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OC - Jackdaw by OfNaturalDesign OC - Jackdaw :iconofnaturaldesign:OfNaturalDesign 8 0 YCH - Horse Plush - Nietz by OfNaturalDesign YCH - Horse Plush - Nietz :iconofnaturaldesign:OfNaturalDesign 3 2 Super Group Adoptables - CLOSED by OfNaturalDesign Super Group Adoptables - CLOSED :iconofnaturaldesign:OfNaturalDesign 10 15 WMRPG - Pony Character Bases by OfNaturalDesign WMRPG - Pony Character Bases :iconofnaturaldesign:OfNaturalDesign 5 0 WMRPG - Official Reference Sheet by OfNaturalDesign WMRPG - Official Reference Sheet :iconofnaturaldesign:OfNaturalDesign 2 0 White MountainRPG - Accepted Coats - Black by OfNaturalDesign White MountainRPG - Accepted Coats - Black :iconofnaturaldesign:OfNaturalDesign 2 0 Commission: Fire breathing monsterkid by AbsoluteDream Commission: Fire breathing monsterkid :iconabsolutedream:AbsoluteDream 5,685 265 Kosciusko Generator V2.1 by TigressDesign Kosciusko Generator V2.1 :icontigressdesign:TigressDesign 32 15 The Soul of Fear by CamilaAnims The Soul of Fear :iconcamilaanims:CamilaAnims 2,363 111 C:. Navitas by Remarin C:. Navitas :iconremarin:Remarin 2,161 35 Curiosities by Maquenda Curiosities :iconmaquenda:Maquenda 2,198 100 Neo Statcard by DanSyron Neo Statcard :icondansyron:DanSyron 570 31 .:ONELEFT:.Halloween Mutation Felikati Auction by Hosslord .:ONELEFT:.Halloween Mutation Felikati Auction :iconhosslord:Hosslord 8 11 Stuck by LordKutta Stuck :iconlordkutta:LordKutta 34 4 Chillin out  by Heartsong-Estate Chillin out :iconheartsong-estate:Heartsong-Estate 9 0


So, Hi everyone.
I don't know if people read those journal stuff, if people still care about it or not. But I think I need to explain what happen the last months of 2018. I feel more confortable to talk about it now and I don't really care what people think. It happens and we will have to live with it.

So.. In September, we were celebrating my nefew birthday and it was the last time we were a family.
I don't want to go into much details, but my dad is no more a part of my life. No more a family member. He is only a monster who did a terrible mistake and we are paying for it.
I have quit my job while doing a panic attack because I could'nt face my clients, fearing that they judge us on his act. That they think it happened to us too, but no..
I slept in what was my house three more days with a fondue fork under my pillow, I lived with a stranger for three days not knowing what to think or what to do, I've just stopped living at that moment.
All I had on these three days was a agressive father, talking with me in so much autority while I just give him the very minimal response.
I decided to get my stuff on the fourth day to go lived with my sister, two streets away from him. (Got my two cats with me, since he really dislike them)
So.. I am currently unemployed for two months now, I've lost my dad, I have my driving lessons to pay, my cats to feed and clean.. I just really don't know what to do other than taking one day at a time. I started to feel alright near the end of november with the help of a man with who I worked, that is so sweet and with a lot of patience, and my family. (When my mom don't start her murderous speech over my dad, we are a family I guess ... : ) )

On a more positive note, when my dad quit my life, I finally was free. Free of his sexual comment on me, free to think what I want, Free to be me. Free to talk with who I want..
I am alive and at the same time, dead inside.
That's a terrible feeling..
But I have my broken family with me. 
And that's the best thing ever.

(For my dad, well if you want to know what he became:
-He started dating a woman the week after his action. Being really flirteous with her. The woman he dates is so sweet but my dad always told us he would never want to have something with her since ''she is so much Out of this earth'', ''stupid woman who thinks astrology guide our lives'' and ''too much into supernatural stuffs''..So.. We are kind of A LOT confused about this..
-He was a very messy guy that always tell me that if he lives in a messy house it was because I don't clean the house.. And now he lives in a very clean house : D ...
- I sometimes go back there when he is at work to retrive some stuff i've left there (With a lot of fear in my stomach..) and i've found out he was so much happier without us : D, he seems to live the big life, buying himself a very large television and cleaning my stuff out, maybe because he is going to live with his isoteric woman he doesn't like. (Really just want a woman to be macho over her .. )
I've said it, well.. The big lines i'll say. So, sorry if I don't feel the best sometimes, we can't always keep the mask on.)

Have a good day <3


Artist | Hobbyist | Digital Art
¦ I'm a Canadian Girl, from Québec. My first language is french, but I try my best to be understand in english.¦
¦ I am 21 years old¦
¦ I'm a friendly girl, can be crazy sometimes and serious when it's needed. I'm very shy, but i'll never bite first¦
¦Love Wolves and Horses¦
¦Fursona: Work In Progress¦


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Koekeldoedeltje Featured By Owner May 17, 2018  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thank you so much for the watch! :heart:
PlagueMage Featured By Owner Mar 3, 2018  Student Digital Artist
♥♥♥ Thanks for the watchie ♥♥
♥ Good luck for the free raffle ♥
HarpyRex Featured By Owner Mar 3, 2018  Hobbyist Digital Artist
You're welcome,I love your art <3
PlagueMage Featured By Owner Mar 3, 2018  Student Digital Artist
See my journal ♥
TremorDusk Featured By Owner Dec 22, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
thank you for the llama
are-we-dancers Featured By Owner Jun 16, 2017
    thank you for the watch! much appreciated ♥
PoisonSoldat Featured By Owner Apr 16, 2017  Student Digital Artist
Thank you for the watch! I really appreciate the support :la:
HarpyRex Featured By Owner Apr 16, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Ça fais plaisir, tu as tellement d'belles choses dans ta galerie <3
PoisonSoldat Featured By Owner Apr 16, 2017  Student Digital Artist
Ouah merci beaucoup :3 !
ScottishRedWolf Featured By Owner Jan 23, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Hi o': Are you still able to do the contest?
I loved the red panda that you were working on ;v;
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