Movie: Scary Movie 2
53. Food: Zurich Ragout
54. Drink: Tea and mixed beer
55. Store: Amazon and Ebay? ^^
56. Television show: Family Guy
57. Holiday: Summer *-* (But as a single day it would be New Year's Day)
58. Book: Geisterjäger John Sinclair
59. Ice cream: Coffee :3
60. Sweets: Dark Chocolate
61. Crisps: Homemade ones
62. Type of music: Metal, Classic Rock and most important OSTs
63. Artist: Hmm, I guess overall ZUN? ^^
64. Word: Swearwords
65. Time of day: Night
66. Dressing: All black and NEVER long-sleeved
67. Alcoholic drink: BEER
68. Colour(s): Black, silver, red
69. Piece of clothing: Remilia T-Shirt *-*
70. Character: Flandre Scarlet
71. Smell: Mint
72. Shampoo: I don't care?
73. Soap: I don't care again?
74. Smiley: :3 and *-*
75. Board game: Chess I guess
76. Sport: Badminton
77. Number: 13
78. Quote: 'What do I care about seeing your dirty old fanny?' - Son Goku rules! xD
79. Animal: It's so hard to decide for just one but I'll go with the dog
80. Actor: The god of all actors Christopher Lee *-*
82. Vegetable: Tomato
83. Fruit: Don't like any of 'em, but bananas are just fine
84. Place to be: My room
85. Thing in your room: Besides my Computer my Flandre Scarlet figure *-*
86. Gum: Any mint gum
87. Shape: Triangle
88. Country: Hmm NOT Germany... Probably Japan or Norway
89. Mall: Any local one
90. Car: BMW
91. Boy's name: Joel
92. Girl's name: Definitely and so much Remilia
93. Family member: My Brother
94. Restaurant: China restaurant
95. Movie place: My TV at home
96. Person to go to the movies with: My Brother and my Father
97. Noise: Chimes
98. Brand of shoe: Don't care :/
99. Brand of clothing: Don't care either
100. Body part of a chicken: Chicken Breast
101. Swear word: Oh there are way too many but fuck should be the most common one
102. Month: It used to be December bu since it's so warm lately it's January
103. Possession: Computer ^^
104. Team: Don't have one
105. Season: Winer
106. Radio station: Don't use radio
107. Magazine: Eww none
108. Favourite grade: 12 (current)
109. Least favourite grade: 7
110. Teacher: Chemistry and Social Studies Teachers :3
111. Least favourite teacher: English and History Teachers
112. Subject: Chemistry
113. Subject to talk about: Games and politics

Section Six: Family
114. Who's your mum?: Kerstin
115. Who's your dad?: Thomas
116. Any step-parents?: Yes
117. Any brothers?: Fortunately Yes (Daniel)
118. Any Sisters?: Unfortunately No
120. Coolest: Bro
121. Loudest: My mum?
122. Best relative: Bro
123. Worst relative: Mum
124. Do you get along with your parents? Yes with my father, sometimes with my mother
125. With your siblings? Hell Yeah!
126. Does anyone understand you? Umm, rarely my father but that's it ^^
127. Do you have any pets?: We had a dog, but he was ran over by an asshole in 2009
128. If so, what kind and name? Golden Retriever (Benno)
129. If not, what do you want as a pet?: Want to have a dog again so badly (and a snake and geckos)

Section Seven: School
131. Are you still in school? Yes
132. Did you drop out?: No
133. Your current GPA: 10 out of 15
134. Do you buy or bring lunch?: My daily routine involves to go to the bakery
135. ABC's?: What?
136. Favorite class: 12
137. Play any sports at school?: Badminton and Basketball
138. Are you popular? Fortunately not anymore
139. Favourite memory: Our English teacher outing himself as a sexist (He's such a dickhead!)
140. Most humiliating moment: Probably the same situation ^^
141. Most funniest moment: Our Music teacher's stories
142. Most scared moment: None

Section Eight: What do you think of when you hear
145. Chicken: KFC
146. Dog: Aawww too cute (as long as they're big!!!)
147. Christina Aguilera: Used to listen to
148. Ricky Martin: Who that?
149. 50 cent: In da Club
150. Poop: shit
151. Beach: Holidays
152. Desert: Too hot
153. Water: One of my two traumas
154. Osama: Why? Just why?
155. Love: Good thing
156. Your little brother: Have none?
157. Butt: I said what what
158. Clowns: SCARY
159. Wonder: I want it to happen
160. Brown: Not a particular beautiful color
161. Banana: Only fruit I like just a little
162. Sex: What's so bad about it?
163. Parents: Only one's great, the other one's just ok
164. Homosexuals: Germany sucks, because there is still no way that Homosexuals can marry -.-
165. God: The one to blame

Section Nine: Do you believe in
166. God: Before I do that I'll burn in Hell!
167. Heaven: No
168. Devil: Somehow a little bit
169. Hell: Kind of
170: Boogy man: Nah
171. Closet Monsters: NAH
172. Fortune tellings: NAH!!
173. Magic: Actually I do
174. Love at first sight: Of course
175. Ghosts: Yes
176. Voo-doo dolls: Nah
177. Reincarnation: YES!
178. Yourself: Hell yeah I do!

