The Hell Inside Their Hearts
April 19, 2001
Is there happiness for the innocent during war?
The poor children, to not
It's already too late. Without hate
They can't understand love
True love is true hate
Are there smiles? Is there laughter?
Have they tasted fear?
It's only a game the adults play... fear...
Do the children truly understand
What the colors of the stars in the windows mean?
Why do the blind seem to see the most?
During war, are the poets still in love?
During war, do the stars still shine
To guard all our dreams?
See the young bride
Her bloody wedding dress. Her groom,
A soldier. Dead. Young. Died too soon.
A storm rages in my heart
Threatening to rip my soul apart
Sometimes I wish with all my soul
That I never had never learned the truth at all
I wish that I had never opened my eyes
Thus allowing my hopes to plummet from the skies
I can't remember, I can't forget
My life and my knowledge I regret
Bored and Depressed
Bored and depressed
Sadness overwhelms me
No! It just can't be!
My heart has always known pain
Tears fall, as softly as rain
Circles... Dizzy... Please stop...
I'm like a stone in a never-ending drop
My life is but a game for others to play
In my life, I have almost have no say
My life is not my own!
I don't like being with people! I don't like being alone!
Screaming... Screaming... Blowing my head apart
Dying... Dying...But how? When? Where to start?
I don't want to live. I don't want to die
Happiness evades me. A perfect life is a lie
“Next,” the toneless drone goes on, repeating... over and over... Endlessly.
Another number... I mean person, gets up and shuffles lifelessly up to a cloudy-glassed window.
I'm sorry. I didn't mean to call them numbers. I've just been here so long, watching them, I'm beginning to think like them.
To describe my surroundings. They are colorless. The walls and the floor are so bland.
Again... Another lifeless body shuffles to the window as the first leaves.
The office personnel are faceless bureaucrats, with the emotion of robots. There are many people here. I do not know why