It is possible that I have autism.I live in an imaginary world, where I am in the male sex (usually a man-like unicorn or a unicorn machine), I'm not able to talk to other people.I do not know how to say this autism because I live in a village far from the world (and this in Poland).my mother has attacks of aggression and I do not have intimacy in the age of sixteen.I was beaten and even ticked "fearful” because of mother.I am swaying on bed with telephone imagine yourself in the world of a cartoon as this old (40+, 45, 45+ perhaps) male unicorn.
this is my world in my imagination.
where I am an old male unicorn.
I can not live differently
he lives only in imaginary worlds
but I can never have autism diagnosed
mother will never allow it
I'm very addicted to her
so she lives with her in the countryside, where I have no access to anything.
but maybe despite the lack of independence
I will be able to fulfill a big dream
maybe it's a mental illness.I attach incredible importance to the imagination (my imaginary character who is me).I do not have friends, I can not talk, I avoid eye contact. I'm buying hopeless stuff from sachets that I do not play with.
my mother will not let me check if I have autism.
She will never let me check it out.
it can be aggressive and he tells me to undress (for bathing).
but it is not always like that.I do not always hit me for the slightest things like not saying good morning.I'm sixteen, but I can not wash my head naked in the tub.but I got used to it. I live far away from the world, in a small village. (FROM POLAND!).I do not have access to the world.It was a miracle that once in the city I could come alone without them the street.I felt mega-free and even bought a senseless bad cookie because I wanted to do something myself.Attaches great importance to my imagination and me in it.when other teenagers go to parties with alcohol or look for a boyfriend on the internet, I’m Sways on the bed with music and more.I'm too worried about the stuff with the fanfare I'm reading, as if it hit me hard (in my imagination I wrote an older unicorn guy).
maybe I have a mental illness?
Perhaps it is through my overprotective and forbidding mother?
I'm sixteen years old.
It can surely also be male demon unicorn.