Section Ten: Do you
179. Smoke: My brother and I have sworn to NEVER do that
180. Do drugs: No
181. Drink alcohol: Yes
182. Cuss: Way too often
183. Sing in the shower: No
184. Like school: NO
185. Want to get married: Nah not in Germany otherwise why not?
186. Type with all of your fingers: Yes
187. Think you're attractive: I'm not in the position to decide that.
188. Drink and drive: NO! 189. Snore: My whole family does -.-
190. Sleep walk: I did it once when I was like 3 years old
191. Like watching sunrises and sunsets: Sunrises no, Sunsets YES!

Section Eleven: Have you ever
192. Flashed someone: No
193. Gotten so drunk til you threw up everywhere: No
194. Told that person how you felt: Yes
195. Been arrested: No
196. Gone to jail or juve: No
197. Skateboarded: No
198. Skinny dipped: No
199. Rock climbed: Yes, just recently
200. Killed someone: In games of course
201. Watched porn: Ok I have to tell you something here: When you ask a guy, who is 16 years or older, whether he ever watched porn or not and he says no to that, you can be sure that he lied in 99% of the cases. (Actually what's so bad about it that you have to be shameful? o.o)
202. Gone on a road trip: Yes
203. Went out of the country: Yes
204. Talked back to an adult: Ohh yes! :D
205. Broken a law: Of course
206. Got pulled over: Nah
208: Cried to get out of trouble: Yes ^^
209. Let a friend cry on your shoulder: Yes
210. Kissed a brother's or sister's friend: Nah
211. Kissed a friend's brother or sister: Yes Christopher's sister, but we were both drunk, ok? ^^
212. Dropped something on the floor and let someone eat it anyways: Nah
213. Moon someone: NAH!
214. Shop-lifted: No
215. Worked at McDonald's: No
216. Eaten a dog: No
217. Give money to a homeless person: Yes
218. Glued your hand to yourself: Yes xD
219. Kissed someone of the same sex: My father! HA, got it internet?
220. Had a one night stand: Nah
221. Smoked: NO!
222. Done drugs: Once Weed but that's it
223. Lose a friend because of your ex: Nah
224. Slap someone for being stupid: Yes
225. Had cyber sex: NO!
226. Wish you were the opposite sex: Yes
227. Caught someone doing something: Yes
228. Played a game that removes clothing: Strip Poker xD
229. Cried during a movie: No
230. Cried over someone: Yes
231. Wanted to hook up with a friend: Kind of
232. Hooked up with someone you barely met: Nah
233. Ran away from home: Yes ^^
234. Cheated on a test: That's a bad habit of mine

Section Twelve: Would you
235. Bungee jump: Nah
236. Sky dive: Already did it!
237. Swim with dolphins: Yes
238. Steal a friend's bf or gf: NEVER
239. Try to be the opposite sex: No
240. Lie to the police: No
241. Run from the police: No
242. Lie to your parents: Yes
243. Backstab a friend for your own well being: No
244. Be an exotic dancer: NAH
245. Kill the president: Why should I do?

Section Thirteen: Are you
246. Shy: Yes
247. Loud: Sometimes
248. Nice: In a phlegmatic way
249: Outgoing: Give me Beer and I am
250: Quiet: Yes
251. Mean: I can be a sadist but I try my best not to be ^^
252. Emotional: Only with people I trust and I'm very close with
253. Sensitive: Same as Emotional
254. Gay: Nah
255. Strong: Nope
256. Weak: Not either
257. Caring: Yes
258. Dangerous: Can be
259. Crazy: Uhh Yes?
260. Spontaneous: NO
261. Funny: Nah
262. Sweet: Can be
263. Sharing: Yes
264. Responsible: Yes
265. Trustworthy: Yes
266. Open-minded: Yes
267. Creative: Nah
268. Cute: I hope not, it wouldn't fit into my personality
269. Slick: Kinda
270. Smart: Only if I really want to
271. Dumb: Kinda
272. Evil: YES
273. Ghetto: Occasionally and only when the athmosphere is right
274. Classy: Nah
275. Photogenic: NAH
276. Dependable: Yes
277. Greedy: Not really
278. Ugly: I hope not ^^
279. Messy: Yes
280. Neat: More of a perfectionist
281. Perverted: Sometimes
282. Silly: Yes
283. A B****: More of a douche XD
284. A Good Listener: Yes
285. A Fighter: Yes
286. A Party Animal: NO
287. A Game Freak: Kinda
288. A Computer Freak: Yes

