Hello again! I know I haven't updated in a really long time, and got a couple messages asking if I'm alive....but yes I'm alive. Life has been, interesting. I know everyone has their own issues and has their own ups and downs so I didn't think I'd share mine and keep it all to myself. But I can't help it. I'm so tired. So far this years been bleh, the end of last year been bleh.
I know I told a little bit about my dad and what he's going through and figured, I haven't really updated anyone on his status. Back in November, mid November, my dad went to Chicago. He wanted to do something he likes to do and no way any of his family were going to stop him. He went to a pipe show in Chicago with my stepmom and brother. Met some of his friends up there, had a great time.....I got a phone call maybe the 2nd or 3rd evening of him being at his pipe show, saying he wasn't doing too wel and that they're rushing home. They drove there cause that's normally how they do those trips. So all day that day I been worried, pacing, and on the verge of tears. A few hours later, my sister calls. I'm with my mom at this point cause I needed someone. My sister was choking back tears as she told me, "Dad's gone." I froze. My dad was pretty much the only one (at the time and blood related) that gave a damn about me coming out. I dropped to my knees and just, broke. It's still hard. The holidays, our birthday (our birthday is the same day). I just keep telling myself, he's in a better place. But still, I miss him.
I figured I'd also give an update on my Transition.
It's going well. I know thats pretty vague, but it's going better than the last time I made a journal, I mean....alot. I'm on 4 hormones now (progesterone, spironolactone, estradiol, finasteride. ALSO!!! I had surgery on March 4th!! I had breast augmentaion and a tracheal shave. I was so excited to have it done, and am still excited.
There was, however, a setback. In one small spot of the stitches on my right side, the stitch opened a little. Not like, super deep or anything, but enough that the surgeon wanted to put in new stitches and sutures. So, I been out of work since the 4th of March and as you can probably tell, it's been financially stressful X.X But I still think, its gonna be worth it at the end. I just need to relax and do as the doctor says so it'll heal properly. The better and quicker it heals, the faster I can get to work.
I managed to get some old friends back. Including my ex, which I thought just haaated me. No matter what, I'll still care and wish for the best for her. Some other friends tho have been acting oddly around me, like, not talking to me lol.
But yep. Thats pretty much it for me. Thanks for taking the time to read this if you did. I just had to vent a little and thought I'd give an update on whats going on with me. Loves to you.
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