I see that last time I put in a journal entry it was mostly about depression. Well, I tried a couple of anti-depressants during the last year. The first one worked eventually but it messed with my brain for a few weeks to start with and left me feeling very ill and disorientated. Some side effects stayed throughout so I decided to come off of that drug even though friends saw a definite improvement in my mood. I had to reduce it over about three weeks before I could try another option. The second drug took about three months to show signs of working but I persevered as there were no adverse side effects. The change was subtle and I wasn't really sure it was doing anything for quite a while, but finally I feel like I've come out of a dark cloud. I was there for a couple of years though. Generally I'm feeling more upbeat and more capable of sorting out my life and achieving things. I hope I can keep the black dog at bay.
I know how this feels. I've been on antidepressants for three years now. Despite the side effects it's probably worth it since I can now function day-to-day. I'd rather not be on them, but I don't think I have that option at the moment.