Section Fourteen: Future
289. Dream job: Either Pilot of working with the police
290. Dream house: Not too big, and very simple
291. Husband/Wife: It was Jessica
292. Kids: 1 Daughter and not more
293. Names: Remilia, and Joel ? Other than that Rin and Ruby would be cool names
294. Pets: Dogs, Reptiles
295. Car: BMW 120
296. Age you would want to get married: Ask me something else
297. Best Man/Bride's Maid: Next one
298. Honeymoon: Oh God please...

Section Fifteen: Your friends
299. Best friend: Marco (The reason for all of this!)
300. Known the longest: Marco
301. Craziest: Marco ^^
302. Loudest: Marco xD
303. Shyest: Christopher
304. Best hair: Jelena
305. Best eyes: Jelena
306. Best body: Jelena
307. Most Athletic: Tom
308. Hot-Tempered: Marco
309. Most impatient: Tom
310. Shortest: Izabel
311. Tallest: Christopher
312. Skinniest: Actually none of em is skinny at all
313. Best singer: Jelena
314. Funniest: Marco
315. Can always make you laugh: Marco
316. Wish you talked to more: Jelena
317. Wish you saw more: Tom and Jelena
318. Who drives you insane after a while: Marco? xD
319. Who you can stay around forever and never get sick of: Christopher and Jelena
320. Ever lose a friend because you took it to the 'next level': Nah
321. Whose always been there when you need them: Marco, Jelena, Christopher
322. Who is like your family: Same three
323. How many friends do you have?: Real friends none besides these 5
324. How many are really close? Marco, Jelena and Christopher

Section Sixteen: The last
325. Thing you ate: Fries
326. Thing you drank: Beer
327. Thing you wore: As always all black
328. Thing you did: Watching RWBY Volume 4 *-*
329. Place you went: My Brother's
330. Thing you got pierced or tattooed: Nothing
331. Person you saw: My mum
332. Person you hugged: My mum
333. Person you kissed: My mum
334. Person you beat to a juicy pulp: I'm not violent
335. Person you talked to online: Jelena
336. Person you talked to on the phone: My brother
337. Song you heard: This Will Be The Day
338. Show you saw: RWBY Volume 4
339. Time you fought with your parents: Today (Thanks mum! :))
340. Time you fought with a friend: Long time ago
341. Words you said: Ja, is ok!

Section Seventeen: Now
343. What are you eating: Nothing
344. What are you drinking: Tea
345. What are you thinking: Thinking about what I do next
346. What are you wearing: Still all black xD
347. What are you doing: Writing this, celebrating my freedom, ...
349. Hair: Umm, nothing special, I guess?
350. Mood: Calm
351. Listening to: Mirror Mirror
352. Talking to anyone: At best myself xD
353. Watching anything: Nah

Section Eighteen: Yes or No
354. Are you a vegetarian: No
355. Are you a carnivore: Kinda
356. Are you heterosexual: Yes
357. Do you like penguins: Yeah why not?
358. Do you write poetry: Nah
359. Do you see stupid people: Yes
360. You + Me: No Marco go fuck yourself... Literally! xD
361. Do you like the Osbournes: SHAROOOON! xD
362. Can you see flying pigs: I said I don't do drugs o.o
363. Do you sleep with stuffed animals on your bed: Nah (Actually I have a Pedo Bear plushie xD)
364. Are you from Afghanistan: No
365. Is Christina Aguilera ugly: Haven't seen anything from her in like 10 years?
366. Are you a zombie: Who knows?
367. Am i annoying you: You annoy me all the time! ^^
368. Do you bite your nails: Yes -.-
369. Can you cross your eyes: Yes
370. Do you make your bed in the morning: No
371. Have you touched someone's private part: Not that I can remember

Section Nineteen: This or That
372. Winter or Summer: Winter
373. Spring or Autumn: Autumn
374. Shakira or Britney: Shakira
375. MTV or VH1: Eww none
376. Black or White: Black
377. Yellow or Pink: Yellow
378. Football or Basketball: Basketball
379. Mobile Phone or Pager: Phone
380. Pen or Pencil: Pen
381. Cold or Hot: Cold
382. Tattoos or Piercings: Tattoos
383. Inside or Outside: Inside
384. Weed or Alcohol: Oh that's very tough, but I think if weed would be legal, I'd go with it
385. Coke or Pepsi: Coke
386. Tape or Glue: Glue
387. McDonald's or In-n-Out: McDonalds

