Of course I can lose myself in artwork for a while, creating something fictional that fills a gap, and that will keep me fleetingly happy, But where I used to draw or paint a lot, it has become increasingly difficult to find the enthusiasm for it. This is a problem because it's really the only worthy skill I have and if I can't make a career out of it I'll be floundering to find anything else as fulfilling. I suppose if I found happiness elsewhere in my life my enthusiasm for all these things would come back. If I drag myself out of apathy in order to paint I am usually happy with the results but it's short lived. My other creative outlet is music. I play drums in a punk band, and the spontaneity and immediacy of that is good. I also create music on my computer, sometimes original stuff that could be practically any style of music, or covers of any music or themes that I happen to like. You can find a few of those things if you search for Harnois75 on Youtube.
I thought about joining Match.com or something like that to see if I can find the woman to make me feel like a complete person, but writing a profile that sells you when you are in the grip of a depressive mood is difficult, not to say rather pointless.