Section Twenty: Opinions
388. What do you think about classical music: Best thing to go to sleep
389. About boy bands: Does it make a difference?
390. About suicide: Life's a gift don't waste it like that!
391. About people who try to force their opinions on you: Screw these people!
392. About teen pregnancy: If they need it so desperately...
393. Where do you think you'll be in 10 years: Flat sharing with Marco and Jelena
394. Who do you think you'll still be friends with in 5 years: Marco, Jelena, Christopher
395. About gay men: As long as I'm not the target, I have nothing against it

Section Twenty-One:
396. Do you have a website: Nah
397. Current weather right now: Raining, 10°C
398. Current time: 19:58
399. Any shout outs: Marco, since I know you're reading this: You're a stupid dickhead and I love you for that xD
400. Last thoughts: DONE! :3
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  • Drinking: Tea
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2. Each person has to share 13 things about themselves
3. Answer 13 questions asked to you, and invent 13 questions for tagged people to answer
4. Choose 13 people
5. You legitimately have to tag 13 people
6. You CAN'T say you don't do tags
7. Tag-backs ARE ALLOWED
8. YOU MUST DO THE JOURNAL ENTRY! NO COMMENTS! Unless you're talking ABOUT the Journal Entry.
9. You have to finish within a week. If you don't finish in time, you have to do whatever le creator asks.
10. Be creative with the title. You can't mention you got tagged in the title, but can in the Journal/Journal description

13 Facts... wait again?

1. I prefer having just 2 real friends, instead of 10 that I don't know.
2. Lately I'm often called cold hearted and emotionless... Even though it's not 100% true... Maybe like 99%!
3. I don't need much sleep.
4. I hate school.
5. Black my holy color.
6. I'm only 1.72 meters small.
7. I swear a lot!
8. I believe in Reincarnation.
9. I'm an Atheist.
10. I HATE prejudices.
11. I LOVE silly music.
12. I can be really annoying.
13. I don't like my name.

That questions I have to answer:

1. Your senpai?

Don't have one! :D

2. Do you like Scary Things?

I AM scary... sometimes... But yes I like them!

3. Your Waifu?

Sakuya <3

What reminds you the "Yürüyen Uçak"?

What's that?

5. Do you have a talent?

I can throw knifes very precisely.

6. I wanna hear about "Diabolik Lovers" ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

Sometimes I'm proud that I don't know everything... What's that?

7. Your favorite song?

I can't tell you just one... I have different categories:

Best Lyrics:
Best Instrumental:

Best Japanese:

Best Vocal:

That was long O.O

8. Do you know a Turkish word?

My swearing skills in almost every known language allowed me to learn
amına koyayım :D Actually it's quite a popular thing in Germany to swear in Turkish, Serbian and Number one swearing language Russian. xD

9. Do you like Utaites?

I'm not into it, sorry.

10. I think you're a kind and nice person and I mean it! :3

11. Do you like Math?

Back in Elementary School I was always the best Math Genius in my class... But I absolutely HATE Math... everything exept + - * / ^ and () is just useless.

12. Your favorite Anime Character?

Noob and Colonel 100 from Battlefield Friends xD (I'll just consider it as an anime ^^)

13. Tell me a short story! <- NO QUESTION MARK!! = No question! :p

I'm not good at telling stories!

My questions:

1. Do you have nicknames?
2. Cats or Dogs?
3. Have you ever wished to be the opposite gender?
4. Basement Dweller or Nature Lover?
5. Any pets at home?
6. What's your worst fear?
7. What do you think about me?
8. Did you learn some basic skills very late (like talking, swimming, cooking, ...)?
9. Are you interested in politics?
10. Introverted or extroverted?
11. Which game has your most playtime?
12. Any brothers/sisters?
13. Are you hunted by Mosquitos?

I tag: *sigh* I don't want to be forced to anything... so I don't force anybody to do it, BUT there have to be three poor sould that I'mma ask politely to do it:

LostRey xHourai (Backfire is a good thing!) Pokie-Punk

I'm so sorry, but you're the ones I know the best and dare to ask. ^^
  • Listening to: Rammstein
  • Drinking: Tea
Cool, you know what happened about an hour ago? No? Good, I'm going to tell you in a second.

First of all: Look at this: Screenshot (36) by headstert

You see this nasty error 'Out of video memory'?

I hope you guessed it by now... What happened is, my good GTX 970 died... You know It's not very nice when you get a blackscreen from out of nowhere, and after a restart the BIOS tells you that you have no Graphic Card. And I was like 'Oh please no, this is not true...' But it was true...

So I got my Backup GTX 745 from my old Computer and when MMD worked smoothly I was like 'Oh yes man, it works! Everything's just fine, just less FPS...' and well, when I tested whether there is any difference in the render speed... *Sigh* Just look again at this BEAUTIFUL error.

In a nutshell: My backup card is too weak to handle MMD, and I'm really mad because of it, because I can't render MMD pictures that have like two effects, until I have a new Graphic Card, which I will be able to get to my Birthday in October.

I'll try my best to work at least a bit with MMD, since the program itself works just fine. Maybe I'll be able to get at least one or two Renders out of it.

So, until next time...
  • Listening to: Rammstein
  • Drinking: Tea
Ah well, I wanted to wait a week with that but hey, doesn't matter, I'm bored anyways.

Thank :iconlostrey: for that!

If you ever comment, I will be forced to:

1. Tell you something I learned about you by looking at your dA page.
2. Tell you a color you remind me of.
3. Tell you what element I believe you belong to (e.g. water, fire, air, etc.).
4. Tell you which one of your OC's is my favourite.
5. Ask you a question, and you must answer.
6. Tell you something I like about you or your art.
7. Give you a nickname.
8. Tell you what am I doing right now.
9. Tell you what food/flavour/smell you remind me of.
10. Tell you to do this in your journal too, if you haven't already.
  • Listening to: Rammstein
  • Drinking: Tea
Ok there are some things I quickly want to tell you:

First thing is that the summer holidays have finally started that means I have a lot of spare time to work with MMD.

First thing is that the Smash Bros Version 2 is almost finished, I just have to re-do very few things because I'm perfectionistic with facials, so I think I can upload it tonight or early tomorrow. Also I still need some suggestions for replacements. To be precise I need characters to replace Momiji, Mokou, Nue and Cirno.

Third thing is that I began to work with N2+C Shader and Normal Maps which is probably the most awesome thing you can do with MMD because it makes models looks very awesome and in the first moments you wouldn't think this is MMD anymore... The problem with it is that you have to edit the models and it takes really long to find some good Normal Maps for each model. It's kinda like trial and error with those Normal Maps and I have over 300 different ones, but it's worth the effort.
The thing with the N2+C Shader is, that I want to another SB4 Title with the in my opinion best characters with N2+C, but it will take a long, LONG time for me to get used to this shader. To get a little practise with it I'm going to do some normal renders like I did with Pmot some months ago.

That's it for now!
  • Listening to: Rammstein
  • Drinking: Tea
Do you remember this?
  MMD Touhou Smash Bros 4 Title Ver.1 by headstert
When I did this December last year I noticed two really bad things: First VERY important characters are missing (to be exact: Reimu [Replacing Aya], Sakuya [Replacing Shikieiki], Patchy and Koa [Obvious], Reisen [Replacing Marisa], Orin [Obvious], Yukari [Replacing Yuyuko], Mystia [Replacing Suwako] and finally Tenshi [Replacing Nue or Youmu]) and secondly some poses still aren't how I wanted them to be.

I mentioned in the description that I will do another version with other, important, characters, and guess what I'm going to begin this weekend!

AND PLEASE: As you can see I couldn't replace all the characters. That's because I have absolutely NO IDEA how to replace all the others. If you have any suggestions how to replace the others EXCEPT for Flan and Remi, please tell me. There is a list of character models that I can use without any problems which you can find here: mikumikudance-official-models.…

If you have an idea for any replacement with a character on this list, please tell me your ideas. Of course you can suggest any character, but I can't guarantee that I'm able to find an MMD model for it, that looks actually good. And if you have better replacements than the ones I listed above, you can also suggest them. I'd be glad when many people would be part of this project :D

Other than the original version, I won't try copying every single pose from the original picture and of course I won't use the copied pose data from version one. Also I'll try to use NCHL2 Shader instead of pmot, but I can't guarantee that it'll work as I want.

I hope you'll like it and of course I hope you participate :3
  • Listening to: Some OST
  • Playing: EoSD
  • Drinking: Tea
At the moment I am in a small dilemma with my mind... You maybe know that I have sometimes Days where I just can't stop sitting on my computer messing around with MMD. The results are mostly not very satisfying to me. I thought about that a lot in the last week, and came to only one possible conclusion how to increase the quality of every picture I create: To get focused on certain Characters. When I look at things like this The float of Time by headstert or this Helping Out by headstert or this Nuclear Fusion by headstert or this Unbreakable Friend by headstert I really know where my strenghs are. I am really dependent on certain models, to be exact most Arlvit models, Kanami's Utsuho, Suke's Flandre, Nigamon's Koishi and C-Mell/flick's Remilia, in terms to get a good quality out of my work. The problem I have is, that I want to be as diversed as possible, but at the same time I want to give the highest possible quality, which is not really possible with models that I don't know very well on one side, and on the other side that won't fit in dark sceneries for what reason ever. I think it would be sad if I would focus on such a small amount of models, but I would be happy with the things I do. Some may think that I could just stop working on something I don't like and start something else, but for me THIS is the worst case possible, because if I'd just throw away hours of work because I'm not happy with what I've done, I would have to realize that I just wasted this time and effort for basically nothing, and I can't stand wasting just a second. Except for the project I was working on until now, which is definitely the most satisfying picture I've done so far, I have some ideas of what I could do... and every single one of these ideas has something to do with the characters named above. I had this Sakuya-time just a few weeks ago and I was happy with everything I've done back then, but it just didn't feel right to do the same things again and again.

I really don't know which path I should follow, because both paths would make me happy and unhappy at the same time... *Sigh* First-World-Problems sure are annoying... -.-
  • Listening to: Some OST
  • Playing: EoSD
  • Drinking: Tea
Well, I can tell that I'll be back 'full time' VERY soon. Probably in 2-3 days... I really don't know what to say right now... So, until then have nice days.
  • Listening to: Some OST
  • Drinking: Tea
I want to tell you two things beforehand:

1.) This will be a long text to read
2.) This is very serious so don't think it will be funny to read. But I'll try to bring as much humor into it as possible.

With this said, I wish you all a happy (and late) Easter! I hope you all had nice days.

But enough of that. Let's talk about the serious stuff...

As you may noticed, I uploaded MMD stuff almost daily until March, 20th. and then stopped very suddenly. I can tell you already now, that I will stay inactive for the next 1-3 weeks. The reason for this can be described in exactly two words: My girlfriend, or better my closest friend Jessica.

Short backstory:

Jess and I are very close friends and we've known each other since the beginning of our school (so for now more than 11 years). We literally sticked together in these years and in school we took responsibility for each other, for example, if one got sick, the other one was the first one, who knew about it and told the school.

However, now almost three weeks ago, Jess literally disappeared from my and everyone else's life, without leaving any messages or something else. On the first day, I thought she just forgot to tell me something, but she didn't tell me anything the whole day. This situation continued for almost two weeks. Nobody have heard anything about her, except for her parents, but they didn't want to tell me anything, although they knew, how close we are. (Well, if I knew at that point what exactly happened, I would've understood them, since we really can't stand each other ^^) Jess also haven't answered her phone when I called her multiple times.

I tried to keep myself calm and distract me from my worries. Therefore I began to write more comments than usual and I spent a lot of time, working with MMD. Well, it worked perfectly and I managed to forget all of my worries. This went on until March, 21st when Jess finally called me back. She just told me that she is on her way to me. Before I could answer, she ended the call. Several minutes later, she arrived completely exhausted.

When she came in, she told me everything that happened in the past days and weeks. Almost three weeks ago, Jess collapsed on the Street. Later an ambulance took her into the hospital, where she stayed for two days. The hospital informed her parents, but not me.

However, one day later, a specialist searched for the reason of her collaps. It didn't took a long time for him to diagnose almost terminal pancreas cancer. Therefore it was clear that it was impossible to remove the tumor without damaging her so much that she wasn't able to live anymore. Instead they started an intense medication to extend her lifespan as long as possible. This medication continued until March, 20th, when she decided to leave the hospital. When she eventually left one day later, she received medicine for another week, in case she took it daily and a lot of painkillers. He also told her, that if she wouldn't continue the medication, she wouldn't last longer than 2-4 weeks. With this in mind, she left the hospital. When she arrived one day later on March, 21st, Jess told me what happened and she then told me that she won't take any medicine anymore beside the painkillers. I tried to convince her to go back, but she is stubborn as hell... So, her decision was clear and I knew that I'm going to lose my closest friend very soon.

She stopped the medication, now a bit more than a week ago and since then, she lived together with me. Yesterday, she asked me to inform our school and she also wanted me to ask for permission to be freed of school until the day, we don't want to think about. I wrote that e-mail to my headmaster and informed him about the situation. Surprisingly he allowed me to leave school whenever Jess calls me, and if I call them in the morning I am allowed to stay at home completely. The same thing counts for every other student she wants to have around her. We are happy that our headmaster is so kind. This way she can spend her last days or weeks together with the ones she wants to spend them with. I think, this is more than just kindness.

So basically this is the reason why I was inactive and why I will be inactive the next days or weeks. I think you can understand this. I just try to be a good friend here.

Also I want to say, that every single activity in the past week, may it be the faved before watched upload, some comments I've written or favorites I've given... Every single one of them just helped me to get along with the situation. And when Jess is asleep, I don't have anything else to do, so please, just because I tried to be funny or played happy, consider that I just tried to feel a bit more alive. This whole thing will change once the day, we don't want to think about, comes, when I can try to go back to my normal life...

Jessica read this whole Journal and she agreed, that I can upload it in this form.

So for everyone of you: Have a nice day, and please don't think that I'll close this account or that I'll stay inactive forever. We/I just need some time. Once this is over, I probably need distraction anyways, so then I'll be back :) I also won't stop commenting and faving so expect that I'll react to everything that I notice ^^ If you have questions, feel free to ask them, but you might not get an answer, if it is something, that you shouldn't know.
  • Listening to: Some OST
  • Drinking: Tea

I got tagged by: :iconpokie-punk:

And because I'm so goddamn creative with RULES, I'll just copy the ones I have to follow ^^

1. Choose 13 people!
2. Tag-backs are allowed
3. You have to post All the Rules!
4. You Can’t say you don’t do tags!
5. You have to legitimately tag 13 people!
6. Be creative with the title.No titles like: “I got tagged”!
7. Each person has to share 13 things about themselves!
8. You must make a journal entry!No comments!Unless you’re talking about the entry!
9. Answer 13 questions asked to you and invent 13 questions the people you tag will have to answer!
10. You have to finish within a week.If you don’t finish in time, you have to do what-ever the creator tells you!
11. EXTRA RULE: Of course: Be honest - No troll answers!

Something about me? 13 facts, here we go!

1.) This is the first time I got tagged
2.) I am the only one in my class, who has a job
3.) I NEVER got sick in the last 4 years
4.) Most of the time, I do not show any emotions
6.) I made a pact with my brother, to never smoke
7.) I have quite long hair
8.) I hate reading books in school, but love reading in private
9.) I am mostly called "baka" even by my teachers (I'm wondering, why I chose to tell it as 9th)
10.) I love most of the animals, that others hate (Snakes, spiders,...)
11.) The night is my day
12.) I am normally shy and restrained
13.) <- is my lucky number

Questions I have to answer!

1.) Do you like to take a walk sometimes
Definitely not, but I like to go by bike everywhere.

2.) Do you have goodies? 8D
At the moment I really don't have any.

3.) What's your favorite movie of all time?
1. Lord of the Rings and 2. Scary Movie 2

4.) Do you like video games ? If so, which are your faves ?
It depends. I'm a huge fan of the Smash Bros series, The Legend of Zelda, GTA and Battlefield, as well as F.E.A.R. and TimeSplitters

5.) What's your favorite color ?
Black, Black, Black!

6.) Do you like my gallery ? 8D
Otherwise I wouldn't watch you ^^

7.) Any pet(s) at home ?
Not anymore. My Golden Retriever died in 2009. But I want to get some Geckos

8.)What's your style of clothes ?
Most likely one of my many Touhou T-shirts... I really have no pullovers. The rest is in general black.

9.) What are your musical tastes ?
OSTs (Especially reorchestrated ones :3), (Classic)-Rock and Metal

10.) Do you like me ? 8D
I don't know you in real life, but you seem to be a very nice person. So, yes, I like you.

11.) Do exams make you stressed ?
It's more the exact opposite: They make me sleepy and relaxed.

12.) Do you have a crush on someone ?
I do, and she knows it <3

13. Have you took pleasure to answer to those questions ? :3
I love answering questions, so, yes, I had a lot of fun with it :3

My questions:

1.) What's your favorite activity in your spare time?
2.) What's your favorite country to go on vacation?
3.) Do you have any lucky charms?
4.) How would you discribe yourself in THREE words?
5.) Your favorite animal?
6.) Your worst fear?
7.) What kind of humor do you like the most?
8.) Would you travel back in time to compensate a mistake, or would you prevent a mistake you will make in the future?
9.) Your favorite food?
10.) What's most important to you?
11.) Your favorite character in games/movies/books/...?
12.) Do you watch TV? If yes, what?
13.) Do you like answering questions?

I tag the following people (even though they aren't 13...)

:icongingerrattennaxd: :iconlostrey: :iconsuwako-sensei: :iconbouteilledeau1: :iconeilakasai: And as a little "payback" :iconpokie-punk:

Have Fun :3

  • Listening to: Some OST
  • Drinking: Tea
Just a short status report!

Tomorrow is the last day of our Berlin trip. I've taken a lot of pictures and of course I'm going to share them.

Even though I was many times in Berlin before, it was never something special to me, but now that I know the German history (especially about the GDR) it was an amazing trip. It's terrifying what the GDR did with the refugees and I'm very glad that my mother survived this time.

And I've learned something very important: It is a good thing if you are proud of your own nation, even if you can't really identify yourself with it. It's a good thing to know the dark sides of your own history and to forgive the mistakes of the past. And it's a good thing to say "I am proud to live in this country!" And so I do!

I am proud to be a German!

Something has changed in a very postive way, but I don't know what. And when I'm back, I'll be some kind of different, more... Self-conscious about where I have to classify myself in the German society.

I'm looking forward to be back home :)
  • Listening to: Some OST
  • Drinking: Tea
I won't be at home the whole next week, because I'm on a school trip to Berlin, our wonderful capital city. In general, we're going to meet some of our reputies in the Bundestag (There is really no English word for it :o) and we're going to visit the museum of German history etc. I'll be back on Saturday so until then, I won't be active that much. Maybe I'll be able to answer some comments or whatever. Especially in the evening I'll be more or less active. So, until Saturday!
  • Listening to: Some OST
  • Reading: Some mangas
  • Drinking: Tea
I don't know if it's good or bad news, but I'm participating in an experiment where I'm not allowed to sleep for at least four days. There are some rules I have to follow, like I'll have to do sports 1 hour every day and I'll have to do a concentration test every day, so basically everything, that is getting me exhausted in some way, physically and mentally. The experiment will start tomorrow at 10 AM and, well, I'm a bit excited, because I never stayed up that long (Around 80 hours was the maximum until now...). However I'm looking forward to test out what my body will allow me to do when I get absolutely no sleep...

Would you do that kind of experiment or do you prefer your daily sleep? After all sleep deprivation is a common torture. Tell me!


Day 1; 27 hours awake| I'm back from my everyday program (concentration test and sport) well after almost 28 hours I feel quite normal and I'm not tired at all. My concentration is surprisingly at 87% max compared to yesterday. Even doing some sport is still quite easy. Battlefield really helps to save energy. I think I'll be able to stay awake until tuesday.

Day 2; 55 hours awake| I distracted myself to stay awake more easy. Playing online games is now nearly impossible, since my reactions are very slow. The past 24 hours were an up and down. I had trouble to stay awake at sunrise. During the day and the night I feel very good though. Doing sport is still quite easy as well, but I really sucked at the concentration test with 42% of the baseline. At the moment I don't feel very tired, but I feel like I'm freezing. Ironically after drinking some cold energy drinks I'm getting a warm feeling again. Don't know if it's just psyche or whatever. I'm still optimistic, that I will stay awake until tuesday.

Day 3; 77 hours awake| I'm close to beat my old record in staying awake with around 80 hours. Staying awake got very hard now and minutes feel like hours. The concentration test? 36% of the baseline. Doing sport got also pretty hard because my stamina is almost 0. I begin to understand why this is used as torture... BUT I'm still optimistic (although my bed is so mean to me... every past second it looks more comfortable... -.-)

Day 4; 101 hours awake| I never thought that sleep deprivation could have such bad aftereffects... I even hallucinated a little. It's just pure horror at the moment and doing sport is nearly impossible. It's even hard to smile to the fact that I succeeded with this experiment. Well... it's now more than 100 hours since I woke up the last time, or 110 hours since I went to bed last time... And that is exactly what I'm going to do now... I finally end this experiment, because I definitely won't be able to go through another day.


So I'm awake again after 5 hours. I'm still tired as hell, but I don't want to break my usual sleep rhythm. But I'm feeling ways better than before.

This experiment was just fun for me in the beginning. I took it easy and thought it won't be that hard to stay awake for a least 4 days. I was horribly wrong. I knew the feeling of staying awake for around 80 hours from before, and it wasn't nearly as hard as this was, because of all the concentration tests and sports I had to do. Especially the concentration tests were extremely exhausting. Imagine you have to look through goggles and focus a small fast moving dot, while you're barely able to even keep your eyes open. This goes for 10 minutes. Depending on how long you're able to focus it, you get a 'score'. The longer you focus it the better of course. And even simple things like stacking chumps in a certain amount of time was a part of it and even this was so hard in the end.

Also very interesting was my sudden drop from day 2 to day 3 after I was almost in the same condition after the first 24 hours. I haven't expected that.

Concluding I want to say, that it is really challenging to stay awake for too long and now I really do know the torture behind it. It has to be even worse if it's not performed voluntarily. Also I really overestimated myself and I now know where my personal boundaries of possibilities are. I wish everybody would try this for himself/herself to see how it is to fight against himself/herself.
  • Listening to: Some OST
  • Reading: Some mangas
  • Drinking: Tea
Well, for the year 2016 I'll take down every of my 16:10 uploads, except for those, that are in groups. I need to clean up a little. I guess it's ok since they're all more than 2 months old ^^

EDIT: I reached 8000 Deviation views in 2015! Thank you so much :3

Also, I wish everyone a happy new year 2016! Have a nice evening and a good start in the new year!
  • Listening to: Some OST
  • Reading: Some mangas
  • Drinking: Tea